Haze

cant even play like 3 games of rivals 2 without getting mad at its design philosophy and just stopping

@toothbrushbutt is this an elaborate etalus joke

@mystery_sol maypul belongs in every row

Thoughts on the game balance/tier list wise atm, tiers are not ordered

@BlueZy_chu he’s dumb but he’s only unmanageable vs like blue level zetters in r1, which is basically the level when you have to make yourself unmanageable anyway. before that he’s a pub stomp type you can learn to beat

@BlueZy_chu I can teach you rivals 1

@kaz_maniandevil trevor likes hitting stomp knee too much to engage with the mechanic in good faith 💔

@SolRidley i might Dm soon. Not rn. Busy. But wanted to play lopunny or mienshao. I’ve never played it before. Just watched on YouTube

to anyone interested i set up a grind server for new players so we can all learn the game progressively. DM if you want in. here is an unrelated picture of hitmonlee hitting a falcon knee

played someone on slippi ranked who's tag is suicide soon and i have to take that seriously but what do i do how do i find the people who need to get in touch with this person to make sure they are safe

@MapCrimZ this was an example of a delusion thought, i was not saying that this was actually the case in reality. i apologize

@Smash_Haze Nah u don't need to be perfect. You just need to not punch tables. That's in the realm of possibility, not perfection.

It’s always like I have to be perfect at everything or everyone will hate me. That’s like the constant feeling I have. Constantly. I read as much posts of people saying they do actually hate me, too. It’s not rare.

Even if I’m not suffering from anger, so many times these last years people get mad at me for mishandling a social aspect and it makes me want to cry over and over. I just want to be nice. Don’t want to be mad. Don’t mean to cause problems. Don’t want to ignore wrongs. Too much

It’s that pretending I can just be better out of nowhere that gets me in the most trouble. It’s what my dad taught me and it doesn’t work. Then thinking I should just be okay later I’m yelling at people I don’t want to yell at over things I don’t need to care about.

Anger like the kind I have can’t go away just by growing older. As much as I ever wished for the ability not to care too hard, or what I want out of myself being nothing less than perfect sportsmanship, it sucks to hear the perception on why it happens is just immaturity

there is a difference between anger from immaturity and anger from damaged emotional regulation and frankly telling anyone suffering the latter that it’s an issue of maturity is more likely going to make them worse as they obtain more reasons to self hate after you do that

@vibe_marth recovery is top lvl to start with but falls off each time it is intercepted, especially by spikes Not a bad recovery though

i genuinely dont understand how this rat is supposed to have a bad recovery lmao

@ProgamerUnicorn after i review and practice the ledge and defense mixups against Marth I want to play against you more in a more extended time than ranked bo3. you’re strong

trying just a little harder on ranked today. I guess I’m starting to feel better. probably was inching close to plat 2 Falco level. Spacies and Marth being the hardest for me still

I’ve been trying ranked to judge my mental state but I’m wholly incapable of getting mad at all right now. i don’t think that’s a good thing either. it’s more like the emotion feels broken. I can’t play with any fire and learn to direct my energy correctly. might take a long time

feeling very betrayed atm . I was so vocal about having been developing problems with mental and being unable to notice myself being mad. Told ppl they just need to remind me that I want to be nice. Just left alone until crash out happens. Extremely lonely feeling.