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Realised I’m really struggling and as such have got some help but I’m suspicious that the online CBT I’ve signed up for is just my way of piling even more stuff onto myself in my usual self destructive way of trying to just do more.

@bathams_drinker That’s a good way to see it. I’m trying to deliberately set aside recharge time.

I know I should rest because I feel very burned out at work, but I have one free day off and I can’t stop pushing myself to do stuff. The productivity comes with an undercurrent of anxiety.

@Andrinanosleep @AskADHD Yes I worry as I haven’t told anyone at work I have ADHD as I think it would have negative consequences (shouldn’t be like that but that’s another issue). But then I remember how much my loved ones resisted the idea I had it. I don’t think NT people can really tell

Hey my neurodivergent family ☺️🥰 do you guys ever worry that people can tell your adhd / on are ASD? It’s really on my mind that people at work can tell and I don’t know why it’s bothering me 😣🙃 #askadhd

@get_inflow Too dangerous to talk so just nod and half smile to gauge their reaction and turn it into a happy smile or sympathetic smile depending on. So silence.

What's your #ADHD catchphrase? Some classics include: 💬 Wait... what? 💬 Where's my phone?

Pssssttt hey, businesses! I'll let you in on a little secret. There's a huge population of people that have ADHD &/or social Anxiety, and talking in the phone is a literal fear & struggle If your only contact option is for customers to CALL you, I promise you'll never see us.

@autisticastle Pick my skin, binge eat, scroll on my phone endlessly and spend money online on things I don’t really need.

@AnnaBebana Damn right 😁

@Mihjamoveson Small victories are still victories!

Since I’ve started meds, got organised and starting blocking whole days to studying I’m getting about 4 x 25 minutes of actual coursework done in a whole day. That sounds so rubbish but it’s more than I’ve ever consistently achieved before.

@annagranta Me too. Love being a tiny person marching furiously around sometimes.

@Mihjamoveson I'm tiny!

Does anyone else walk really fast?

@WhatTheADHD Methylphenidate helped with focus but I couldn’t keep taking it due to side effects. I’m on Elvanse now and it helps with starting tasks. The differences are subtle but it’s there.

#FollowerQuestion how much do meds help others? I've been on vyvanse for a bit & I think I expected too much. It doesn't make me a better listener/worker, although I think I have the capacity to be - but it still seems to be about making choices, rather than meds making me normal

@get_inflow Yeah I was a hyperactive kid until I went to school and I suddenly became quiet and withdrawn. We (my family) used to laugh about the difference because it was so pronounced. Now it makes me sad because I figured out I just learned to mask.

Reminder: Hyperactivity in #ADHD isn't always visible to others. Some of us have learned to mask our hyperactivity, while others have a more internalized experience (racing thoughts, restlessness, etc). 💡

This also makes me realise how awfully I’d perform if I had a job that required me to work on things in this way. Lucky to have a mostly practical job that suits my ability to get things done.

Like I’m proud of this and grossly ashamed too. But it means I might be able to avoid the hyper productive few days at the end where deadline pressure means I can work for 6 hours straight.

Who has sneaked into my house and secretly decaffienated my coffee?

@AdultingADHD Yes it’s taken me a long time to realise this. I repress and hide my feelings and I avoid putting myself in situations where I will be rejected or hurt. Used this tactic to convince myself I wasn’t sensitive at all.

Any ADHDers who don’t think they’re sensitive? I never used to think I was, but then I realised I had my guard up to protect myself from my feelings, because I am sensitive.

@headcontents Me too! I argued with the psychiatrist when she said I was because I am extremely quiet, shy, always exhausted. But the evidence was there and I can see it now. Meds removed the anxiety that was just my brain whirling at high speed.

@_HanArchi Oh I worry about this every day

How many ADHD Instagram accounts can I follow before my IG friends realise I have ADHD and do I want them to find out this way?

@Villanraine @AskADHD Also the book “unf**k your habitat” was really helpful. It’s for people who are struggling and I got a lot out of reading it (haven’t finished it yet though 🤷‍♀️)

@Villanraine @AskADHD Very very small tasks, I use the Tody app which schedules things based on when they were last done. And try to do just 10 or 20 mins a day. It’s a struggle.