Teq
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Teq
@TeqINTL
Engineer & Former Professional Apex Player • https://t.co/hLWNG0YDCm
Boston, MA Katılım Nisan 2020
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@BalvarineFPS should I do a reacting to you reacting to hakis reacting to your video?
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Very smart changes, incredibly smart things happening over here
トミーポコパンツ!@tommypocopants
強化されたクリプトの新パーク、パワブ、アル促進で過去1EMP使ってえぐいwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww #APEX
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Growing up I had mad insecurities. I honestly hated so many things about myself. Being called skinny all my life had really fucked up my self confidence and having eating problems + a lot of allergies also didn’t help. I couldn’t even wear shorts or tshirts outside because I hated how I looked. In 2021 I weighed 115 pounds when I first went to Red Bull for gym/nutrition advice. They helped me improve my diet and taught me the basics of strength training. I was semi consistent for 4 months but I eventually gave up because I was chronically online from streaming. On October 2024, I decided to lock in. I’ve been consistent for a full year now, starting at 118 pounds and today I weigh 146 pounds. Going to the gym has helped me get out of this dark hole that I’ve been trapped in my entire life. And for once in my life, I can look in the mirror and not say terrible things to myself.
While being skinny was my biggest insecurity, I had many more and being a streamer and a professional gamer honestly made my insecurities worse. People in this world say and do the dumbest shit and when you overthink as much as I do, that shit can drive you crazy. In 2021 I had the most insane peak of my career that I couldn’t have ever imagined. It was truly unbelievable and in that time period of my career, I didn’t think I would ever drop or lose the amount of success I’ve gained. I really thought that it was going to last forever.
As time passed, my efforts when streaming faded. Being so competitive focused and having self doubts as a person really spiraled my mood into a state of never feeling satisfied. Being a streamer or competitor, the only thing that made me feel anything was ‘success’. Winning or having growth in streaming fueled my happiness. Last year I thought 2025 was going to be the year that I blew up again. I believed that if I popped off, I would be happy again and have no problems. Yet it caused more stress and pressure to myself and while dealing with other life events, I felt like I couldn’t be the best version of myself on stream. I also felt like I couldn’t take a break fully because I was always afraid of losing everything I have built so far while being stuck in this endless rat race of wanting to be more than what I currently am.
2025 has been my worst year statistically since my pop off. My career is the lowest it’s ever been and yet this year has been the happiest I’ve ever been. I’ve been able to regain my self confidence and self worth again by enjoying my life outside of streaming. Really trying to understand myself and what I really even want to do. 2025 was initially going to be the year I go all out in streaming, but it turned out to be the year of mental building and healing.
Thank you 2025 for all the unforgettable memories. I also want to say Thank You to my community for always supporting and believing in me. I thought I could mentally be strong and act like nothing was going on, but when I had moments of breaking down, you stayed and supported me. I couldn’t be endlessly grateful for that love and support so Thank you. Thank you so much.
I wish everyone a Happy New Years! Thank you once again for following and supporting my journey. 2026 will be the year that I put my all in again. I finally understand how to balance my personal life and streaming life. The passion and drive that I once had when I first started streaming has come again. I’m ready to take on this next chapter of my life and remind the world who the fuck iiTzTimmy is.


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@Jxmo_1 @JustCharlyne Thanks for driving 2 hours yesterday to help me parallel park jxmo, you the man
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