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The reason why practically every Religion, that is not Rooted in the Natural World, condemns Sexual Self Pleasure is because it makes you Sexually Whole Within Your Self, which keeps your Body, Soul and Spirit in Inner Sexual Cummunion with God through your Personal Orgasm Bliss. Unnatural Religions must sexually dissociate you from your Body as this is the first step to severing you, uprooting you from your Personal connection to God. Than in it's place they implant a counterfeit spirit that becomes the gateway for the rest of their indoctrination, always able to pull on your sexual wounds to make you believe what they want. If you want to take over people, the most efficient way of doing it is through causing severe sexual trauma. This is exactly what the Parasitic forces of unnatural Religion have done. As an entire World we have been invaded and violated by Evils that seek to sever us from our Self and God at every level of Reality, down to our very Root.

The Interesting thing about Deconstructing dogma from Religion is you end up developing a Greater Personal Inward Relationship to God, because there is no Religious resource that can be 100% Trusted. Thus you actually end up walking in more Faith of what you Feel than you "know". Obviously this is how it should be. Otherwise you are just some Robot following Religious programming. But the process of Deconstruction just makes this so much more apparent. It shows you that dogma is Really nothing more than smoke and mirrors. Like look at the Bible. The whole thing was made well after Yeshua had done his teachings. We don't even have any known writings made from Yeshua Himself. All we have is supposed second hand accounts of His teachings from his apostles. Fragments at best of what He may have said. And than most the rest of the New Testament is written by Paul who didn't even know the Earthly Yeshua. Point is, merely reading the Bible is not going to tell you anything for Certain on matters of The Christ. Nor is it going to give you a perfect Moral compass for your Life that allows you to checkout and go on autopilot. You have to actually use Discernment, Reason and Intuition to navigate the questions and challenges of Life. Yeshua's supposed words are not meant to be taken Dogmatically. They are meant to be nuanced Living Words with multidimensional meaning. It's almost like maybe just maybe Yeshua's Intent was never to create a Religious Book or a Religious system, but was to simply spark a Message that would build and strengthen our own Inward Intuitive Relationship to God and actually Free us from the very Religious baggage and bondage of His day and our day. After all, if any of His supposed teachings are to be believed than He spent most His time taking to task the Religious Authorities of His day, while offering only Love, Sovereignty, Compassion and Wisdom for the common people, for all the lowly "sinners". Yet Christianity incorporated has marketed a specific distorted image of Yeshua to sell you their system. To use the Truth, recognition and connection that people Intuitively Feel from Yeshua as bait to reel them into Bible and Church Dogma which severs the Personal connection, replacing it instead with what you must believe and do to be "saved". Using Fear, Shame and threats of eternal torturous Damnation should you not obey. This is not God. This is the distortion of power hungry parasitic Man who use Religion to Control their fellow Man. You simply don't need Religion nor any Religious Text to connect to God. All you need is a Sovereign Heart, Mind and Body. Religion at best can offer a support system. And Religious Text at best can Inspire. But these are NOT substitutes for a Personal connection to God. They will quickly become shackles if you rely solely on them instead of Your own Soul connection.

Cults are so effective because they bait with promises of Love and Belonging. The most Human things we All need. This is why you never Realize your getting into a Cult until your in it. Only after the switch do you Realize. But by than they hope you are too brainwashed to notice. They prey on every part of you that is wounded, that needs more Love. Their messages are at first one of "Healing" or "Salvation" but they do the exact opposite. They put these behind dogmas and doctrines, allegiance's and gurus. Eventually you are told exactly what to do, believe, feel, think. And should you falter than your "Healing" your "Salvation" or "Belonging" your "Ascension" is in some way threatened. This is why many never leave, because they form their whole identity and sense of community within the Cult. You have to Fully Love and Belong In your Self, being Secure In your own Inner Direct connection to God, Source before you are able to once and for all be Free.

Not all Sex Cults involve having actual Sex. For instance "Purity" Cults that push shame and fear based "salvation" or "ascension" programs of anti-Masturbation or pledged Chasity. Controlling, Manipulating people through what they can do with their very own Sexual Body and Life. We tend to think of Sex Cults as having to involve Physical Sexual violations and manipulations. These are obvious, very Overt. Though we often give "Purity" Sex Cults a pass, because oh they are just teaching Religious "Values". No. If anything is Controlling, Manipulating you away from the Sexual Sovereignty of your own Mind, Heart, Body, Soul, Spirit, Life than it is still a Sex Cult. There is a fine line between following some set of Values vs Cult obedience. True Values do NOT demand you forsake the Value of your own Sovereignty, your own Bodily Autonomy. They do not reject things as Foundational to your Sexual Well Being as your God given Right to Pleasure your own Body. Sex Cults are much more common than we think once we Clearly see the criteria for them. They are not just on the fringe. They are woven into the very fabric of Puritanical Religions and ideologies the World over. Rather you are being manipulated into Sex or manipulated away from Sex, it is Sex Cult programming all the same. Until we Realize this we will continue to let everyday Religious and ideological Sex Cult behavior go unquestioned. Reclaim your Sexual Sovereignty from all forms of Sex Cults. Manipulating Sex is the number one way in which Cults of all types keep people under their Control. Sexual shame, fear, trauma is more effective than anything else because it cuts to the Root, to the very Core of who we are. If you can Control someone Sexually than you can Control everything else about them. Don't give your Sexual Sovereignty over to the Cults. Instead simply Live from True Values of Sovereignty, Love and Joy.

We may never know in text the True unfiltered teachings of the True Yeshua. Because allegedly He never directly recorded His own teachings. All we have is what His supposed apostles recorded from His teachings and Life. This bothers me greatly. Because while I do Feel there was a True Yeshua who was Divinely Inspired by the Holy Spirit/Source Love and possibly even the Solar Christ Being Incarnate It Self. It is impossible to know for sure on a textual level what He Really actually ever said or did. Though interestingly, this may have been by design as far as Yeshua deciding not to record anything, likely fearing it would be twisted as soon as it was written down. That instead He may have relied on simply spreading the message through Living word of mouth in hopes of keeping it to His specific time and context for the express needs of His day. But than His apostles, who could have been self proclaimed for all we know, were like super fans who just could not help but to record stuff. Not to mention the Gospels and New Testament were supposedly not even compiled until well after Yeshua's "death". There was already plenty of time to just fabricate whatever, all bound up in the Bible "Canon" which was carefully crafted by the Church. And most of what Christians take as Church doctrine comes later from Paul who wasn't even following Yeshua until after his conversion from an apparent vision of Him. Well I mean let's be Real. Anyone can claim to have a vision of "Christ" and start entire teachings and churches from it, using their supposed "experience" with "Christ" as spiritual street cred to give themselves more validity. Just look at the "Awakened" world today with countless people from the New Age to Traditional Occultism claiming to have visions, experiences with "Christ". And I'm not just talking about one having strong Feelings from some sense of deep Christly Love. Some Christ Conscious or Awakening of the Heart. No, I'm talking people claiming full on manifestations. Now don't get me wrong. I believe it's possible to have a Personal Relationship with "Christ" the "Holy Spirit", Source, however you call it. I put "Christ" and "Holy Spirit" in quotes here though because Honestly as I've gotten more Discernment, I question these titles and names even more than before, even though I do believe they are Real Source forces. As it is there are a million and one different ideas as to what the word "Christ" even means. Some claiming Christ is simply a Divine Title for one who has been Christened, anointed by the Holy Spirit/Source. Others claim Christ is a singular Solar Being that either entered into Yeshua when he was 30 or that Yeshua was a directly Human Incarnation of this Solar Being from the beginning. Than of course you have the Traditionally Religious people who claim Yeshua is an Incarnation of God the Father or is the son of God the Father, with differences between Oneness and Trinitarian doctrines. Personally I find the Traditional Religious views to be way over simplified in a Theocratic superstitious view of God that is not Naturalistic at all. Not to mention I take issue with the idea that the bipolar vindictive dogmatic Old Testament God is the same God of the New Testament Christ. It makes no sense at all. Than on the other side, I find the more New Age and Occult explanations of "Christ" to be far too overly complex in their convoluted cosmologies that are meant only to ultimately dissociate you from God/Source just like superstitious Religion does. Nor do these "Christ" cosmologies really make any sense either when you stop taking them at face value. So I don't know anymore. I've been through so much deconstruction that many things I thought I knew, even relatively recently, have been put back to the drawing board. All I believe for sure anymore is that there is a True Divine Source Flow of Sovereign Love of which I do believe streams forth from what we could call the Holy Spirit and that there certainly could be Immensely Conscious Compassionate Solar Beings that assist their Solar Systems of Life to develop through their own Freewill. And I have no problem whatsoever believing that there was a True Yeshua who was at bare minimum anointed, Inspired by the Holy Spirit to spread a message of Love, Devotion and Sovereignty. And I can even believe the True Yeshua was a direct Human Incarnation of our Suns Consciousness. But I do not believe one has to believe that Yeshua was 100% God to be "saved" of their "original sins". Yeshua has been unhealthily deified to a Cult degree. When Really I believe the most likely situation is simply that Yeshua was Divinely Inspired, Being In Total Alignment and Attunement to the Holy Spirit and Christ Being Within Him. And that His message was that We can have this Alignment and Attunement as well. The message was never to worship Him as God Himself. That's something the Church added to create just another Religion to Control people. Possibly even outright fabricating scriptures. Again how can we know? The only way to know is to Align and Attune your Self to God/Source Directly from Within. Than when you read things like scripture supposedly from Christ you will have an Intuitive Feeling for it. For what is Real and what is false. Or you may notice that the core of it is Real but it is out of proper context and translation which distorts, warps the entire thing. And eventually you end up Realizing that the True scripture is already Within you. Thus you don't even need any "Holy" text. After all you are not some Robot that needs to read lines of code to know how to Morally function and how to Live With, In and By God's Sovereign Love. Of course I understand that it's only natural to want to have things like Inspiring words to read, to have something to reflect upon. There is nothing wrong with taking Solace and Inspiration from scriptures that you Feel are In Alignment to True God/Source. But neither is there anything wrong with questioning and disagreeing with scriptures that you Know through your own connection with Gods Sovereign Love is something True God/Source would never teach. Fundamentalist will not like this Intuitive approach because they believe you must believe every word of the Bible is the direct word of God. That how dare you Intuitively Interpret or apply Reason and Discernment to scripture. And yet they are constantly preaching about what the scriptures "really" mean in ways that support their dogmas. And they will immediately throw any other view out as heresy. They are totally confined to their programming, unable to venture out of their dogmatic bubbles. The Bible and their Church doctrine is a ball and chain on their Soul. And no matter how many Keys of Truth you give them they will not even try to Free them Self's. They are the modern day Pharisees, so convinced, so contrived, so self righteous in their Religious bondage. And often incredibly hypocritical and far more Morally worse off than just your everyday person who tries to just Live a Normal, Good, Joyful Life. There are those who know very little or even nothing of scripture who nonetheless Live closer to True Godly/Source Morality because they are Naturally just Living a Sovereign Love Aligned Life. Far more so than those who "know" every word and yet do the complete opposite of True Godly/Source Morality because they are NOT Living from Sovereign Love, but rather from a need to be "Right" and "Holier" and more "Saved" than everyone else. Living in Pride, Fear and Shame with hardened Minds and hardened Hearts. Closing their Inner ears to the True Word of God.

If you have an anxious inner wounded child from a Religious history of shame & fear than be very careful even when reclaiming for Good, language and symbology from the Religion. Because it may trigger the weak scared inner child in you instead of making your inner child Stronger. I have been experiencing this lately in reclaiming language and symbology around the Holy Spirit. I have noticed that when I talk to God using the term Source Mother I tend to Feel Stronger. Though when I talk to God using the term Holy Spirit it can throw me emotionally back into that scared little boy. This is tough because I believe the Holy Spirit is a Real Benevolent force. I have Felt it My Self. I believe the Holy Spirit is ultimately just another way of describing Cosmic Source Energy, the Universal Love Flowing from God. The same could even be said for Kundalini if working from a more eastern perspective. Point is there are many words that ultimately describe the same Raw Universal Energy that Ignites and Flows through Life. Though I so often find myself wanting to use a mostly Christian lexicon because that was so much of my World. I'm so familiar with it. I try to salvage anything and everything I can that is Good from Christianity. But it seems that every time I try to express in a more Christian lexicon and symbology I run into parasitic thoughtforms and egregores galore. My inner child wants so badly to be able to make peace with Christianity, to be able to have a Healthy relationship to it's language and symbols. One that isn't steeped in shame, fear and superstition. But if I'm being brutally Honest, I seem to Feel overall much better when not using Christian terminology. It's frustrating, because I can talk Authentically in it, and yet I struggle to Feel it in complete Alignment at times. Sometimes it makes me feel damn near fake with how much I go on about Holy Sprit this and Christ this and so on and so forth. When writing about these things it always Feels so much better, though when in my moments of existentialism and stress I so often find myself flopping around like a fish looking for words and meaning that I seem unable to find. And because I've gone through so much Religious, New Age and Occult deception I just don't trust anything anymore. I worry that every word I use, no matter how purely I mean it, will just hook me to a false force that will only work against me. As of now Source Mother is the most comforting language I have. And I'm surprised even this has remained, seeing how I have just recently gone through a deeper revelation to just how much more corded My Soul has been to distorted Matriarchal programming than I had once thought, causing me to step far away from the social media Goddess Cult. The fact that My connection to Source Mother has remained Strong through this Thankfully shows how Real that Cosmic Mother principle is, and how She is everything that I did not get from Patriarchal Religion and Puritanical Matriarchy. Honestly, I think I'm just better off completely letting go of the Christian lexicon and symbology. I've tried for so long to reclaim it. From Gnostic Christianity, to New Age Christianity to Occult Christianity, to Mystical Christianity. But it just never seems to resonate beyond a certain initial point, and seems to eventually always try to take me backwards into that weak little boy. I'm NOT saying that Christian language and symbology makes one inherently weak. I'm sure there are plenty of people who get nothing but Strength and comfort from Christian terminology. And more power to them! That's Great! I'm certainly not trying to criticize or take that away from anyone. But for me, I think it's just best that I stick to a more Naturalistic language of simply the Cosmos, of things like Mother Earth, Cosmic Mother, Source. Like I want it to be as bare bones and directly to the point as possible, no frills, beyond any particular branch of Religion, Spirituality, Occultism or even Mysticism, nor a cold materialism. No I've already been there done that with Atheism. I'm just tired, tired of All of it. It hurts when you Feel God, Source, Holy Spirit so much, when you always have, yet every type of belief you've been through has failed that Feeling. Sometimes I think I'm maybe more Aligned to the Naturalistic Deist types. Though I do believe you can have a Personal Relationship with God, at least God's Love. And I certainly know that my Life has not been some mere coincidence set in motion by some Grand Architect that has no involvement in it's own Creation. But neither am I quite comfortable calling myself a Theist, certainly not a traditional one. So if I'm not a Theist, a Deist or an Atheist than what even am I? I don't know and Really I don't care. I believe in whatever is Sovereign Benevolent Devotional Love. I'm just here to enjoy Life, to Love, to Devote, to Create, to be Joyful. That's My Religion.

One thing, on the surface anyway, that I actually like from Paul is his Fruits of the Spirit. Love, Joy, Peace, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, Self-Control. These are All Good things to Live by. Though many misuse "Self-Control" to condemn things like Masturbation. "Self-Control" gets used as a catch all to condemn non-procreative Sexual Pleasure. That if you do things like Masturbate and watch anything Sexual than you have no Self-Control over your Sexual Passions. Paul himself seen the desires of the Flesh and of the Spirit being against each other. This is where so many Religious people mess up and slip into Puritanism. They may Live by some otherwise very Good principles, but their sexual shame and fear causes them to condemn the most Natural, harmless of Sexual Pleasures and Expression. They think to simply enjoy your Natural Libido, your Natural sexual needs is hedonistic, is addiction, is lack of Self-Control. This is like claiming the need to Eat regularly is a failure of Self-Control. That the need for Water is a lack of Self-Control. That the need to Breathe is a lack of Self-Control. They Feel their Natural urge for Sexual Release and think it is temptation. This creates a constant struggle that they mistake as a test of Self-Control. Self-Control has been corrupted into a Self sabotaging program of Oppression that actually Oppresses the Holy Spirit Flow Within them, damming it up in shame, fear, guilt. This is how Parasitic entities latch onto people and Harvest their energy, even masquerading as voices from "God" or as their "Conscious" telling them they are so "sinful" for having such desires. And so they stay in this looping inner war. And they project judgment on those who have a Healthy Relationship with their Sexual Passions as lacking Self-Control just because they do not repress themselves. This is why so much of the Religious, Spiritual, Occult world acts like those who Masturbate and watch Pornography are automatically addicts. They act like they are doing nothing but Masturbating every minute of the day, that they can't stop thinking about Sex. This is all just projection from the constant storm of sexual thoughts, feelings and desires they are battling in their head. Thoughts, feelings, desires that become discordant and anxious because they are not properly Flowing. Thus it is actually them who lack Self-Control. People mistake Oppression as Self-Control. Self-Control is NOT trying to abstain form Masturbation or Porn. Real Self-Control is about allowing your Sexual Pleasure to Flow Naturally In your Life. Is about engaging with it Consciously and Joyfully, instead of eventually breaking down and having a dissociated shame filled binge. It's like denying your Self regular Meals, starving your Self until you eventually break down and eat uncontrollably without even Really enjoying it, than feeling like you failed afterwards. This is the vicious cycle so many get themselves into. They fight their desires as long as they can than they break, rush through them, feel the guilt programming, seek forgiveness, rinse and repeat. All the intense discordant Emotional, Sexual, Psychic Energy from this cycle is what the Parasite Entities feed on as they burrow themselves deeper into the persons Body and Soul. I have no doubt that Paul was possessed by these Entities, which is why he added so much Puritanical strict non-sense to Christianity. He couldn't defeat his own Demons of Sexual Shame and thus passed them down the generations of Christianity. Many of his messages of Divine Love Feel very Aligned to True Benevolent Spirit. But when things get around Sex he slips up. This has always been the root problem in Christianity. There has Honestly been a lot of overall Good people throughout Christianity that I believe have been on some level Moved, Inspired, Guided by the True Holy Spirit. Though they can never Fill their Sexual Self with the Joy of the True Holy Spirit Fire because they refuse time and time again to deal with their Sin of Shame. Their Sin is NOT that they have Sexual Desires. Their Sin is that they let their Fear, Shame, Trauma cause them to shame, condemn, persecute, oppress those others who are Totally Innocent and Benevolent In their Sexual Joy. It's one thing when their battle is simply within themselves. But they never stop there. They project their battle of Sexual Self Hate onto Puritanical Crusades against others, causing Real harm to others and Society at large. This is the scourge of Puritanism and is why Christianity will never be All that it could be if it continues to trip over itself on non issues like Masturbation and Pornography. It's Honestly very sad, because I wish repressed Christians could Free themselves of their bondage in shame. It is a Hell all of it's own. A Hell they do not have to Live in. But so much of their understanding of the Holy Spirit as been Hijacked by Puritanical doctrine that they literally fear Masturbation and Pornography will send them to Hell. So instead they stay in a Self inflicted Hell, all while the Heaven of True Holy Spirit Sexual Joy awaits them if they would just surrender their shame.

Whatever Name, Title or Form you give God, one thing is certain. And that is, God is Sovereign Unconditional Universal Love. This is All you need to Know. You don't even need a Name, Title or Form. If you just do your best to Live In and For this Sovereign Love than you have God. Honestly the second we try to give Name, Title or Form is the second we risk corrupting God. Is the second we turn towards Dogma. Is the second we stop Living In God and start trapping ourselves in endless theory, theology, cosmology, philosophy. Even Mysticism can go too far into baseless abstraction that serves nothing but pointless pondering, leading to existential disembodiment with nothing but a jumbled up mind and spirit of confusion. It is understandable though to want to give God Name, Title and Form, because it can help us Personally relate to God. Names, Titles, Forms in some ways give us something more tangible to work with, even though they also risk separating us from God. It's walking a tightrope. We need to Personalize God enough to Ground God Into Human Life, Into the Human Condition. But to over classify God is to put God in a Box that in turn puts us in a Box of Dogma. Boxes that those who are power hungry use to build their empires to Control others through Doctrines of "God". This problem seems helpless and I have wrestled with it All my Life. Trying to find that Perfect Name, Title, Form of God. Trying to disconnect from any and all falsehood. To get to the utmost uncorrupted Core of True God. And yet no matter how many layers I peel back, there just always seems to be something more veiling the Truth. Most recently I have found the most Resonance in just referring and connecting to God as the Holy Spirit. And yet even in this I have run into some issues with, in regards to programs around the Holy Spirit. Like how the word Holy can mean set apart, but it also means Whole. Well, I don't like the set apart view of the word, as I Feel that prevents Wholeness. And I've even been taking more issue with the word Spirit itself, because of how it is almost always set apart from Matter. This doesn't help Integration at all. For what is Matter, but simply a more solid form of Spirit. Christian Dogma around the Holy Spirit doesn't help either, as it talks of it as something that enters you from outside yourself. And Puritanical Paulian Doctrine particularly disembodies you from the Holy Spirit through turning the Spirit against the Flesh. I don't jive with any of this. I believe it foundationally goes against Universal Cosmic Spirit, the Force that already Flows through Everything. And that Force is the Love of God. Though than we may ask, why is not all of Creation and every Being Loving than? Well I could only guess because of Freewill to go against what is Love, to quench the Spirit within them. The Freewill to choose Fear and ignorance over Love and Wisdom. For there can only be Freewill in a Loving Universe that gives it's Creations Sovereignty to Live their own Life. The unfortunate side effect of this is that it makes Evil an option. Plus I do not even know how Singularly Consciously Self Aware this Cosmic Spirit, Force, Breath is. Thus I do not necessarily subscribe to the idea that God is an All powerful singularly Conscious Self Aware Entity that can just on a whim miraculously fix everything. Thus when one cries out to be saved by God, salvation may not be able to be sent immediately. It may be that simply more Advanced Divine Benevolent Beings hear these cries through the Cosmic collective field of Love and thus through their actions they take measures to respond. Not to mention that I believe We are All to be the hands in which God works through. I guess what I'm saying is that, we can explain a lot of the question of why God "allows" Evil by simply saying, well not even God can snap their fingers and it all be better. The field, the Spirit of Sovereign Love that is God can in some way Respond, but it must Flow through to Beings that can actually give the Response Action through their own hands, even if those hands be perhaps some act of Nature or even something that speaks deep within your Intuition, allowing you to detour from danger all together. Point is, help must Flow through the Mediums of Life itself, and sometimes that may simply take Time to happen. Not unlike an emergency team instantly responding to a call, but there are realities of travel and traffic, even for what we would call God. Though at the same time I want to Clearly distinguish this idea from Occult doctrines that teach systems of Cosmic Governance like Spiritual Hierarchies that put all these middle Men "Angels" between You and God. It may very well be that there is some Alliance of Advanced Benevolent Cosmic Beings far beyond our comprehension that can help us, not unlike how we can help animals who are in need. Though even if this is the case, these Beings should never be put between You and your Direct Personal Relationship with God. With Sovereign Source Love. Point is, I do not believe that God indulges in some Heavenly Bureaucracy, even if God has to work through the hands of other Individual Beings. Which let me also say that I am not claiming to know for sure the power level of God. After All if God Flows through Everything than you would think that God could just re-write the Matrix at any time. I am in no way trying to limit the power of God or to restrain God. Though neither do I like how Religion claims to know that God is All Powerful, All Knowing and yet seems to do nothing but create a bunch of unnecessary unsolvable problems, like the problem of Evil. Religion can only contort itself into absurdity trying to explain these things theologically. I mean just look at the absurdity of the idea that the Old Testament God is the same God as the New Testament Christ. Why would God in the Old Testament make such strict rules and be so bipolar only to than become Christ to than be like, ha ha it was just a prank bro. You don't have to do all this shit, just Love thy neighbor. Like Clearly the New Testament God of Christ is not the same God of the Old Testament. But many Christians just can't admit this because it than destroys their entire Dogmatic theological world view and they are suddenly faced with having to question everything. They are still so stuck under the Fear of the Old Testament God programs that they can't dare take the view that Christ is something else entirely. A Divine Being that came to Free them from the bondage of the old corrupt system. See, the problem is that no one even tries to Honestly look at this stuff with any Reason. And by Reason I don't mean the "Logic" of cold Atheistic materialism that does nothing but automatically dismiss what they can't physically explain or perceive, turning even Atheism into a Religion. No, I'm simply talking about using one's basic skills of Discernment and looking at the big picture to see if it all makes any sense or not. Not for need of trying to explain everything, No that again puts us into the problem of over classifying, over explaining God. But also you should question Everything. The funny thing with all this, is that this constant balancing act tends to cancel its self out. In that you Really do come to the Realization that, Holy Shit trying to understand any of this is just so far beyond my comprehension. You get to the point where you Really don't want to deal with it anymore at all. And it is precisely In this moment that you Remember what God is even if you don't know the mechanics of God. You Realize that the only God worth Knowing anyway is Sovereign Love. You than just let Everything else go. This is not a denial of God. It is actually a Deep surrender to God. Not one of giving up your Sovereignty, but one of acceptance. Acceptance that the only thing you Know is worth anything at all is Sovereign Love. For you Know In your Heart that this is where All Goodness comes from, and you can Be and Live In this Goodness even if you Know nothing else about God in Name, Title or Form. This is the God, the Christ, the Source, the Holy Spirit that already Lives Within You. You just have to choose to Follow it, to Live it. It is Deeply Human, yet also beyond our limited Human understanding. And see, as soon as you make this Sovereign Love your Source, your Core, your God, than you will quickly notice that no system can manipulate you, can sell you a false God. You seek no more answers, you seek no more belonging, you seek only Action In Sovereign Love. And this is NOT the "love" of the "love and light" New Age disconnection or the "love" of Religious servitude that destroys the Self. No. This Love is simply you Living Life to it's Fullest through what is already Naturally your Passion, your Joy, your Love and how you share that Passion, Joy, Love with others. It is All so simple. Which is why there is so much shovelwear everywhere trying to bury you under so much bullshit that you just shut down, check out or get lost in endless study and existentialism. All to keep you from Your own Life so that you can be Harvested through your constant seeking of that which is already and always has been Within You.

You are NOT Free Alchemical labor. Sometimes all the parasite system needs to Harvest you is to take advantage of your propensity to automatically Alchemize all that is out of balance. This makes social media especially an endless siphoning scroll on your Time, Energy and Sanity. I have Really noticed how easy it is for me to slip into this. To be scrolling and see something crazy, to than feel compelled to Alchemize the entire issue, even if it's not something directly in my field that I talk about. And it's like why? Why do I just go into auto Alchemizing? Ending up having the thoughts, feelings, traumas and programs of dozens if not hundreds and thousands of other people swimming around my consciousness. It's exhausting. Essentially you are fooled into repeatedly doing massive scale Alchemical work that others should be doing for them Self's. It's similar to how your empathy can get taken advantage of, feeling like it's up to you to fix everything. No no. These are subtle ways we have been tricked into processing far more than our share, so that our Alchemical Fire can be Harvested. So that we become easily distracted and constantly stuck in the trenches of other peoples problems. This keeps us away from Focusing on our own Path, all of our Alchemical Fuel being burned up, leaving just fumes remaining for us. Enough of this. Your Alchemical Fire is NOT an open flame for just anything and everything to be processed. You get to pick and choose what you want to process, what is Truly meaningful and within your means to process. And I Highly suggest to slow the anti-social media scroll to a crawl. Get all that junk out of your Sovereign Alchemical space. Out of your Emotional Body and Psyche. Otherwise you won't be able to get away from it all. To get your own Peace back. Your own Thoughts, your own Feelings. Attempting to Alchemize damn near the whole World is an admirable endeavor but ultimately futile. What can make this extra difficult to get away from though is that for a lot of us, I know at least for me, I've had to constantly Alchemize my whole Life just to stay Sovereign, to prevent my Self from falling into insanity from every possible angle. Getting into one thing for a while only to Realize later it was just another Cult. And so than I end up Alchemizing that entire Cult experience into more Healing and Personal progress for my Self. This is the Power of Alchemy, of being able to Rebirth from bullshit over and over and over again. And so you just get in the routine of it. You are constantly Hypervigilant of everything, looking for the next deception to reveal itself. And yet even this very useful Important Discernment is twisted against you, as the Parasite entities know that they can keep you forever on the hook by simply throwing more insanity your way. It's bait, Alchemical rage bait. I believe this is even one reason why there's so many people out there who just randomly say such insane stuff out of no where. They are either possessed, or get temporarily possessed to say some dumb shit just to pull people into it, even those who are trying to fix it. Thus you don't need to even be directly arguing with people to be pulled into the madness. Because instead you will just argue internally with all the bullshit you've seen, wasting Time, Energy and Sanity processing it all in private. Like ok maybe you are learning a lot and even sharping your own Discernment, but is it Really worth it? To just keep throwing your Self into the insanity when you Really don't have to. No, no it's not. Unless it's something You still need to Heal, Alchemize within You, or something that is Directly, Immediately very Important to what you do, than just let it go. Don't get duped into an Alchemical hamster wheel. Reclaim and Re-channel your Alchemical Fire for what Truly matters. Stay laser Focused. Your Time, Energy and Sanity will thank you.

There is a problem of covert spiritual narcissism in the Goddess Queenosphere. Those treating themselves as God or as extra favored by God just for fact of them being a Woman. This is distorted Matriarch Parasite Queen programming that enters through Soul fractures or from Pride. Sometimes this spiritual narcissism is just a sliver of the Self, originating from some possessed Alter personality that has not been properly dealt with yet, or from a narcissistic walk in entity not of Her own, squeezing into wounded space. And sometimes it just comes from pure Pride, from Her feelings of superiority, especially of superiority over Men. A Holier than thou attitude. Regardless of why, these Parasite Queen programs are prevalently spread through the spiritual community and are very insidious, often not so obvious on the surface, masked as "Devotion" or "Humility". But it all has the goal of aggrandizing the spiritual Ego through a Matriarchal lens and system. Of putting Women on an exaggerated pedestal to be worshiped by all the subjects beneath them, especially their Male subjects. Though make no mistake, they also make spiritual competition with their spiritual sisters, making wars over Purity. Which is why some Women are so quick to disparage other Women, especially sexually. It's all about who gets to sit upon the throne. This Parasite Queen programming stems back to at least the corruption of the Matriarchs during the worse of Lemuria. Now don't get this twisted, because this is NOT the same as the Patriarchal propaganda that blames All Women for the Fall of Man, the "fallen" Eve propaganda. Nor is this a condemnation of the Dark Feminine, of which is repeatedly wrongly accused of being the corrupted Feminine. These are falsehoods of Religious and Occult Patriarchy that have hijacked, warped, rewritten and way oversimplified the past to burden all the fault on the Wombs of Women. This is NOT ok and I despise it. Though yes, there were certainly Matriarchs during Lemuria that were just plain Evil. Matriarchs who willingly worked with otherworldly Parasitic forces. They were todays equivalent of the Patriarchal Occult Elite Tech bros. And they certainly did not care about Men or only ever wanted to use them for their benefit. This is where you get the distorted narcissistic Matriarchs, be they covert or overt. To them Men where lesser spiritual beings and where essentially just used as sperm banks for reproduction and as sexual energy batteries to keep Women youthful. Being Succubus's of their Semen. Consuming, absorbing copious amounts of Semen for revitalization. This is a well known ancient rejuvenation method that many Sex Priestess Cults have practiced. Which hey, nothing wrong with this if the Male is Sovereign and not just being used. Men and Women Consensually, Responsibly Joyfully sharing their Healthy Sexual Fluids is Good for the Body. There should be no disgust or taboo over this. Though the corrupted Matriarchs abused this, stealing His Holy Fluids. This is where we get the myths around succubus's. Mostly of which have just been warped into Patriarchal Puritanical shame and fear of Women, and as a way to scare Men not to Masturbate so they don't "loose" energy, which is just superstition and pseudoscience. Though many Men do have deeply ingrained Soul trauma in their linages from very Real Honey Bee Queen distortions where Men were just drones in the Hive to have their Honey Harvested. To "serve" the Queen and that was it. This is also why distorted Matriarchs will sexually shame even their own sons through Puritanical programming, never wanting them to Mature into their own Sovereign Joyful Sexual Being. This is emotional etheric enmeshing, Harvesting of His Sexual Energy. When you understand all this and Heal beyond the Honey Bee Drone form of unquestioned "Devotion" than you can Clearly see the issues within the Goddess Queenosphere. They are still fundamentally operating from a Parasitic place. These are deep generational distortions that still echo throughout spiritual spaces. Distortions that need to be clearly called out and corrected. The Parasite Queen programs need to be named and exorcized. Otherwise the parasite spirit of covert spiritual narcissism will attempt to sabotage the much needed return of the True Source Sovereign Divine Feminine into this world.

Most of Christianity is NOT following Christ and the Holy Spirit. It's following Paulinism, which is at the root of Puritanism. Paul made tons of unnecessary holiness rules and talked against passions and desires of the Flesh, turning the Holy Spirit and Flesh against each other. There is nothing directly said by Christ that is Puritanical or anti-Body. And even the few things that could be interpreted as Puritanical are from mistranslations and taken out of context. Besides, one should not be blindly believing any Text in any book, regardless of who is supposedly saying it. This is NOT how you develop an Inner Direct Personal Relationship with God, Christ the Holy Spirit, Source. Whatever you call the most Divine. Merely following Text makes you a robot and removes you learning any Discernment and True Morality In the Holy Spirit. And what if suddenly something in the Bible changed, commanding you to do something obviously terrible that went against every Intuitive Morality you have. Bible bots would be forced to either obey it against their better Intuitive Feeling or they would have to admit Text alone does NOT have the final word. That anyone can write anything, even an Apostle, and claim it's from "God". The Bible and Paulinism has been used by the Parasite system to take people away from God, away from the Holy Spirit, away from their Personal connection to Christ and to give it over to the Church doctrine instead. This is why so many Christians struggle with simply existing, because Deep down they Know In the Holy Spirit that the Puritanism of Paulinism is a Lie. But they are conditioned, compelled to follow without question for all the Fear and Shame that has been instilled into them. And is it not interesting that Paul himself before his conversion persecuted Christians. Paul didn't even walk with Christ as an original follower. Paul was at best a misguided extremist fanboy that turned everything Dogmatic, and at worse he purposefully sabotaged Christianity to turn it into just another Religion of persecution. Persecuting the psyches of Christians for generations. Making them live Life in repression. It's time to let Paul go. Paul is NOT Christ, Paul is NOT God, Paul is NOT the Holy Spirit. I'm not saying Paul had no Good messages, but his puritanism and fanaticism clearly clouded his judgement. To take his arbitrary dictates as gospel is to put him above the Holy Spirit. Is to make him your God. Ultimately you are either putting your Faith in the Paulian Church or you are putting your Faith in the Holy Spirit. You can't Fully Clearly Devote In the Holy Spirit if Fear of the Church keeps causing you to go against what you Know is the Truth.

Do you Truly care about the Sexual Sovereignty of the other Sex? About their own Joy. Or are you only concerned about what they can give you? I see this a lot in the Patriarchal/Matriarchal spheres that talk of Devotion to the other Sex, yet it is only to support their own power. It's like, Oh Women are so wonderful but they are to sexually submit to Men. After all this is their "purpose". Than on the other side it's the same thing, Oh Men are so wonderful but they are to sexually submit to Women. After all this is their "purpose". See, there is an interesting pro-sex, non-puritanical spin that some styles of Patriarchy and Matriarchy can operate with. They are not you're usual run of the mill Puritanism. They want the other Sex to be VERY Sexual, but only because it serves them. Thus it's all faux support. It's not Universal Love for All Individuals Sexual Sovereignty and Joy. It's conditional, based on how the other Sex can be used, conditioned, manipulated. It's all about the Patriarch or the Matriarch keeping their power and status. These Patriachs and Matriachs just want a well trained sexual pet. Not a Fully Sovereign Realized Sexual Being. Watch out for this in the Patriarchal and Matriarchal spaces. A pro-sex, anti-shame message is not enough. The programming is not always from sexual shame. The programming can come from a manipulation of sexual Devotion. These programs can be much tougher to detect because they do not carry the obvious signature of shame. And if you are already a very Devotional person towards the other Sex than you are the prime target as it Hijacks your Devotion. Be careful. Don't allow these manipulations to sour your Devotion, your Love for the opposite Sex. But make sure you are not still covertly chained to Patriarchal or Matriarchal programs that are just using you to praise themselves.

I believe the Crucifixion is best seen as a symbol for Inner Alchemy. Honestly I have no idea anymore what happened in regards to Yeshua's Crucifixion. I'm torn on it, because I've always Felt a Power in it. But also there are so many Blood, Soul Harvesting Crucifixion programs. There are so many theories, theologies, cosmologies on the Crucifixion that it's overwhelming. Some believe it's all metaphor, others believe it's all literal. And every Cult imaginable wants to claim the Crucifixion for their own narrative to push their own Agendas. I've heard it all. Traditional Religion tends to tell you that the Crucifixion was an absolving of all our "Sins", payed for by "Jesus" being a Sacrifice for us all. "God" giving his only "Son". While on the surface this may seem like a very Loving act, my issue is with the Blood Sacrifice of it all and the fact that it is based in the idea of "Original Sin" from Adam and Eve, which is a Control program to make us forever feel shameful for simply existing. Thus than we are made to feel guilty for rather than liberated by the Crucifixion, with it constantly held over our heads as a bludgeon and to traumatize. That you are basically Crucifying "Jesus" again every time you "Sin". As it is, the whole point of this perspective defeats itself because many denominations will say that this "Salvation" in "Jesus's" Crucifixion is only transferable if you believe that "Jesus" the Man is literally 100% God, which than means this is not a Universal Unconditional Salvation. It is conditional on being a "Christian" believing every Church Dogma. That you must submit to "Jesus" and believe his Crucifixion literal, being "washed" by the "Blood". Well see, the issue with this is it puts you in a Blood and Soul Contract. And frankly there are countless Vampiric "Jesus" Egregore Entities out there that are just waiting for you to accept "Jesus" into your Heart. When this "Jesus" knocks it is as a Vampire knocking on your door. And in old myth it's said that Vampires can only enter your house if you invite them in. This is how so many "Born Again" Christians become totally possessed by Vampiric "Jesus" entities that constantly feed on them, Harvesting their Soul. Now, all this is not to say that just because Blood is involved in the Crucifixion makes it automatically Vampiric. Blood has a lot of metaphysical properties and some Crucifixion theories claim that the Blood spilt by "Jesus" was essentially a transfusion of the Christ Solar Impulse into the Earth to uplift it and to give this Blood to All Humanity so that Christ could be In All of us. This is the cosmology that Occult Christian systems like Anthroposophy teach, of which I spent several years studying. For a while I believed this because it gave an actual metaphysical reason behind the Crucifixion that wasn't based in just, Oh Humanity bad. That it was more of an "evolution" and a way to "rescue" us from Parasitic forces. Though one day I woke up and seen the Obvious Lie in this theory. That Lie being, the Christ Solar Impulse was never directly In us until the Crucifixion. Like Woah, how did I not Realize this Lie sooner, especially considering how much I have always talked about Christ being Within. And this was True even before the True Christ Yeshua walked this Earth. Getting mislead by false Occult cosmology was a huge blunder, lapse of Discernment on my part. When I finally came to my senses I Realized just how warped, deceptive Occult Christianity was on multiple levels. It's all about outsourcing your Direct Personal connection to Christ to convoluted cosmologies and systems of "spiritual evolution" where you are nothing but a puppet for "Angels" and "Masters" to manipulate your "evolution". Here I thought I was getting a sound metaphysical non-dogmatic explanation of Christ, when Really it was just more Occult Soul Contracting in disguise. Christ, the Solar Impulse has always Lived Within You. And see, this is what the Parasite, Vampiric Religious Occult systems do not want you to understand. They constantly put Christ outside of you, as something you must "let" into your Heart. No no. Christ IS already In your Heart. Always has been, as Christ is from Source and so are You. All you have to do is Ignite Christ In your Heart. The Burning Sacred Heart of Devotional Love. And Yes, this Love will at times make you "Bleed" as you "Bleed" away your Pain, your Trauma. As you at times even Feel and Alchemize the Pain of others. You carry your Cross and are Crucified upon it In Love. But than you get off it In Alchemical Resurrection able to Live In Love instead of just dying in it. You don't stay on it as a Blood bag drip feed for Parasites, forever in your fear, shame and pain. This is how the Parasites have tricked people into Crucifixion programs that keep them forever Harvested. So you know what, it Really just doesn't matter what exactly happened with the Crucifixion. We may never know in this Realm. But that's ok. It's not about the bloody details. It's about what it means for You and your Inner Personal connection with True Christ. And beware anything that claims to know for absolute Dogmatic fact what it is. Because chances are it's trying to Contract your Soul through the Crucifixion. The True Christ needs no Contract to connect to. Your "Contract" is your Devotion and simple Faith In Sovereign Love.

There is a True Christ Stream. Though it's so obscured by endless false streams, drowning it out. It's by design, to cause confusion. The Parasites can't let you find the True Christ Stream because than their Harvesting is over. Which is why there is so much spiritual shovelwear. I can't even describe what this True Christ Stream is, though I Know it when I Feel it. Sure, I have thought I understood it, thought I could explain it many times over. That it was Gnostic Christianity, No. That it was New Age Christianity, No. That it was Occult Christianity, No. All these have bits of Truth here and there, which is why some parts will Resonate. But very quickly if you linger too long they pull you into their whirlpool, leaving you swimming in circles, lost in false waters. Everything Christ has got to be the most Hijacked stuff in all of history. And that's because the True Christ Stream Really does Save. It Saves your Soul from the bondage of the Cult, the Parasites, Archons, Demons, Aliens, whatever you call them. The True Christ Stream is so simple, so direct, so no nonsense. It makes your Body, Soul and Spirit Sovereign again, Whole again. Unshackled from fear, shame, pain. It brings Love and Devotion in a way that is Real, unlike the spiritual ego inflating of the "love and light" nonsense of the New Age or the Self abandoning "service" and Puritanism of so much of Religion, or the endless disembodying, psyche fracturing Study and Rituals of Occultism. Christianity systems and countless other systems have been made to ultimately do the exact opposite of the True Christ Stream. It's a Mind twisting mad house out there, designed to cause so much dissociation that you just become a shell for parasites to work through. I may not Know exactly what the True Christ is, but it certainly does not turn you into a shell, into a puppet for endless parasite agendas. And well Honestly, I'd say 90% of all the combined Christ stuff out there in Religion, Spirituality, Occultism is just absolute bullshit. And even when something may give you 90% of the Truth there's always that other 10% that totally throws you off course. Navigating these treacherous waters is as going through the eye of a needle. And you can't navigate with Knowledge alone. You've got to Feel your way through and do your own Inner work. You've got to let Sovereignty be your Sail and Devotion your compass. Than let the Winds and Waters of Spirit do the rest.

The distorted "Queen" energy finds it VERY difficult to simply compliment Men, without still having some sly dig at him, to make sure she keeps him in "his place". It is backhanded praise. It allows her to feel good about praising him without having to Fully commit to the praise. I wouldn't even say most do this intentionally, maliciously, but it is a subtle distortion that lurks through the "Queen" consciousness programming, rearing its head here and there. It's essentially the equivalent of when Men praise Women but in that praise they treat her as some weak, fragile, naïve being that must be "protected" or "educated" or "lifted up" by the Masculine for her to be in her "True Power". That her "True Power" comes only by the hands of what Men grant her. Now just flip the script and we see this type of sentiment all over the "Queenosphere". Women telling Men that the only "Spiritual Power", the only "Purpose", the only "Value" they have comes from Women who are "Greater" than they. NO, both sides of this are distorted. Our True Power is NOT granted to us from the hands of a Man or a Woman. It is granted to us only by our Devotion In the Holy Spirit, to God, to Source Mother Father. There are no Human gatekeepers be they Men or Women, Kings or Queens. As much as I Love All things Goddess, and as much as I am Gladly, Willingly here to be In Devotion to Women more than anything, I have lost all patience for the sly subtle distortions and digs of "Queen" programming that quite frankly want Men to forever stay on their knees as lesser "Spiritual" Beings. This is a hold over from when some of the Matriarchs in Lemurian times fell into their own Corruption. Where Men were not spiritually valued. Where instead of being in Devotion we were in servitude as good little boys to Control hungry distorted Mothers that used constant emotional and sexual manipulation to keep us gaslighted and groveling. Now don't get it twisted. I'm not saying that Men have the same Spiritual Gifts to the same degree as Truly Initiated Women. There are some simple Biological and Form, Energy related Realities. Such as the Womb. While most Polarity teachings are awful and lack any nuance or areas of gradation and overlap between Men and Women, there are some unavoidable baked in Realities of different areas of Expertise and different ways of accessing Spiritual Wisdom. It's OK to accept these differences. But what is NOT ok is to belittle Men or Women over these differences or to act as though a Mans way or a Women's way somehow automatically makes them more "Divine" or "Superior" to the other. This is when the sickness slips, slithers into the Consciousness, inflating the spiritual Ego of Men and Women who get on a King or Queen trip. It destabilizes Harmony between the complementary Flow of Men and Women. Because suddenly Men think they MUST lead, or Women think they MUST lead. In Reality, we are Both Leading and Following each other Equally through our own Unique Strengths. Until both Men and Women get this, until the parasitic distorted King and Queen programs are completely purged, dissolved than Monarchal mind control programs will always have an entry point, a trigger point, be they through a Patriarchal or Matriarchal lens and language.

We don't need more Patriarchy nor even Matriarchy. No more distorted Kings, Queens, Monarch programs. We need Harmony of Leadership between Both Sovereign Source led Men and Women who are Patriarchs & Matriarchs, not of ideology, but of shared Love & Devotion to All that is Good.

Insecure Women see other Women being Joyfully Sexually Expressive as a threat and reminder of their own shame. It's why Prudish "Feminist" shame Women for continuing the "Patriarchy" just because they are Loving Being Sexy. Their envy is masked as "Moral" or ideological critique. They can't stand to see other Women Happy In their Sexuality and so they try to shame them away from their Sexuality which ironically is only being incredibly Patriarchal. A lot of Modern "Feminist" Women have totally forgotten, or have no clue, just how hard Women of the past had to fight to have any Sexual Expression at all in such Puritanical Patriarchal times that wanted Women covered head to toe. And as twisted as it is, I Honestly believe that many envious Women would rather shove All Women back into the Patriarchal stone age just so they don't have to see Women being Sexually Expressive anymore. In fact Women who want to shame other Women love Puritanism because it gives them a sense of "Moral" superiority. It's why there's still many Women who romanticize the Puritanical Victorian past. Many times these Women are actually incredibly Sexual, but are chronically repressing themselves because they just will not do their trauma work or they just have a problem with Pride, becoming Vain. So instead of doing their own work to Joyfully Stand Sovereign In their Sexuality they pick apart and tear down other Women to feel better about themselves. To give themselves an inflated sense of "Purity" that they can than cash at the banks of Tradcon Patriarchy and Puritanical "Feminism" for social credit points. If a Woman is Happy In Her own Sovereign Sexual Expression than either Support Her or get out of Her way.

@anacoeurparis I'd say people do get Real universal knowledge at times. True Intuition is from Source, though it is subjectively, Personally experienced. The problem is many just don't use their Inner Vison for Self work. That and obviously many are connected into false streams of interference.

I Feel the best way to look at it is different states of Matter. It's All Matter, Mother, just at varying states, Dimensions of Reality. What we call "Spiritual" is more subtle non-solid Matter in relation to our "solid" world. But certainly everything has substance of some Form. Even the most subtle non solid Spirit is still a substance of Energy, regardless of how Ethereal, and thus is a Form of Matter. Even the Void would not be entirely without Form, as it holds All that is and could be in it's Infinite Sea. I'd say Everything ultimately Flows forth from the same Source Spirit Mother Matter, taking many different Shapes, Forms, Realities out from the Void. Certainly though, regardless of the language we use to explain all this, there is no doubt that the Parasite programs have made us split Matter and Spirit into two opposing polar opposite forces in order to keep us fractured at war within our Self. To become Spiritualist or Materialist, not Realizing it's All one thing. This keeps people dissociated either through airy fairy spiritualism or dissociated through cold rigid materialism. We've got to get back to a Wholistic look that brings us into Harmony between All expressions of Matter, no matter how Physical or Ethereal.