Pamboutiful Life

@survivetheark @tigermadden I'm so excited! I love the idea of having the explorer notes voiced! The story is great!

Later this year, we'll be releasing an update on PC, Xbox, Playstation, and Switch (at launch) where all of Helena Walker's Explorer Notes in #ARKSurvivalEvolved will feature voice over performed by @tigermadden including the Dino Dossiers!

I hate that when my brain doesn't know what it wants to do I can't do anything. I'm just on here and I don't even want to be.

Neurosexism: autistic women, girls and non-binary people are not just ‘better at masking’. Our distress is misinterpreted and our symptoms dismissed, unless they are unavoidably obvious- and when they are that obvious, we are as likely to be punished as we are to be helped.

@AutSciPerson Neurodivergent (Autism), Id say probably 70% of interactions I have I am questioning whether I'm understanding what they mean.

Nonscientific experiment: In the comments, say your neurotype, and then the percentage of interactions with people where you think "Maybe I misinterpreted something someone said/how they sound/etc."

Why am I obsessed with Runescape again its been over a decade since I last played it.

I was searching for a therapist a bit this morning and found one Im hopeful for. Now just waiting for AJ to get up so my day can start. Dont ask me why thats a requirement my brain just thinks it is.

the two dangers of writing: - someone will read it - no one will read it

“You don’t look Autistic” I’m glad you think so, as I am currently undercover

@Lunaautie I feel you. It's not rainbows and sunshine. My partner is able to care for me fortunately since I'm disabled but my family just thinks I'm lazy and a freeloader. I don't think I could be as strong as you if things were different for me. I wish you the best.

Returning to Twitter this morning to likely send off a slew of unrelated tweets. I just feel like I need a space to post things. Feel free to ignore :)

It's so strange, I've felt like shit for so long and I'm finally doing a little bit better and its got me like a deer in the headlights unable to function. I'm so easily overwhelmed by doing anything.

Some people can't live independently as adults and that's OK.

This is always going to be me and I think thats the hardest part to accept. Im not going to get better. They wont find medications that work. I will always be a disappointment to myself and others.

Will I ever be like other people

A genuine dream of mine since I was like 10. Id always hope. Maybe someday. Thats not life for a child.

Do you know how long ive wished I would get cancer so my death wouldnt be my doing anymore

I feel like my mental illnesses and disorders are a joke to my family. They know I have them but are unable to see how they affect me. Or dont care how they do. I just want to be whole for once. I want to live please. Like everyone else.

The thing is I just need to complain. Its my only coping mechanism that gives me some relief from the feelings but I have nobody but my husband to listen. I so badly want to die but I cant.

Its hard loving someone who thinks youre a waste of space. Even harder now that he has a daughter. I dont think my brother wants me to be at her first birthday. Will he ask me to leave? He doesnt like me. He has always been mentally abusive to me. Am I making a mistake going?