clef@cleflol
Statement regarding the accusations made against me:
Hello clef here, and I want to address something that has been circulating. A screenshot is being shared that has been fabricated. I’m honestly in a position where I’m quite scared making this post. However, with the state of things currently, I won’t allow myself to be intimidated into silence so I want to present the facts, even if it might be dangerous for me. I understand why people have had the reactions they have had so far, but what matters to me is the truth, and that I'm able to share my side of things. The people who have worked with me over the past years can attest to what kind of person I am, and I deeply appreciate those who have spoken up for me and come to my defense.
For people who follow me, you may have noticed that over the last few days I made a tweet asking people not to "come into my DMs to ask me on a date and then gaslight me or make me out to be a bad person when I say no." This was in reference to a situation I have been dealing with involving a stalker over the last two years. It started out as a friendship, in which, I repeatedly made it clear that I was not interested and not ready nor able to have a relationship. Despite this, there were repeated attempts to initiate a relationship, and over time, the contact slowed down and eventually ended because of a continued refusal to read or respect these boundaries.
Since then, I’ve dealt with repeated harassment, constant attempts at contact, unwelcome packages sent to my house, and hand-written love letters. I don’t wish to go into my personal trauma, but this kind of behavior is a major trigger for me because of past experiences. My boundaries have continuously been pushed, my home has been made into a place where I don’t feel safe, and I’ve had to question all of my interactions with people. On multiple occasions, out of fear, I have responded with good will when contacted, while still clearly asking to be left alone and stating that a relationship is not something I am seeking. I have been afraid of the repercussions of lashing out at the harassment.
I will not share the full contents of the letter and have not shown them to anyone. However, I will quote from it because he himself confirmed their existence: "Und da du nie auf was reagierst, was ich dir schicke: hier die URL von einem Meme: (...)" ("and since you never react to anything I send/message you, here’s the URL of a meme (...)"). This also shows that he knew his attempts to contact me were unwanted.
After recently being contacted and berated in my DMs for rejecting this individual, I made a tweet without naming him or sharing any identifying information. The intent was simply to vent, because I had reached my limit. Two days later, this fake screenshot was posted by him. I had previously experienced retaliation for making him feel belittled by not replying or reciprocating, in the form of rampant insistence on communication, as well as the occurrence of actions that made me feel unsafe. But obviously this marks a severe escalation, rather than just upset or make me uncomfortable, to try and damage my career.
When this event was raised with the organization involved, the person sharing the screenshot declined to show any evidence when asked to prove its authenticity. He later said he would remove the post, but only if I apologized to him for not keeping the letters, messages, and contact that made me feel unsafe a secret from my friends (see below). His refusal to provide proof makes it clear that this screenshot is retaliation and designed to inflict consequences on me. To further emphasize that the screenshot is a misrepresentation, I have dated proof tied to the icons I was using on the dates the messages were allegedly sent, on January 5, 11, and 14 (see below). I saw some people say that icons were irrelevant, which is why I wanted to provide additional evidence to make this clearer.
For additional context, I wanted to show the screenshot is also being used with malicious intent as a form of blackmail to gain further attention from me and force me back into contact (see below)
When it comes to the decision that was made, I ask for people to respect that as it was made together with me. To be honest, I do not currently feel mentally ready for the spotlight and pressure of playing in the LFL while this situation is ongoing in my life. I can't handle it. I already massively struggle with life in general, but this is beyond what I am currently capable of dealing with. I appreciate that this is a new chapter for them with this organization, and I agree with not bringing this level of attention into both my career and theirs. I am genuinely thankful for the opportunity and for the support I’ve felt from them, even during the benching. With that in mind, I will be taking a break.
Because this situation involves ongoing unwanted contact, repeated boundary violations, attempts to contact me at my home, and what I consider defamation, I’ve decided to handle it through the proper channels. Meaning I am forced to take legal action on behalf of my own safety and well-being, especially considering that even lightly referencing the situation led to this. I have a lot of fear about what speaking openly could lead to. I ask that people respect that for now, and I want to sincerely thank those who have come forward to support and defend me, and I have no ill-will for anyone who reacted strongly to this.
