𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘖𝘯𝘦 𝘞𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴 🌟

@V0GELL » I understand... I miss embracing you like this, Sinclair. It's okay... let it out. I'm here now, I promise. « | He whispers as he laid his face against his chest... keeping his hands against the back of his hair. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy ( sighs roughly, eyes fluttering shut as he lets himself take the affection with short dog-like whines... and the tears fall, for that matter. ) i... i really missed you, you know. t-talking to you. ( ugh, he doesn't trust himself to say any more, though. )

( has one of those applesauce pouches sticking out of his mouth while he's doomscrolling on his phone. look sometimes you're too busy to eat an apple. )

@V0GELL » Hah... I see... I see... « | A embarrassed chuckle as both of his hands focused around the side of his hair, scratching them as he did so. | » Sorry for making assumptions. « | The star didn't wanted to ruffle the feathers of the one before him. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy i'm *not* cryingー! ( urgent to clarify that one even though he's clearly one hard blink from letting, uh, Definitely Sweat Not Tears roll down his cheeks. he really needs to find something to do with his hands though, planting them on top of his knees and gripping them tight. )

@V0GELL » ...Ah... So sorry... I thought you wanted me to go slow. « | He went back in petting his head again... By the stars, he was so adorable... | » Here... Here... Don't need to weep now. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy iー i'm notー ( heel thumps the ground rapidly, uughh why'd he stop?? ) ( looks up at him pleadingly, there's actual tears shimmering in his eyes. ) c... can you keep going.

@V0GELL » Ah... Wasn't expecting you to be this excited... You can have my wrists, Emil. « | He smiles a bit as he hands his wrists willingly, his hands did stop in moving around and just stayed against his hair. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy hhnー ( okay - okay, he can only resist for so long. shudders hard, finally leaning in toward demian with his head down offering it up. his hands blindly search for and grab his wrists, gripping them firmly. )

@V0GELL » I'm glad that I am not alone in this, then... « | His fingers tap against his scalp... toying with his hair with his fingers... | | As he does that, the star boy places his free hand behind his hair, petting it as well. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy ( brows pinch together as he controls his reaction. no pushing against his hand, no fidgeting - okay a little fidgeting, mostly in his shoes shuffling on the ground. and making sure his hands stay clasped together in his lap. ) ... i feel the same.

@V0GELL | He begins to pet his head slowly, tapping against his blond hair from time to time as he keeps looking at him. | » Well... I don't mind keeping this up. If you enjoy it, don't be afraid of admitting it. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy ... i don't know. i don't *not* like it. ( glances away awkwardly- shyly? sinking slightly under the weight of his hand. ) but i also don't know if i dislike it.

@V0GELL » Hah... Sorry... Sorry... May I keep my hand here? I'm not sure how you feel about it. « | He asks like a genuine clueless person... Tilting his head as he does so. | | His hand didn't move once. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy j-just say that, next time. keep it simple. ( i mean, how well does forcing yourself to relax really go? he's trying not to be so tightly wound up, but everything about demian just riles him. ) ( he settles for closing his eyes, inhaling slowly through his nose. )

@V0GELL » I'm just trying to make you feel relaxed, I think if you calmed your head... Things will be better, no? «

@Shiny_Star_Boy iー ( the moment demian's hand plants on top of his head. he sort of. goes still. oh he actually is real, huh? ) ... i-i'm confused why it's such a problem.

@V0GELL » ...Calm your head, wouldn't you, Sinclair? « | A kind way of saying shut up as he places his hand on his hair. | » We can always get you another one if you truly desire. Don't need to be so moody. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy so it's better for me to sit here like a zombie not doing anything, over sitting here like a zombie with my phone in my hand? ( oh my god shut up you brat, ) guess what's soft and easy, demian. i'll give you a hint, it's on the floor right now.

@V0GELL » You can turn off your brain while not eating something, no? « | He smiles at him. | » Hmmm... Something soft maybe? It would be easier for you... «

@Shiny_Star_Boy can't i turn my brain off while i'm on break? everything i could be thinking about makes me anxious. well, what's *your* suggestion then. what should i be putting in my mouth, hm?

@V0GELL » Even then, you were barely eating with the way your mind was so concentrated in that phone of yours. « | Looking at him as he got up, smiling as he does so. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy i-it was just to pass the time... not all that different from turning on the tv while you eat. er, snack. this counts, okay? ( clicks the power button, setting the phone screen down beside him while he sits up, staring straight back at him. )

@V0GELL » I'm mainly saying you should be eating instead of scrolling on your phone. « | Tapping on his shoulder. | » You look like a zombie behind that phone. « | He giggles while looking at Sinclair. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy i swear you don't walk, otherwise i'd hear you more often. ( his phone's stuck playing some shortform video about chaos gardening now, thumb firmly holding the screen. ) ... a-are you saying i need to brush my teeth? ( 💧 )

@V0GELL » Hahaha... I do apologize, I need to work on my entrance and such. « | He scratched the back of his head while letting out quite the nervous laughter. | » I do apologize. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy ( startles hard, choking-but-not-really on the thin slurry sliding down his throat. also the pouch falls out of his mouth and to the floor while he coughs into the back of his hand. ) Dー Demian, can you stop appearing out of nowhere?!

@V0GELL » ...The first part. I can't really go back in time, nor I would want to. Haha. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy ( frowns. ) which part.

i don't know how to cope with my situationship coming back into my life so for this Sunday i am getting blackout drunk. don't look for me

@V0GELL | Demian nods his head. | » I can rearrange that, Sinclair. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy ... something like that. we're only acquaintances from school, after all. it's... fine. the past can't be changed.

@V0GELL » ...You want me to act without any masks, correct? « | He replied calmly as he sighed. | » I do apologize for leaving you in the void like this, Sinclair. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy i don't need positivity or sugarcoating or... ( sighs, rubbing his face and dragging his features around. ) i don't know. i can't put what i'm feeling into words. i just can't stand it.

@V0GELL » ...I mean... I always try to emit a positive aura for you. I know how cruel this city can be... thought that always smiling would be nice for a change. «

@Shiny_Star_Boy i believe you. but it's still frustrating, especially with you always smiling at me like this was all... expected. like it wasn't that big of a deal. ... it was important to me, after all.

@V0GELL » ...It wasn't on purpose... « | He says with a sad tone in his voice. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy and here i am stuck on Earth and left behind. ( huffs, propping his chin in his palm and drooping against the table. )

@V0GELL » ...Being a follower of the stars slows your perception of time. Eventually... Time itself sounds like an anomaly to you. « | He closes his eyes as he explains, putting both hands at the table. |

@Shiny_Star_Boy mmh. ( nose scrunches, but he's a bit more relaxed - or visibly getting sloshed now. and because the bottle is in his hand, he's taking another idle swig. ) maybe it doesn't feel like it's been that long for you. but to me, it's been forever.