SheyGrell (Purgatory Studio)

[EXE Request Thread] Requests go in the reposted thread you see. Completed requests & things I contribute are in this thread here, i.e.; The one in which you see this text. They will also get a repost. Please be patient if waiting for your's to be done 💙 #execommunity #Sonicexe

After I somehow do any lines for the only part of me anyone will remember, there's no more reason for me to exist. Fuck the film I've wasted years on. Fuck the illusion I will ever escape & assemble a life. I need to be put down. I'll again be ready to accept that soon enough.

I can't be of use until I work out what part of my head is doing the "Thinking". I malfunction because soon enough, I know I'll be back in "The void", as it were. Might as well get it over with. Hard to believe right now I made things like this: youtube.com/watch?v=4yYPND…

I simply cannot understand how anyone claims to look up to me. You don't look up to a stepping stone. It's under your feet. I wish like hell that I was worth knowing. There's things I know that could be awesome to share. I wanted to function so badly this time. I really did.

I was really getting to know some of you this time. Then I yet again fell off the tightrope I'm on, right in front of someone. In real-time. There's some out there who actually want/wanted this kind of spectacle to personally show up on their virtual doorstep... Are you insane?!

I don't know how long it's been specifically. This is what I do. I tried to stop this kind of thing from happening, and before I knew it, I'm already... Well, like I am now. I have no idea how to make it back, and no one can help me. People have previously tried. It broke them.

Something feels rational. I think my brain's trying to reset. It would already be doing that if I could sleep again.

Last preview I have to show for this. I don't expect anyone to watch this. I just want it on some kind of record, just in case; For all I'm worth, I could do this stuff. #ResidentEvil #Biohazard youtube.com/watch?v=1Tykna…

I wish I wasn't whatever I am. I wish people could help me with words. But they can't. You can't reach me. I'm not here. You don't know what it's like living with all of this.

Y'know what? Watch this. I don't care how pretentious you may think I am for saying what I'm about to say. This is me... It's me. You've all had your lives while I've been stuck there for a decade. I'm still there, and I'm never getting out. youtube.com/watch?v=B_V-qT…

I'm not interacting until I have material. Doing the EXE requests. It's all I'm worth. I'm probably not me right now. I'm in quite a lot of pain, but that doesn't mean anything. I have no value as a person anyway, and just end up hurting others because they can't help me.

Can't sleep, I made a mess of things. I've stuff to do. I'm not alright. I deserve whatever this all results in. Everything's wrong & it's my fault.

I hope you all enjoy a nice future with your career, loved ones, a comfy house, kids & pets, and whatever else. All I will never have. I will one day lose the roof over my head. It's then a case of freezing or starving to death on the streets, if I don't get murdered first.

I've got adrenaline constantly going through my body. I don't know what's happening to me right now, but I need it to stop.

Honestly don't know what I'm doing right now, even though I should. My head is too scrambled today. I have too much noise in here. Why am I even here? I just blend in with the wallpaper.

@joxatron I've a very unpleasant, less-than-sneaking suspiscion this might be one of the only things, if not the only thing I'll be contributing. The same cycle will repeat, and I'll once again be ignored & buried. I know it's coming. It always nips at my heels. At least I did this first.

It kinda just clicked to me that Sheygrell is reading the slogan I helped TBM make. Kinda makes me shed a tear to know that THE og sonic.exe va is voicing sum I had a part in making 😅😅😅

@MeganSouzaVA Funny how you've reached even greener pastures during this of all times 🤔 (Congratulaions on doing well with everything! 💙)

I hit 20K on IG, AND 10K on TT in THE SAME WEEK?! AND I booked the DREAM ROLE OF A LIFETIME?! I genuinely don’t know what to say… But thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Here’s to spreading more joy, whimsy, and love! 🥹🩷 YOUR DREAMS ARE REACHABLE! DON’T GIVE UP! 🥹🩷

@LeoXG09EXE2 Indeed I do 😎

@SheyGrell Second version you say?

I want to take the time to show you something. This is what it took to achieve the 17 seconds of footage below (+ keyframing for all the glowy effects & movement). Remember; People don't need to see how you accomplished visuals for a video. Only that you accomplished them.