@Hyzakyt Hard seasons often come even when you’re closest to God—like Job or Apostle Paul. It feels harder now because your faith is deeper, so you’re facing the pain with God, not apart from Him.
I could use some help from my brothers and sisters on this one. When I was lukewarm (past 30 years), I never had a conflict between faith and suffering. Any suffering was entirely “in the world”, and the very worst of it (grief of miscarriage) was INSTANTLY resolved by God’s peace which surpasses all my understanding.
I was reborn again in March; both feet FIRMLY in the Kingdom of God, even right here on Earth. Now I have fatal brain cancer, and my wife is having one of the worst eczema flares of her life. I KNOW that God is sovereign and carrying us through this. He loves us and He is good. I don’t doubt, but I wonder…
Why is it harder now that I’m fully on board than when I wasn’t? Two weeks ago after brain surgery I was on the mountaintop, feeling like king David or the apostle Paul/Saul. Now I’m feeling more like Job. My best guess is that now I’m better prepared to learn than back then. Maybe the enemy is even more pissed because he knows he lost me forever.
I would appreciate any input. 🙏✝️🙌