Nico/Tooru ! 💙 BACK TO LIFE

260403 #지성 #JISUNG bbl 💬 “it is a night where i’m worried about czennies. seeing you hurting makes it really hard for me too. have you eaten😌 i originally planned to go live today and talk with you, but i was worried that if i spoke during a time like this when things are sensitive and difficult what i want to say might get misunderstood, so i decided to write instead. these days, i’ve been busy filming a drama and preparing various things. i’ve been eating well in between, so please don’t skip your meals either. last week, we had our final concert as seven members. actually, i had already been quietly crying since our practice sessions in the rehearsal room, but when i saw czennies in front of me, i became even more immersed. when we sang my youth, so many memories came to mind. i think what makes our lyrics special is that they’re not only messages for czennies, but also words for dream and for myself. especially during the concert, our songs felt different from usual. even when it wasn’t my part, i found myself singing along. i tried to cherish every single moment, remembering the lights, the stage setups, czennies, and our members, everything i could see. everyone has their own precious life, and in the end, choosing a path and moving forward is up to each individual. i’m the same. i think anyone with a dream eventually reaches a moment where they must quietly walk toward what they believe in. at first, i resented it too. but knowing that person, knowing all the effort they put in, and even though i didn’t express it much, i want to support the path ahead of a hyung i truly liked, from afar. nothing lasts forever, but just like how wishing for something to last forever is love, i think letting someone go, even when you don’t want to, is also love. i think the people having the hardest time right now are czennies. i didn’t write this hoping you would feel the same as me, but because i kept wondering what could help you feel even a little better. i know that the love czennies give isn’t something ordinary or something to be taken for granted, which is why I worry even more. 😭 i hope you always stay healthy and find happiness often. i’m letting go of one of the moments i loved the most in my life. i can proudly say i spent 10 years that were more special and precious than anything else. but this isn’t the end, it’s part of a process, so there will be even better outcomes ahead. it may be hard right now, but when you feel better, i hope you can slowly look back on the past and also look forward to what the members and i still have yet to show you. there will be so much. please wait just a little longer. i’m sorry for causing you such deep pain, czennies. tonight, i hope you have gentle dreams.”