Seb 🐧

My dearest Neptune, You were the best friend that anyone could ask for. Every day got brighter when I received your messages, sometimes just a quick good morning and other times, a video of you playing with your pets but you always put a smile face no matter what.

This has been a weird week. I've tried to stay as busy as possible and been to some great concerts but there is such a heavy sadness that never goes away. It's hard to believe it's been a year, I still miss Hali every day and love her with all my heart. I hope she's at peace 💚

@UncannyMegan Proud of you, hope it was helpful

I went to therapy today.

I got my prints from the Natural History Museum's pokemon collection framed and hung so also put up the photobooth picture from our arcade trip. That's one of my most precious memories so I'm glad to preserve it this way 🥲

@HSugarCookie There is a lightsaber/ sword fighting place in London called Silver Sabers that has always seemed fun but sadly is also expensive. If you have gone to MCM in the last few years, you've probably seen the classes they do there

If I wanted to pick up a sport or exercise to get into shape from zero, what would you recommend? Extra points if it’s a way for me to be social and potentially make new friends. Minus points if it’s running.

I miss feeling in love I miss the little moments throughout the day that she would make brighter or how my heart would skip when her name would pop up on my phone I miss feeling like life's purpose was purely to make her happy and how she'd smile I miss her more than anything

@UncannyMegan It's been very hard and I've broken down multiple times but was very grateful to join your stream and hear a familiar voice for a while, thank you for doing that today. She'll be so proud of you and I'm sure she's there in spirit 💚

Happy birthday to my best friend. I am staying very busy today so I don’t constantly think about how much I miss you but it’s not working. I would do anything to be with you again…

@BradburyJai Yeah it was definitely one of her favourites I remember her saying she'd only watch it once every few years because of how sad it is but still such an incredible film, a nice choice for today 💚

@Sea_weeb I'm currently watching Grave of the Fireflies on Netflix. I remember Stephanie Michelle saying it was one of Neptune's favourites.

Today is Hali's day and there aren't enough words for how special she was or how big an impact she had on the lives of everyone who knew her The sadness feels heavier than usual but that's okay, it's now a day for tears and grieving Happy Birthday Love, you are greatly missed 💚

I'm going to see Wonder Years doing No closer to Heaven in full tonight. That album means even more to me after last year and it was already the main part of my back tattoo before then. I'm not going to last a single song before I start crying but it'll be cathartic

@omystephanieirl Thank you for sharing Stephanie, it was always one her favourite cons so it's heart warming to see all the love she still receives. This month feels bitter with her birthday coming up soon, keeping you and everyone she held close in my thoughts 💚

Thank you to all who set up and added to the Neptune shrine at mag fest. I love seeing her celebrated like this. Thank you. 😊

@BradburyJai Good man, I hope it brings you peace to continue enjoying the things she loved and hope you are doing well

@Sea_weeb I listened to Punk Goes Christmas this morning at work. I'm planning on watching Jingle All The Way I. The next couple of days.

Anyone who knew Hali and were fortunate to experience her gift giving can attest that she was the greatest at it. And so when she would post these lyrics each year and some fans didn't understand the reference/ would take her seriously, it would always make me laugh and smile

@UncannyMegan I understand, every month hits hard in a different way but december has been especially difficult. It's okay if you aren't feeling like getting into the spirit this year and I'm sending you all my strength and support to get through this time Always here if you need to talk

This holiday season has been so hard for me. I just don’t care. I’ve barely gotten any gifts for people, I had to force myself to put up the tree while sobbing. I’m just not in it. 🥲

Also I wore these beard christmas lights tonight and they are so fun, I love them 🥲

Apparently today was National Emo day which is perfect because I spent it crying along to @NeckDeepUK

@omystephanieirl I'm still trying to work that part out but agree music has definitely helped me through this year. Sending you all the postive thoughts

Ya girl got the BIG sad today. How do you feel better when you have a sudden wave of grief??

I recently realised that this will be the first christmas since 2018 that I don't recieve a card or note from you. I don't know how best to say it anymore but maybe I'll write you another just to tell you how much I love and miss you. I'll make sure it's Pokemon themed 💚

No surprises here 🥲

My friend took this photo of me on film during the summer and just got it developed. It's rare for me to like a photo of myself but this one feels good 🥲