Mike Whitacre

For another... the effort was made and quickly faded, and any other effort would hurt more being alone with my own thoughts, being alone to be responsible for my own peace, at least in the physical plain of existence.

I don't often voice what I want from others, only that I'm confused by others. In a weird way, I find what I want from others be kind of despicable... It's despicable because there's little reason to tell people what I want from them because, for one, who the hell am I?

My heart has been heavy lately, so I'm going on-and-off on decisions.

It's sometimes a relief knowing I don't have to do more.

Sometimes care and move on, sometimes hoping to see if caring meant something important beyond myself. Sometimes, I'm just fine seeing that I probably should've stayed in my shell. Who knows? Just glad I cared when I was able to...

Maybe I'm stupid, resilient, or both, but I don't really care if I mean anything to anyone. It certainly would be nice to mean something, but I don't need to mean anything. Even when I do try to express some care, I don't need to mean anything because of it. I just want to care.

Theological thought experiment: God > religion. I'm sure even the Pharisees would agree with this statement because they would argue religion is key to knowing God, a religion is not greater or equal to God. If anything, they'd pick it apart to find the blasphemy elsewhere.

The progressive Christian spits on the wall of Forgiveness because it doesn't mean condoning sin. The exchange-minded Christian spits on the wall of Forgiveness because in his mind, to forgive means to condone even when it is explicitly means to not condone.

Why give a crowd of people various generalized parables and teachings, but why also scold the disciples on their lack of faith?... If you're whipping out your scales to determine proper scaling and "fair" exchanges, you likely failed both theologically and philosophically.

Even if someone doesn't want to chew on that theological morsel, they should, at least, chew on philosophical questions: Why this here, but something else here? To be more specific: Why is Jesus cordial with prostitutes at a dinner table, but he's beating merchants at a temple?

There's something I find saddening about someone who makes a list of what Jesus was, not to promote a worthy theological discussion but to cut a clear divide between ideologies, which is fair enough to some degree. However, a caricature gets presented...

I honestly can't wait until the majority of posts from this account are links. I won't give any care to how much the algorithm hates it.

Just to explain, or to remind myself as well: I'm not going to follow back on the writing account. Apologies if I forget this from time to time and unfollow. I really would rather unfollow than block or mute for it.

I'm still in the process of putting things together and game planning. Winter really roughed me up with all its busy shenanigans, though, and the recovery process has been slow. Yes, I have been #writing stuff, but my writing/ publishing confidence isn't quite there yet.

As it stands, my recharging is taking too long, and I feel like I need to change my mental battery for a new one. Unfortunately, I'm not sure how to get a new one, and I lost the manual on how to change batteries.

I'm too much of a loner and control freak for my own work to plan for visual aids at this point, unfortunately. So, really, audio writing is really the best I can really commit to at this point.

This year, I'll commit to a certain project that I will not only #write, but I'll record an audio version of it as well... For the record, I really hate that I have to resolve to do this, but the times require adaptation, even if it's late adaptation.