𝓡𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝓖. —— ♬ .ᐟ

"i can't do this," i thought. then: "and even if i can't, i have to."

god, if i start getting fat, jackie’s totally gonna know. she’s already pissy i’m hanging out with you so much . i just wish we had any clue where we were .

i had at least six at a time. and they all did

I’m sorry about that. my mom, I’m sure deep down she cares about me, but she lets my dads death overshadow it.

i knew what my nannies hugs were like. that was it

I think I miss the idea of my mom but not her if that makes sense.

it can’t be much longer, right? they’ll come soon?

felt

i still don’t even want it, rachel.. i just want to get home, get rid of it and forget all about this.

i just.. i need to be really careful about this .

good. sometimes i worry i’m being a huge dick to your friends. but you’re my best friend. i gotta defend you, it’s in my nature.

no ! don’t , rach . then everyone’ll know about it … about the b — you know . i don’t want jackie to find out .

i’ll start bitching out whoever’s lookin’ at ya wrong. not like i got a reputation to uphold with them. should focus on themselves instead of micro – managing you.

i know.. she keeps staring at me. and she told me, my body isn’t my own anymore.

she wakes you to see it, she’s weird.

Till avoidant attachment do us part twin