Trinity

@AprilShowerszzz I also began to gain a little bit of traction with my videos and interacted with a lot of people (other YouTubers included) one advice i can give you is : just do your own thing. Most people online are NOT your friends. As soon as you don’t benefit them anymore, you will feel it

Ok so my last post was not actually my last post ever, hi again. Yesterday I was very close to giving up completely, but I was helped by many friends and other good people so I no longer feel so bad. Thankyou to those good people. This isnt the first time I have felt so cornered that the only way out seemed to be removing myself from the gene pool, but it was one of the worser times. I'm a pretty unstable person at all times, but some times are worse than others. A lot of things happened in quick succession over this last week, not the least of which is running out of my anti-depressant meds and not getting a refill. I had a couple of bad twitch streams where the games were not fun, and I found some of chat to be annoying. I've been hard at work and stressed a lot since its a busy time of year being close to Christmas, and i've also been extra busy working hard on my new 36 hour Branded Guide for the new Branded support revealed a couple months ago. i have been trying to get this finished before the end of the year, and I've been making a new and improved Spreadsheet for it as well. On top of this, I'm already really swamped ordinarily with work as a full-time Youtuber and Twitch streamer that edits every video themselves since I don't have an editor, and i also run and host almost weekly tournaments. For someone with untreated ADHD this level of organisation and deadlines is an exceptionally hard challenge to rise to btw. Outside of all of this, home life has been getting a little tense too for reasons related to the flag in my bio. All of this combines to create a very on edge April who is not really doing okay and could breakdown any minute. Yesterday, despite being in this state, I decided to open the MDM discord server. The only reason I am in this server in the first place is to advertise my tournaments in their community tournaments channel. I have long since given up on interacting in the channels. In the past I may have done some chatting in the Branded channel, but after realising time and time again that there are many people there who don't like me, for whatever reason, or have a grudge against me despite never interacting with me, as well as people who don't really want advice on Branded, and just want to troll around and chat, I decided to not bother. It was never everyone there, many people were very cool, but some bad actors often ruined my experiences. Despite deciding this long ago, yesterday i still decided to respond in the Branded channel, since someone pinged me to ask if i was making another guide, to which i informed them yes, as well as the fact that i was making a new sheet. When i looked back at the chat later that night, i opened it to find a little bit of discourse on whether sheets are useful or not, a pretty standard debate in the ygo community. I decided to state my opinion, which is that spreadsheets are helpful for some things, but are not a catch-all easy trick to mastering a deck. This is where a problem began, an argument, one that I was not ready for in my fragile state. A person that had upset me a lot once in the past started to argue against me. I don't really know what they were arguing for, but their messages were poised as if against mine, so it felt like an argument. This person had upset me in the past during a conversation we had in dms where they had requested advice from me on how to get good at Branded and ygo in general. My advice to them back then was that to get good they should go on rated duels and try to grind as high a rating as possible. Play lots, and play against as good of an opponents as you can find. The only way to do this without testing circle connections is to play in rated or tournaments. I gave this advice in particular because I knew that this person did not have a high opinion of ranked or rated, and they didn't participate in tournaments, and instead they chose to play most of their duels in their friends duel rooms. I had played against them myself multiple times, and i had a pretty good idea of how much Branded they understood, so I didn't think giving a guide or combo to them would be as helpful as trying to convince them to get real experience from hundreds of rated duels. When i told this person this, they were not receptive to it all. They seemed displeased that I had pretty much told them to bite the bullet and play lots of a real games. I think perhaps they wanted some easy secret sauce that wins more games or something. No matter how much i tried to explain why what i was saying was good advice, this person wouldn't accept it. Looking back on that situation, i should probably have walked away the moment my advice wasn't accepted, but i stayed in that conversation too long and ended up getting quite upset. So, given that history between me and this person in yesterday's argument about spreadsheets, I felt as though I was probably being argued against purely out of their distaste for me as a person. I had only 1 point to make in yesterdays argument. That point was that spreadsheets are useful for some things, like going first, but don't help with everything, like going 2nd or entering grind games. The argument never progressed to another point because the person I was talking to never seemed to understand what I was saying. They seemingly were arguing that since a sheet can't solve every problem, its not worth using them, which is obviously a nonsense line of reasoning. I gave an analogy, which they also failed to understand, which was something like "A spoon can't cut your steak therefore you shouldn't own a spoon." in an attempt to demonstrate the flaw in their logic. Of course, this was not understood at all, and it was at this point that I suddenly realised that I don't know how old this person i was talking to was. I thought, maybe they are just very young. I then thought maybe they have some learning difficulties or something like that. I genuinely considered this as a possibility given the apparent difficulty they were having in understanding what I think is a pretty simple concept, and how it was no different to that time in the past where they did the same thing once before. At this point I asked the question, "Do you have a mental disability?" Asking this question was probably a mistake. Despite it being a genuine question, it could only be interpreted as derogatory. The person I was talking to just said "no" and continued on with something else, however observers of the conversation decided it was time to jump on me. I was reported / jumped on for "ableism" by people I thought we my friends, as well as by people who are haters and were probably just itching for an opportunity to justify their hate. I got dms from people saying I was crazy. Twitter users said im insane. People in the chat at the time suddenly appeared to seemingly revel in my mistake and crashout. Was I heated in this argument? Yes, i was not doing okay for all the reasons mentioned at the start of the post, and having the spreadsheets discussion right there and then felt like a personal insult at the hard work I had put into my new one over the last few weeks. Especially when I give these sheets out for free because I like being nice to the community. But did I say what I said with the intention to hurt someone? No, it was a genuine question. My motivation for being in the argument in the first place is to provide advice and help. Was I being ableist? Hardly. There is no discrimination against anyone going on here. If the person I asked had replied with "yes I do have learning difficulties" or something like that, I would have been respectful of it and understood more, the very opposite of ableism. I don't want to defend myself too much, because it was definitely a mistake, and I'm a shitty person for other reasons anyway, but on a factual level, i think this is not considered ablism. After this point, the argument went on a little bit more and I did say some insults. I don't remember what i said exactly, but I said something like "he doesn't have the brains for this game" and "everyone here is so dumb". These comments were made out of anger with the intention to hurt. They were not very justified, and im sure from other's perspective this can be a valid reason to have a poor opinion of me. I'm sorry to anyone who saw this and felt uncomfortable or disappointed. This is not exactly the kind of situation that you would expect to make someone as unstable as I was last night, and truthfully, it wasn't so much this as it was what came after that hurt me the most. I received a timeout in the chat for my words, and before leaving to go do something else, I couldn't help but notice that many others had joined in now to celebrate me getting upset, and to chat about me amongst themselves while I had no ability to defend myself. I watched as people who famously dislike me for no apparent reason immediately misrepresent the situation to make me look as bad as possible. The worst part of it all, was seeing friends I used to love and be very close to suddenly show up to join in on the bullying. These were people I would have considered some of my closes friends at one point, and despite nothing really happening between us, they are now part of a gang of bullies that like to hate on me when they can. Some of these friends gave literally 0 indication of any change in opinion, and just one day stopped talking to me despite being besties with me the previous day, and others I thought we were at least on good terms. This was soul crushing to me. I had already had moments recently where I was crushed by certain friends suddenly disappearing, and then to see them again for the first time in months in this context was just awful. I am a flawed person in many ways. I have serious trust issues, and have a tendency to irrationally convince myself that people think the worst of me, and are out to get me, when in reality they are not. This flaw of mine did me no favours last night, exaggerating every experience for me. Fortunately, so many people reached out to me to let me know that they were concerned. Seeing my close friends care, as well as distant friends I hadn't spoken to in a long time, reach out to me was comforting. I did realise something while they were talking to me and giving advice. I realised that it's the ones who do care about you that matter. The friends who messaged me were from my own server, my own teams, my own friend groups. One person called me despite it being 3am their time, just to make sure i was okay and hear my story. Out of the 50+ people who asked if I'm ok yesterday, not a single one of them was from the argument in the MDM Branded channel. Not the person I was arguing with in the first place, not the ex friends who used to be close to me but now ignore me. Not the bias mods/helpers of those channels who have always disliked me for whatever reason. All the messages were from other people. Those are the important ones. I cant be liked by everyone, and there's no point in trying to reason with people who don't. When I first became a content creator, I was kinda naïve. I thought, because I'm a competitive ygo player, all other competitive players will like me because I'm one of them. I thought, because I'm a branded player, all other branded players will like me because I'm one of them. I thought, because I'm a trans woman, all other trans women would like me because I'm one of them. All of these beliefs were wrong and stupid. I no longer care about those who don't care about me. There are many clowns from twitter, MDM, and anywhere really, who just like hating, or think they are in the right when they dismiss an entire adult person because of one screenshot someone showed them, or one line that i said. It is honestly pathetic, but perhaps it is just as pathetic to care about it too. In conclusion. I'm sorry for the one thing i said that might have been too far. I'm also sorry for being a dumbass who thought it was worthwhile to argue or talk to people who have no interest in being civil with me in the first place. thankyou to the very nice people who like me content, or like me enough as a person to be friends with me. you lot are the best. In summary: Am I sorry for anyone I've worried or upset with this? Yes Am I going to bother with the irrelevant people who don't care about me anymore? No Am I going to keep posting content on Youtube, Twitch, Discord, Twitter? Yes Am I ableist? Of course not lmao Am I crazy and unstable? Yes, unfortunately I am. Will i be better in the future? Absolutely, in so many ways.

@hashx27 Yo, I just saw all the EUWCQ tweets, I think we played! I was the unchained player that sadly bubbled out. (Reached 82. place, not quite enough for 64) Congrats for your top!

10-2, topped with dugares lethal r12 kek

@vv05fr Looks good. But I would not play the 2nd OG Yubel and maybe instead of a 2nd BUIO, try one for one /terraforming :) Otherwise I do really like the tourguide engine with BUIO!

@TrinityYGO hi i work on a only dark yubel version with mutiny engine to acces yubel and play impulse in it. Gonna test it this week end at local. What do you think ?

@EmreYGO Goat

@Shark032_ Congrats my friend! Deserved :)

Well… I’m your Bosnian National Champion i guess❤️🔥💪🏻

@TrevorAllenMD If turbulence resolves, it’s often times just over. The problem is not the card but everything around it in its archetype

Imagine telling someone 4-5 years ago, "Yeah the boss monster summons from hand like BLS and has BLS stats... his effect lets them set 4 cards from deck every turn... but he only gets like Fiendish Chain, ROTA, eTele, and Ring of Destruction so the deck isn't very strong." 🚒

we still tired from the Duelist Cup 🐈

@fabs_anime It’s planned, yes! :)

@TrinityYGO Are u making a Combo Video about this ?

@MrLungiCraft I predict a banlist that does indirect hits, maybe a slap on the wrist for Maliss/ryzeal! Normally I would predict that they SLAUGHTER fiendsmith but that they haven’t reprinted any fiendsmith cards yet makes me doubt

@TrinityYGO What are your takes for the banlist?

@Shark032_ I’m having the exact same problem. I’m Leaning more towards ultimate fusion since blue eyes in itself already has a lot of weird draws if you go second

So chat i’ve been testing both recently and i can’t decide which one is better, Majesty is a good pop 2 and you can set it again with Tyrant, while Ultimate Fusion is good going second, dodge imperm/veiler/similar and recycle your stuff but only once

Exciting announcements for BLMM in June! What are you looking most forward to?

Galzo shouldn’t pay it out. It wasn’t a fair game. The one he challenged didn’t play. Simple as that. Everyone who jerks themselves off saying “it has something to do with honor, I would’ve paid it” you’re not in a TikTok edit. If you would let yourself get scammed thats fine

@GAOV_EN042 Good luck!

It’s time.

Champion

SAM WON YCS CANCUN THEN TRIF WON YCS ANAHEIM - SUPREME PRO ON TOP. IM NEXT - 2025 YCS CHAMPION. IM SO HYPE LETS GOOO @TrifGaming INSANITY

I LOVE YUGIOH!! CONGRATS @TrifGaming

Steven Trifunofski wins YCS Anaheim with Fiendsmith Ryzeal!

Words cannot describe how I feel right now. It’s been a long time coming, but I finally took down my first YCS. Honestly, it was a tough battle, playing 11 out of 14 mirror matches. I had to stay sharp the entire time. A huge thanks to @pakofficialtcg and @TrinityYGO for prepping me for this event. I HIGHLY recommend anyone wanting to improve to check out @pakofficialtcg on Metafy. If you’re willing to learn, this is the best thing for you. Pak will be your teacher and guide you every step of the way. Seriously, what’s the point of competing with the best deck if you don’t know how to use it properly? I KNOW anyone who puts in the time to improve and avoids making excuses like, “this format is solitaire” or whatever will see results. Stop yapping and start grinding. Please change your mindset. This game is a beautiful game. I’m not even good and still managed to do well. To anyone talking down on Cancun, seriously, shut up. You’ll never top or win a YCS if you don’t know what it’s like to compete at a higher level. Stop the yap. I’ll 14-0 you too, no problem. Anyway, for those who supported me along the way, I really appreciate you. Thank you again for all the love. I’ll keep eating my Wheaties and doing my pushups to get ready for the next YCS.

@fabs_anime Yeah I agree! I don’t hate Ryzeal but the problem is that it was the best deck even pre-banlist. They shouldn’t have been so hard on everything that can rival it a little bit. I don’t think their format will be better than it was before

@TrinityYGO Ryzeal is the new deck. Its ok if they wait a few months. i like this list so much and i hope we get it in december in the tcg. (except maxx c of course)

❰𝗙𝗼𝗿𝗯𝗶𝗱𝗱𝗲𝗻 & 𝗟𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗟𝗶𝘀𝘁❱ ⚠️Attention OCG Duelists!⚠️ The new #YuGiOhOCG Forbidden & Limited List is now live❗️ Effective 1st October, 2024 #遊戯王 #YuGiOh #유희왕