Toaster_Enthusiast
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Toaster_Enthusiast
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🌠🎀 Tech Priest in service to the Jomnissiah! Awawawawa!
Mars Katılım Ağustos 2022
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@VeryDMonstrous I have had many supervisors like that and it really makes things hell. I am also a chronic overthinker and that can make things so much worse. As long as you are doing your best there isn't much more you can do.
Hang in there man and i hope things turn around for you!
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Kinda venting. I feel like stuff my day job is now bleeding over into how I interact and view people.
I try to talk as little about my dayjob as possible. I want to keep it separate from the rest of my content.
But unfortunately, once again, despite having a different job, I have a supervisor who just is never pleased with anything I do. I can't even ask questions to clarify or explain my thought process on why I did something. They just look at me like stupid and get upset with me. They seem always in edge with me.
I will also admit I can also not be the brightest at the best of times. I can be distracted and absentminded.
Yet they'll get upset with me if I do something right or even stand up for myself a little.
I try to keep my head down, keep on working, even try to put things in perspective and consider what they are going through. Keep myself grounded.
Yet at the same time...to have this exact situation happen again likd my previous job has been absolutely gnawing at me.
Not only that, I think it's acerbated a problem I've had born from this. I an am overthinker and autistic. That's probably well known. But it's reaching a point where I am looking at every interaction between people even besides them and putting it under a microscope.
Trying to understand what they mean, trying to look at their tone, their body language, every pause, and their words. Trying to see if I am missing any crucial details. Have I stepped on their toes without knowing? Do people actually like me? Or do they just tolerate and are just being polite? HECK, AM I READING TOO DEEP INTO THIS CAUSING ME TO MISS THE OBVIOUS? AM I DOOMED TO ALWAYS BE LIKE THIS?
At the same time, I think it's also bled into my streaming too. Where I am seem grumpier and even more sensitive at my audience teasing me in good fun. I try not to be uptight and just roll with the punches. It's part of the fun. Not take myself so seriously. Though part of me also wonders if maybe I am letting myself be too much a punching bag? I dunno. Am I being coherent?
Apologies, just needed to get this out of my system. May delete this later.
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@KonradCurze_8th @RGuillimanXIII Only death? Damn that's some favoritism right there!
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I hope Jelly had as good a time as we did for that karaoke. I'm very glad to be a part of this community and I'm glad Jelly is my oshi. Wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. Same goes for my fellow Starknights.
God bless Jelly for fostering such an amazing community and for making life a lot more fun. It really does make a difference. I hope we can return the favor in our own small way.
Jelly and Starknights forever! 💙
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@moonjelly0 Thank you for being there for us and making our lives brighter! 💙💙💙
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@UtataneNasa Hang in there Nasa. Just think about how much luck you're saving up for when it's all finished!
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@BUSSIN_NUTZ_69 @Grxit That's what they get for being filthy grays
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@EmberAmane Man this is ridiculous. Praying for things to get worked out soon 🙏
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@UtataneNasa Get a hardhat for your model and make a construction themed stream. Then it's immersive ambience.
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@55blankets No matter how many karaoke streams i see i am still always blown away
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@Arumalyon @YouTube The second i wholeheartedly approve of. The first i'm not so sure. A modest moist sponge works just as well.
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Jelly's Best Friends: A Dishwasher and a Toaster youtu.be/BOOlOxxnHuo?is… via @YouTube

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@EmberAmane Hang in there Ember. Praying the situation is resolved soon.
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