Roger 🇺🇸🏳️‍🌈

I will wear this label like a badge of honor!

Should I make a second account for venting? I'm sure some of the people following me are tired of seeing my recent negative energy in their feed.

@CodyEastmont That's understandable and definitely a fair point, but don't most people find that level of vulnerability/weakness pretty unattractive?

@Rogerr0718 Your crush needs to see the good and the bad side. That way you'll know how good a crush he is 😄

I wish I could block specific posts from certain people seeing them. I don't want my based X crush to see all of my my pathetic vulnerability and venting. I want him to only see my confidence! 😎

@oCJeremyCo That's true!! Thank you for that! I definitely have been myself, for better and worse.

@Rogerr0718 Nah, bet you he likes to know whats going on with you. We all appreciate your transparency. Its called being real. So many people are so fake to look a certain way to people, and it feels... wrong. You can tell when someone is authentic. Bet. If he doesnt, hes probly not worthy.

@R10006Ron I never thought of this. Maybe I should make a second account for that stuff so people don't have too see it on this one. 😂

@Rogerr0718 Two accounts?

@raab_w11 Yes I'm completely fine. I'm just venting.

@Rogerr0718 Bro are you OK?

I’m so sick of feeling sorry for myself and being so weak. Why is escaping this mindset SO much harder than it was descending into it? I’m not a victim. The worst of me doesn’t define who I am. Everyone deserves so much better from me. I don’t deserve any self-pity. One of my biggest excuses was that no one saw or cared, but people are proving me wrong now. I want to stop being a burden. I’ve spent so long in this that it’s hard to find the real me again — it’s warped how I see the entire world and it’s probably not sustainable. I don’t want this to be who I am anymore:

@CorbinWhiteX I know that the self pity shit gets very old, and it is very unattractive, regardless of how low of a point someone is at. I've started recognizing that, and I'm working on it every day. Don't hesitate to call me out. At this point I deserve it. Thank you, and God bless you!

@Rogerr0718 That’s awesome dude! I’m glad you see that for yourself. To me, that’s extremely attractive behavior. It’s funny, I wanted to say something earlier, but I hesitated

I'm tired of this victimized mindset I think I've fallen trapped into. I have NO excuses for it anymore since I genuinely feel like I'm being heard for the first time ever. I've dealt with some horrible trauma and people using me, but there's always other people who have it worse. Everyone deserves better from me. I'm working on it and trying to suck it up.

@inchworship @goodboiaustin I think sugar daddies only exist for women 🤣

@goodboiaustin You could get a sugar daddy so easy

I hate being ugly and poor

I'm not forgiving someone who used his expertise that he's had for longer than I've been alive to prey on my trauma and vulnerabilities to strategically extract sexual favors out of me. I care for him, but that doesn't mean I need to forgive him. I spent my whole life forgiving people. Do you think anyone's offered me forgiveness? No.

You need to forgive, and I'm sorry if it sounds cold, but you need to take responsibility for your own agency in the matter. That's the only way you'll stop feeling like a resentful victim, and you did have agency. There's nothing else you can do here. Being angry won't make it better. Forgive, and guard yourself better next time. "Be sober, be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking some one to devour. " 1 Peter 5:8

Is it wrong that a trauma psychologist pressured me into phone sex in exchange for psychological support during my time of crisis, even though he wasn't MY psychologist?

I've made it this far because of other people showing up for me. Not because of my own strength, and knowing there's always other people who have had it much worse and are still stronger and better people than me inspires me to wanna be better. I aspire to be as good and supportive of a friend as you and others have been to me recently!!

@Rogerr0718 I see, I read your chat earlier with Francesco was it, so have a deeper understanding of your experiences.😕 I really don’t know how you move on tbh.

@princepuddin @libsoftiktok @SecDuffy @TSA I wouldn't go to New York City at all in the near future. 💀

@libsoftiktok @SecDuffy @TSA I wouldn't go to any large gatherings in New York in the near future.

This islamic radical extremist apparently works security at LaGuardia Airport in NY This is terrifying. @SecDuffy @TSA

@DylanLeeMoore @frandalorian Don't be! ❤ my life is getting better! God bless you.

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian How Literally fucking disgusting I’m so sorry dude

I'm glad that you had no problem publicly admitting to being a completely irredeemable human, @frandalorian

@Readycya @frandalorian Fuck, I know I miss some of my replies at times but idk how I missed that one! At least I got to call him out for acting like a massive pos.

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian

@Readycya @frandalorian You did!?

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian I told you about him. Ugh. He's a fraud.

@oCJeremyCo @frandalorian Did you??? 🤣

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian Yup, actual predator, and apparently proud of it. Curious how long till I get blocked by it.

So @frandalorian do you actually think I'm insane for being taken advantage of in a mentally vulnerable state by a mental health professional, and do you really think the very severe, life long damage that childhood sexual and other kinds of abuse caused me is invalid because I can't remember it? It damaged me in ways that I've never been able to talk about and that I was forced to manage on my own because of my fear of judgment. People like you are why traumatized people are scared to open up when they're in a dark place. Shameful.

@verybiglyonline @frandalorian Is THAT enough for you, or no???

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian It's a little hard to understand how something you can't remember in any capacity is actively damaging and impairing you today. I was in a shooting at a liquor store a few years ago, scary at the time but i'm like fine now? I can still remember it. If i couldn't remember it...?

@verybiglyonline @frandalorian @grok can pre verbal sexual trauma affect and manifest for the rest of the victim's lives?

@LgbPatriots @frandalorian Ok dude, what is your problem and why the fuck are you so obsessed with me??? Get help.

@Rogerr0718 @frandalorian So? You’re enjoying all this attention?🤨