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My body tensed up.
Strength rippled through my shoulders whilst my neck strained. Something pushed forward up to my mouth.
Disgust oozed out.
My reaction was immediate. But I couldn't let it show. With enormous effort, I shoved it all back inside and flicked a switch.
A grin spread across my face.
Nothing's wrong, I'm fine, I declared to myself. I've got this. I pulled my mind away once again.
Who needs a body anyway?
I was in awe of this newfound ability: I could fool those around me to protect myself. But what had I gained?
No one knew me.
Not really. My stoic front left no room for connection. I was unrelatable. Surface deep and fake.
Unbearably alone.
I no longer knew myself. The feedback loop between my mind and body was missing or had gone out of sync.
Reality hit.
I was out of touch with my body. The necessary pathways in my brain had shrunk and withered.
Was there any way back?
I had already tried:
- self-help books
- talk therapy
- going through the motions
- telling myself how to be
- willing myself to change
Nothing worked.
I still felt lost, lonely, and alone as I kept using my mind to override and ignore my body.
My shoulders slumped.
My mind needed to constantly figure out how to exist. Each day relied on cued daily rituals to make it through.
Until COVID lockdowns hit.
Then my world fell apart in an instant. Overnight the structures holding up my life came crashing down.
My stress levels skyrocketed.
There was no way to ease them back down. I had to find a way. What was I going to do?
Then I binged on YouTube!
Scrolling around, listening, and seeking answers but not finding what I needed. Until ...
@Irene_Lyon popped into my feed.
I found a whole new world of nervous system dysregulation I'd never heard of before. So many symptoms explained.
A way forward.
I've never looked back.
Change is possible.
Reconnect with your body.
Find yourself ✨

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