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Some excellent changes in here 👀 youtu.be/DlkKD3GURoY

The way I get all my kills is being buffed 👀 Testing out the new claymore in this vid: youtu.be/QWozIWv67l0 #RainbowSixSiege #R6S

Today we are looking at the new Solis Vid: youtu.be/3eT-S508qkk #RainbowSixSiege #r6s

Good to be back, vid out now #RainbowSixSiege

I've edited up an extended version of the Twin Shells cinematic to sync up the Deimos cinematic as they both happen at the same time Vid: youtu.be/lBWDxXesmtA

AI is stealing Rainbow Six Jobs! Vid: youtu.be/JTAR1udRBr0

Looks like it has more than two shells in it youtu.be/jNbWO0QQ4Wc

@g_havenner Wow, what an amazingly insightful description. Really interesting to read, thank you for sharing your story. I'm glad you're feeling so much better and wish you all the best on your current journey and beyond!

Around the time I turned 16 I encountered a litany of health issues, both physical and mental. One battle I struggled with heavily was insomnia. I would work late into the early morning to the absolute breaking point of exhaustion and I could finally fall asleep. I didn't know how unhealthy this was until I roomed with my best friends, who would often remark on my crazy schedule. They chalked it up to gamer brain and left it at that. Fast forward a couple years later. I finally wanted to get to the bottom of some very difficult questions that had been bugging me since I was 16. Many of those questions were repressed because of religious practice. Eventually, I didn't know what to believe, because everybody gave me different answers. Naturally, get the answer wrong and eternal damnation awaits you. No pressure. I had always been under the assumption that transness was a personal decision, or at the very least, that was my best guess, under the pretense of not knowing what it was and simply concluding that it was none of my business. So I said eh, I can just "snap myself out of it." With enough guy stuff. I joined a fraternity. I did all the things the other guys did. Guy this. Guy that. I got obsessed with the whole "what it means to be a man," thing. But despite being a fraternity president, a successful business owner, and the ability (sometimes) to at least entertain the company of elegant women, I still didn't feel like a man. Looking in the mirror didn't feel like a reflective experience. It felt like "this collection of light and reflected particles is a representation of the shell that is me." I thought that was just me being an autistic dork and ignored that too. Eventually the stress of the situation drove me nuts. The insomnia got worse from the added stress. I'd spend hours tossing and turning wondering if I was losing my mind. After battling it quite badly for several weeks, I finally decided to talk to a counselor. Components of the conversation arrived to these words. "That's dysphoria." *Huh? Wh- No no no.. haha that's Nah Oh my god am I doing the 5 stages right now? What the fuck is happening.* "I have dysphoria." My worldview got snapped in half when I realized there was a science to all of it. Fast forward a couple years and I started doing some research on gender dysphoria, and I shockingly discovered there were biochemical aspects to it. It sounds like a lot. But it makes sense the more you think about it right? Hormones interface with just about every part of your body, so it stands to reason that if something is out of alignment, it's gonna have a negative effect. I spent a long time in counseling just talking about it, trying to figure out where the hell I was with all of this. Eventually I felt comfortable enough to try hormones. It took less than a week for my sleep patterns to go back to normal. Back to the healthy ones I had as a child. I naturally felt tired at 10pm, and woke up at 6am, like I did for school for many years. In addition to this my mood lightened. I was prone to short fused bits of anger over unfair situations in my household. I was usually a cool person to be around, but a precisely wrong slight could get me from 0-100 in a strangely fast way. I still get angry, but I can cool off faster, and I have avenues of clarity in my responses to situations that didn't exist previously. I became a million times more talkative. My roommates and my friends back home on the East Coast all noticed a more laid back version of myself seemed to have emerged. I took jokes less personally and riff. (not always, one roommate in particular who knows who he is remains an expert at pushing my buttons, but I'm getting better at managing his annoyances) I can't explain to you why the hormones improved my quality of life. I'm not a scientist. Yeah, it is a bit weird. But understanding the mechanics of the human body makes it a lot less weird. And the human body is weird in general. We're fleshy bags of meat and electricity that made rocks think, put rockets on the moon, and harness the power of atoms to run entire cities. I didn't ask to be trans. I didn't choose to be trans. A long list of angry and scary conversations with my family, with my friends, and God Almighty were had around the subject of whether or not I was trans. But the moment I knew it was real was when I could finally get some good night's fucking sleep. Reliably, consistently, enough to feel "bright eyed and bushy tailed," as they say where I'm from. So I don't really give a shit why I'm trans. Or how I'm trans. Some people find out they have autism, ADHD, and many other things later on in their life. My upbringing didn't necessarily hinder its development. I made choices to avoid it consciously, because I was scared. But I'm not scared anymore. I'm just gonna make my money, pay my bills, live my life. And appreciate its colors the way I desperately missed as a child. Colors are brighter, fuller. Smells are rich. Emotions hit deeper, more personally, warming when they're positive, chilling when they're negative. But I'll take that over the numbness I had. Regardless of what anybody thinks of transness. There's only one thing in this life everybody can agree on. We're all gonna end up in the ground one day. So don't make the choice to be miserable like I did, because you have an obligation to be miserable, or something. That's nonsense. Make the choice to be happy.

I'm on e. I've been on it since late January.

Can anyone recommend me a good graphic/logo des❗️gner, bonus points if you’re good at working with text and creating vector images plssssss

@g_havenner After the disaster of Ahsoka, I haven't even dared start the new series... sounds like the right decision so far?

I don't get how you make Andor and The Acolyte.

9 Things You Need To Know Before You Play Operation New Blood: youtu.be/cmvBjrW0IXo #rainbowsix

Taking a look at the Deimos buff and changes in the Designer Notes for New Blood, Vid here: youtu.be/ZUokYaWxFG4 #r6s

Whoever took Alfie's helmet, please do the right thing and return it. You can DM me, I won't expose you, and I'll cover the shipping/delivery.

Checking out the seasonal skin and more in this patch notes video: youtu.be/nfHqIN-g30k Season launches on June 11th 🤞 and Marketplace full launch on June 25th #r6s

Taking a look at the new seasons teaser in this vid: youtu.be/ojYTTFW4QBI #r6s

@assassinscreed Really hope this one turns out good. As much as the AC franchise has been going for a while now, I've enjoyed almost all of them and a really good AC is always welcome in my books.

Become a lethal shinobi assassin and powerful, legendary samurai in Feudal Japan. Assassin's Creed Shadows Official World Premiere Trailer now available on YouTube #AssassinsCreedShadows Watch now: ubi.li/CTY01

If you missed the Aurora last night and / or would like another go, then it looks like there is a good chance we’ll have another display this evening.

Got early access to the April patch for #RainbowSixSiege and get to show of the new feature coming in this patch: Defender Repick! #R6S

Shield Ops no longer piggy dippin youtu.be/1PIOdx5n0bo #RainbowSixSiege #r6s

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