sovereignty

when i remember, i often wonder how i made it through things that should have extinguished my light, how i kept going. n Allaah made me realize, it was the trust in Him that overrode the apparent hopelessness i was immersed in. trusting isn't based on probable outcome. it's not in anticipation of a specific result. it's to know that everything has a meaning, it has a function, n Allaah is in full control. bc the most unbearable thing isn't suffering. it's meaninglessness. it's the, 'what's the point?'. Allaah tacaala is the point. That's what kept me going. That i had Him to look forward to, to feel accompanied by, to talk to, to seek protection in. To direct my heart n everything vulnerable to. that made everything on the outside bearable. That trust was loadbearing. It carried me more than i carried it. bc it meant there was a part of me that couldn't be fractured, couldn't be fragmented or disrupted. i could be in pieces n that trust would bring me back to wholeness. everytime. subxaanAllaah. im remembering the verse about believing in Allaah alone being the firmest, unfailing handhold.. it's amazing, when unbelievable tension n pressure doesn't make you collapse, but makes you transmute. transform.

Ya rabb. was just thinking about the dua against insincerity n riyaa: allaahumma inni audu bika an ushrika bika wa ana a'lam wa astaghfiruka lima la a'lam

forgot to share this earlier. a simple dua compilation me n @Maktuub333 did some years ago that we never got to complete, that i revisit when i need longer duaas. may Allaah accept all of our duaas for kheyr n grant us even better in this world n the next docs.google.com/document/d/1o0…

@Nyx11568 ❤️‍🩹

@NeoSomaliana I hear you. the world feels increasingly chaotic, and sometimes its better to step back from what weights the heart down but I’m glad your Islamic/quran reflections will still be here Inshaa Allah.

so over my takes. thoughts. language itself. i'm back to my childhood silent watching n just experiencing. acknowledging, n seeking Allaah through it. bc the world that i'd devote sensemaking to, it's gone. now i'm just tryna preserve the life of my heart from incoherence

@pashadelics What is this? Please stay away from niqabis and trying to speculate on them or dictate to them what they should do. And then trying to make your own bias seem like a concern for how society will receive us. Plenty of things for you to tend to if that's your worry

amazing. i always had difficulty picturing the steps. in my ignorance i thought arafah was one of the last steps, n safa n marwah one of the first

@Nyx11568 you're too kind, baarakallaahu fik when i say takes, I'm not including the islamic ones. That's understanding that Allaah gave me that I'm sharing further. but everything else.. It's tiring to keep taking in n tryna make sense of the senseless state we are in. نسأل الله العافية

@NeoSomaliana I love your takes, and the way you write. You r truly one of the few people in any social media platform whose posts I look forward to, esp your Islamic and Quran reflections. May Allah guard you.

I joke and say the sun in africa is covered and the one in europe is naked 😅

@shestryingxjd You going soon or just mentally preparing yourself? Bc same

is it crazy that i’m worried about being physically prepared for hajj

@eleutheromanian 😮, another added perspective to the verse:

Pray for protection from greed because greed shelters the heart from gratitude.

Life in Ras Asayr

@JasonBekiaris @ik_fiinn 😭😭😭😭 WHY (i know why 😒😒)

@ik_fiinn Thankfully only one more season of this nonsense and it’s over. I hope they never get home and the creatures of the night devour every last one of them

I have a feeling they're going to cancel this series at one point

@iskabint 😅😅

@NeoSomaliana nooo wait, I meant take the back piece and remove it from the chair

This awoowe changed his to the seat next to me but didn’t give me time to remove my hijab. I almost missed my stop bc I didn’t want to make him stand up but also not risk my hijab beeing yeeted off in the process. Today is going to be a long day…

I lowkey just endure and endure and endure and endure and well you get it

realized that animals are naturally grateful. actually, all organisms (except for pathogens) have a natural response where they mirror goodness except for when they have been harmed by humans. that includes children

@ralter An editor named Alter? Now that's proper nominative determinism

So so beautiful. bc yes, my deep curiosity is very much love for the world n really, the signs of Allaah everywhere. The clues n wisdom embedded in everything is just something that fills me with joy. Despite the bad in the world, there's so much good to look frwd to discovering

Took a long walk with my 4 yr old in the woods. Carried her the last mile. She said she missed being carried by me. While pressing her face up against mine she said, "Mommy I love you as much as you love me." 😭