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I'm going to take a break, (get back on my meds), and see a therapist about all of this. Obviously there's some cognitive disconnect on my end that caused me to not see the full picture, until it was shown to me like this. I'm sorry Mike. I'm sorry everyone for causing this.

This isnt a call for pity, or anything: this is me reflecting on WHY I said certain things before December 26th. Ageplay? No. Raceplay? I personally reclaim tge word, and enjoy it being used against me in a sexual setting. Abuse & CNC? I find comfort in it. Usually it ends with

The same goes for the abuse; I have been, and was abused most of my childhood; either being emotionally, or physically neglected, ignored, or mistreated. I wasnt sold for money or anything, but I was beat, choked out with both hands and belts, my mother thought buying—

As for the raceplay aspect; yes. I'm black, and I like being called slurs in bed. I'm also into men, and find it hot ti be called a fag. I am black; and this is something that affects me directly, that I use to empower myself; I choose to reclaim the word for my own—(

As a victim of being raped as a child; I do use CNC as a coping mechanism, but as I state here, even almost 4 years ago now; Its always about the roleplay, and it's always discussed prior.

And, as I said; even things that dont paint me in a good light, i'll show: I was always firm about my characters being adults prior to me trying to honeypot Mike

I'm never doing this honeypotting shit ever again. I'm sure that there's plenty of people who'll never see this, and will forever believe that I am like this, and I'm sure that there will be plenty of people who will read this and still think I am. I'm sorry to you all.