Simon

I'm retiring from competitive League of Legends It's been the most beautiful journey of my life and a dream come true but ever since the end of 2021 I knew I didn't have many years left as my motivation and passion for the game was fading and now is the right time to walk away🙏

@TheRealKanani Esports is full of rats but trust me you dealt with the king of them all, I think you got lucky not having to actually work with him 😂

Since I announced my retirement I want to get off a story from my chest which made me give up on getting back to LEC: In 2021 after a horrendeus year in NA LCS I found myself back to ERL , from being the hot shit turned into a cold potato. 1 year abroad and felt like you have no connections or teams to get back on for LEC, a hard shock. Trust me, it really sucked balls going from a 170k$ contract down to 1k/month. Did I felt like I can still make LEC? Yes easily , but there just was no offers and a lot of other pros know how mentally challenging it is to get your shit together and try to make it back into LEC. I will not be suprised if that chance is around 10-15% of a re-joining. Lucky enough I ended up in gamerlegion and won the springsplit 2022. Back at that time I had a lot of respect for this coach Mephisto and asked him about advise and what I can do to make it back. He seemed kind and telling me that he actually wanted to work with me because he heard good things ect ect but he thought that its impossible because of upper management not having me as their prefered option. I reached out to vitality directly to get an LEC tryout because they were looking for a coachingposition to fill and they all were genuinely kind enough to give me a second chance after fucking up with the academy team back in 2018 (VIT is awesome trust me). I got invited into 3 round processes which was consisting of meeting the psychologist, the upper management and the coaches. The first 2 interviews went very well, fully prepared, everybody had webcams on, asked questions and it was a genuine back and forth conversation. However, when I got into round 3 I got the interview with mephisto , turned into a full disaster. There was no webcams, just awkward silence, no interest and in the background there was a lot of noise, I barely could understand if he said something and it felt like the most unwanted interview ever. In order to break the ice I just showed what I would usually show but still didnt get any replies. The assistant coach at the same time was also just playing another game and I knew right away I was not gonna make it. I felt confused, upset and was looking for anwsers. After the coachingposition eventually got filled by a different coach I reached out to upper management and here comes the shocker: The upper management said they were really keen on giving me the chance but they also told me that apparently mephisto, the guy who told me all the time that he wants to work with me was the mainreason why I didn‘t pass and he was also actively trashtalking me infront of others. Not gonna lie, this felt like one of the biggest betrayals I‘ve witnessed and also like a huge punishment for being honest and exposing your weakness. From 2021 winter 15 hours league only , half a year to have it end up like this. This pain was unbearable , I was depressed for a long time because of it but I also learned that it apparently just is like that in this type of industries. I tried 3 years to make it back to LEC, failed and retired. I know that its not only about skill but actually if people socially accept you. I know this happened to other ex-LEC players too but they decided to remain silent. Being and trying in LEC is just hard mentally and you viewers and fans need to respect that more, really. I want to use this message mainly for a good takeaway in a sense that you should call it a day and lose gracefully if you know you cant make it while also encouraging you that your title or your standing in a game shouldn‘t affect your selfworth. There is always gonna be people with ill intentions but I believe in the long run honesty hard work and respect will make you succeed and if it doesn‘t work, maybe you just need a change of environment. Stay safe and take care, peace ✌️

@neon_euw @RekklesLoL @popsly_lol @Bwipo Thats what happens when managers and coaches are puppets of a player, clownfiesta You are forced to not challenge and become a paycheck stealer like the ones that stayed Long live the Shitshow!

@RekklesLoL @popsly_lol @Bwipo Could be worse u could have been benched by the teammate sitting next to you who you could see flaming you on discord on his screen to the guy that replaces you :)

Had a wonderful dinner with my goat, after talking to him I know he's going to be one the best supports in the world. @RekklesLoL I copied so many cultural habits from him and I would have never gotten this far without the opportunity to learn from him.

@Kiea_Tash Ofc you don't recall 🤣but hey maybe keep trying it as a twitter vulture, that shit gets people paid nowadays since that's your concern about not accepting a minor position

@Simon_EUW I don't recall, but I do remember most of your tweets were tasteless and cringe. Guess not much has changed. 🤷‍♂️

Thought a bit about how to write this, and now there are no team/agent repercussions, I'll be my less professional and more normal blunt self.

@TeamBDS @Maxilol_ @xMattyyLoL @Erdote_lol @Agresivolol @followdelord best org 💜

After a disappointing year, changes were needed in our LFL team. We would like to thank each and every one of you and wish you all the best for the coming year. @Maxilol_ @xMattyyLoL @Erdote_lol @Agresivolol @followdelord @Simon_EUW

Referência do @lolesports português, @Simon_EUW colocou um ponto final na sua carreira 🇵🇹 #LOLnaRTP arena.rtp.pt/simon-ponto-fi…

Thank you to everyone who was part of this journey, it's impossible to name all but you know who you are. As always, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened 😭 It's time, Simon out ❤️

I was fortunate to start when the scene was a much better place than it is today and I'm proud to say I was part of the best portuguese generation there was and probably will be for a long time when it comes to the game. Til this day I delivered on what I promised to myself!

I'm retiring from competitive League of Legends It's been the most beautiful journey of my life and a dream come true but ever since the end of 2021 I knew I didn't have many years left as my motivation and passion for the game was fading and now is the right time to walk away🙏

It's time 😢

"Hey dad, what was LGW like back in 2015?" Me:

WTFFFFFF

@followdelord but ornn was the wrong pick there wdym 🤣

classic ornn go mid 5 people use R into finals of #Worlds2023

I'm still contracted with BDS until the end of November but they allowed me to explore my options for the future Mainly looking at coaching staff opportunities in LEC/LCS Contact me via DM Twitter/Discord or my agent: raphael@tailors.gg

Hello! Still contracted to @TeamBDS until November, I am allowed to explore options for Head Coach positions. Contact trough DM or e-mail-> Delord@prodigy-agency.gg. Happy to chat about my systems, approach, coaching philosophy and past experiences. Thanks in advance for RTs.

Hey, @TeamBDS has allowed me to explore options for 2024. I will consider every region. Contact: @CyrilBerges or in my DM's. Likes 🩶 and retweets🔄 appreciated!

@GotoOne @DplusKIA insane season mate chapeau 🫡

C'était difficile mais on est arrivés jusque là et omg quelle année de fou. Je suis fier de mes joueurs. Finir contre DK fut un honneur. Merci à tous pour votre soutien grandissant toute cette année, vous avez été notre force 🔥 BDS 2023 over 🫡 Gg @DplusKIA #BDSPOWER

Another day of JDG Missing smurfing the vision game, always ensuring the clutch TP flank ward before basing & weakside ward+cover before approaching neutral - 3rd drake this time around #Worlds2023

@MementoLoL Legend of the game bro, still remember your words from back in 2019 S04 about my potential, smile cause it happened 👑

I’ve been anxious to make this post, not only because it's a big step for me but also because I’ll be open about some things I’ve never shared before. I’ll be retiring from professional play after 8 years and transitioning into coaching. As with most careers, they come with highs and lows, professionally and personally. It’s been a surreal journey, I was just a kid who studied the wrong subject and didn’t want to become an electrician so I decided to give league a shot even though I was only Diamond, I was a kid with a dream to play professionally in the game I loved. All I wanted was to compete on stage and play in LCS (LEC now) and be able to support my family while doing something I truly enjoy. I’m grateful I was able to achieve that. I never thought I would have such a long career and a successful one. I may not have achieved everything I wanted but I’m happy with everything I’ve done throughout my career, I really wanted to end it all on a good note but I realize this is something every athlete strives for, however your career turns out you’re always going to feel that you could’ve done more no matter how successful it may have been, I think this is something every competitor can sympathize with. You will always think you could’ve done better and it's that mentality that got you this far in the first place. I’ve learned to accept that and can honestly say I’m happy with how it all turned out. I can truly say that I gave my best. Over the years I’ve been less and less motivated to play, Solo Queue became more and more of a burden rather than something I enjoyed over time and I don’t believe I can be the best at something if I don't even enjoy doing it. I’ve had a lot of struggles with my mental health since 2019 after getting benched in Schalke, it made me go through a very dark period. I had always put my value as a person related to my performance, so if I performed well I would be confident and feel like I deserve to be happy, and if I performed badly I would drown myself with negativity and think I'm worth nothing. It was a toxic relationship I had with myself and when I started living alone and covid hit it just got worse. I was constantly anxious about my performance and results alongside other tragic events in my personal life which led me to start having panic attacks. For so many years I had bottled everything up until I snapped and my brain couldn't take it anymore. The panic attacks only got worse over time and it sent me to the ER multiple times cause I thought I was literally dying, it's kind of absurd to look back at it now but at the time it felt so fucking real. I was forced to start taking better care of myself. It took a lot of effort and stepping out of my comfort zone to work on it but I was lucky to have my family, They’ve been my biggest support system over the years. I don't know what I would’ve done without them. Love you mom and dad ❤️ Today, I'm happy to say that I haven't experienced a panic attack in 3 years, and I’m taking much better care of myself. It’s always scary to open up about these things but I think it's a necessary step for me in order to move on from this playing career. I like to believe that I gave my best in every team I’ve been in and I hope that everyone who worked with me had a good experience. I’ve done my best to be a good teammate and a good person over the years as it's always been important to me. I’ve met so many wonderful people throughout my career and it's been a pleasure working with every single one. Even if I didn't get along with everyone, the experience always had a positive impact on my life, even if it may have been negative at first. Thank you to all my previous teammates and staff for being a part of my journey, I remember every single one of you going back to 2014 when I was playing team rankeds up to this day. I will always cherish those memories. Lastly, I want to thank everyone else as well, especially my fans who helped me keep going even at my lowest, but also if you weren't a fan of me I appreciate all of you. Without you, esports would never have become as big as it is and I would never have been able to experience this wonderful journey. It brings tears to my eyes that it's over but at the same time, I’m happy to start a new phase of my life and dedicate my time to a new career that I’d enjoy more. Moving forward, I plan on staying within the scene and transitioning into coaching as it has always been a passion of mine, I enjoy helping people grow and become the best version of themselves. I have a lot of exciting ideas I want to implement into coaching and I believe esports can be so much more than it is. Thank you, everyone, from the bottom of my heart. You've made this journey incredible. That’s it for me, Take care of yourselves and see you soon ❤️