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Red @ EWC
@RedTed776
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this deserves its own post.!🌹
Thank you so much for the rose, @Della3tv ! it was such a sweet gesture, and it was truly an honor to finally meet you my friend! thank you for taking the time to say hi and making the experience even more memorable. hope to see you again soon! 🫶🏻

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i know life has its ups and downs, and that's completely normal. but even during the good moments, my soul felt exhausted. my soul is still tired. sometimes i just want to disappear and leave everything behind. it feels like there is no one and nothing keeping me here.
i want to change my name, delete everything, leave this country, and disappear from the life i built. i just want to start over somewhere nobody knows me, somewhere i can finally breathe and become someone else.
nothing brings me joy anymore. nothing feels genuine or fulfilling. i laugh, but it feels fake. i cry, but even that doesn't bring relief. it’s just emptiness.
no achievement feels good anymore. no matter what i accomplish, it means nothing. i feel like i'm just existing, carrying this heaviness around every day.
i don’t want to take responsibility anymore not for anyone else, not even for myself. everything feels too heavy. i don’t want to explain myself anymore. i don’t want to explain why i’m not reaching out, why i’m distant, or why i’m not there. i just want to be alone without carrying this weight.
i don’t want to keep searching for reasons to make it to tomorrow. i don’t want to keep looking for a reason to wake up. and no, talking won’t magically make me feel better. i’m tired of repeating myself. i’m tired of pretending.
people keep telling me that i inspire them and that i remind them not to give up on their dreams, but it feels so hypocritical because i feel like i gave up a long time ago.
i’m sorry if i disappoint anyone, but behind this mask is a person who feels like they died a long time ago. there is a version of me that everyone sees the strong one, the one who keeps going, the one who inspires others but i don’t feel like that person exists anymore.
i don’t even know why i’m keeping this version of myself alive. maybe a part of me still hopes that one day i’ll become that person again. maybe i still miss the person i used to be the person who felt alive.
right now, i just feel empty. i feel lost. and i’m tired of carrying a version of myself that doesn’t feel real anymore. I just hate myself.
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@DynamohVAL If you’re just thinking to go, I’m cancelling my flight and everything
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@star__vlr Yeeees!!! Its soo weird cus i had rly good stats before the reset and played good in my placements (almost perfect every game) and still got d3.. 🥲💔
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@RedTed776 i’ve seen people ending immo1 and getting asc3 riot just thinks your shit and puts you d3 just like me got from asc3 to d2😂 this game is a princess game
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@reconslayer171 Its ok u will get ur rank back and peak higher ez pz!
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@RedTed776 Idk🤷♂️ I won 3 of my 5 placement matches game ranked is shit like it always was
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@RedTed776 your rr gain in diamond will be alot and you'll barely lose any
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@RedTed776 Iwas immortal did 5 shit placement game and still got diamond 2 so yeah I got scammed in a way
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