Vlad 🦇 (shtwt)

If I’m not better by the time I’m 25, I’m going to take my life. I will take enough pills to overdose, whilst using a razor blade to cut up my body as much as I want to let out my last emotions and satisfy myself. I will then slowly die, maybe in my bedroom. I’m currently 22.

I want to cut it feels so good I have nothing else better to do

I don’t want to make him miserable becuase I’m miserable. I just want to downward spiral but I feel bad doing it while he’s around. I don’t want him to go away, but I want to engage in bad behaviour.

I just don’t understand why I can never be satisfied

Please come love me. Every night I fall asleep waiting for you. All you do is play games. Please come be with me, kiss me, show me you still obsess over me.

My scars are slowly fading. All it makes want to do is get worse again.

@bloodydolls444 If you don’t mind, could you show how you bandage it up? I always stress and struggle to deal with cuts like this

@bloodydolls444 How much did it hurt once the adrenaline wore off?

@bloodydolls444 Oh wow I always was curious about cig burns, thanks :)

@bloodydolls444 How much did it hurt?

How do I get him to want to have sex with me?

I wish I could hold him softly in my arms and make him feel loved

I shouldn’t say this shit. He does so much for me. I don’t know why so often I feel unloved and untouched. I wish I would stop overthink. I feel like I’ll always feel alone and isolated with my brain and emotions. I yearn to love and be loved. Love is all I ever think about.

Please just come use me so I can feel like I’m worth something.

Do you still think I’m sexy? Do you even fantasise about me anymore?

I need to breath him. I want to touch his skin every minute of everyday. He has no idea how much I crave him, how much I yearn for him. I want to feel how he yearns for me. I want to see it. I want to feel like he can’t take his eyes away from me.

I’m so bad at trying to ask for sex. It feels like if he’s at his computer then there’s no point in trying to pull him away. But he’s always at his computer. By the time he’s done I’m asleep and too tired to respond. I don’t want to be rude but I miss him

I’ve been missing his intimacy. I’ve come over 3 times touching and kissing you. Not once did you even look at me. “Yes?” How about a giggle, a touch, a smile. Anything. I’m tired of being your friend. I want to be your lover.

Everything feels grey

I think he’s getting tired of me sitting around and crying all day.

I wish he’d cut me