Nia Vexera

I hate how I can't even self harm right. I either get too anxious and back out or I can't dig hard enough into my body. Anyway, @SolverNights is basically a dead account now. I'm just using this one as my main now.

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// well let's see how this goes //

I hate it here. "What's the temperature for today?" "Death." "…Yeah, not sure why I bothered asking…"

@Doll_an_Cyn Fair. I was just having bad thoughts again.

@SolverFreak Doll adopted you for a reason didn't she? She wouldn't even bother with almost anyone else in such a way

I've seen several posts from oomfs/moots that lists their favs oomfs, but I've noticed that none have mentioned me so far… …Am I anyone's favorite? …Do people even remember I exist, besides my friend?

F u c k m e . I n e e d m o r e f r i e n d s . O r a p a r t n e r . J u s t a f f e c t i o n i n g e n e r a l r e a l l y .

@kyurium007 Glad someone remembers me, and likes me too.

@SolverFreak Of course I remember you exist! I enjoy seeing you pop up on my timeline -w-

I want Alice to wink at me like that.

@Doll_an_Cyn No need to thank me. I'm just trying to be a good friend. Good people deserve good friends. <3

@SolverFreak Thank you -

How does one cry without auctally crying?- Thank you for listening to my sad talk

@Doll_an_Cyn Besties :3 And, if you ever want to talk, I'm willing to listen. You've been good to me, so I want to be good to you too. <3

@SolverFreak Thank you I needed to hear this... New Bestie Unlocked

@Doll_an_Cyn Well, I think you're very likable. And I think your account is very fun to interact with. Anyone who ignores you doesn't know what they're missing out on. If I lived closer to you, I'd come and hug you right now.

@SolverFreak I know . . . It fucking hurts especially when I concider them close and that happens... Makes me rethink everything I already distanced myself from someone due to this shit... Like I'm doing my best here to be a likeable person and make my account fun to interact with

@Doll_an_Cyn That always sucks. "I'm here if you wanna talk" *ignores you specifically* "I'll be busy doing X" *does Y instead* Like, why can't people just be honest? If you don't wanna talk, just say so. Don't say you'll be there for me when you don't mean it, it'll just hurt me more.

@SolverFreak True- Instead of someone claiming "I'm here for you" then Dosent respond for almost 2+ weeks now. Or just flat lied to- someone gonna be busy then you obviously see them doing something else

@Doll_an_Cyn You can always talk to me! I might respond late, but better late than never right?

@SolverFreak I'm starting to genuinely feel like some people have lied to me that some said they wanna be friends or talk and shit It makes me crazy depressed... Either I'm lied to or left on read....

@Doll_an_Cyn *I nuzzle into her*

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: hmn . . . I'll try . . .

🔴Doll: Cyn told me to adopt someone... Why would I wanna do that? . . . 🟡Cyn: do you can feed em your amazing cooking! 🔴Doll: *she huffs and crosses her arms* Maybe . . . Ugh-

@Doll_an_Cyn You definitely make me feel loved like a mother. *I lean against her*

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: hmn . . . *She smiles slightly and continues to rub*

@Doll_an_Cyn *I lean into her hand*

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: *she seems unsure but she softly pats your head anyways*

@Doll_an_Cyn Fair enough. I'm still happy to have a mom though!

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: this will take time getting used to . . .

@Doll_an_Cyn I'm not sure what you mean by "weird" but okay! I'm really just happy to be adopted!

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: fine . . . But just don't make it too weird for me . . .

@Doll_an_Cyn Probably, yeah. Position is still open if you're interested. And will probably stay open honestly.

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: hmnn . . . maybe I would be a better choice...

@Doll_an_Cyn Well, I'm desperate. And if you're really that worried, then you could take the position yourself, Doll.

@SolverFreak 🔴Doll: I'm pretty sure Cyn would be the last one you want as a mother... 🟡Cyn: ouch rude -