Tenebrous

@middaywake American spirits?

bouta go for a $cig and blunt walk fr when i return, we send this little ciggy to a milly

ancestors need you to lock in son

The salvation of man is through love and in love— radical empathy for a world of subjective suffering

@urbantrends99 GOYP for sure dude too much consumption not enough expulsion

@WellAcquainted_ LSD - GOYP

Is my head supposed to feel like this? Congested — 6 o’clock at home, watching traffic pile itself in a line into the distance through a sliding glass door. A noiseless flurry of misguided autonomy. Behind eyes that ache. Then the salted wind blows and lifts me through the walls of my apartment.

I’ve put quite a bit of distance between myself and my social platforms over the past few months There are still real things There are still real people I’ve come to think that this is largely a trap I feel better without hundreds of conflicting beliefs and opinions on a reality that most of the time isn’t mine. It can be hard to just walk in a straight line when all the things you could be doing are constantly being shouted at you through a megaphone. Eat what is good to eat Take photos that make my heart beat Lift heavy things Love those you love, and those you could. So much simpler without the noise.

@middaywake Smoke it I did, and a jolly good time it was

@WellAcquainted_ absolutely

Just woke up from a nap on a grassy hill Girl still sleeping Do I smoke this cigarette?

@middaywake Godspeed man. Lord knows u been fighting for this one

making it all back in 1 trade

@AbandonInstinct god and my momma

If you don’t know what’s going on in your head… who does?

@AbandonInstinct to die of natural causes in tandem with another the dream

Let’s rot together. The way of bushel of flowers does oh so slowly.

to be bathed in crimson no ambition, no commotion, no failure, no virtue a weight caressed by the gentle tide of a deep breath and impervious solitude no i don’t think so you long for what you do not understand to be bathed in amber

rigidity is death especially in thought the world and people around us are constantly shifting, growing, receding and changing if there is no room for flexibility in your perception of your self, the environment you are in, or the way you think, death is swift and unkind don’t die falling on a dull sword just because you refuse to move out of the way (note to self mainly but do with that what you will) — note — some swords are in fact worth dying on i’m not discounting that, moral values, faith, self belief, etc are all good examples but i’m specifically talking about the stupid shit we justify to ourselves through delusion (cheers)

@middaywake rip to a one of a kind

my old coworker/partner as a painter was Cutthroat Joe he had a dotted “cut here” around his neck, used to sell drugs, killed one person, done a few prison sentences he was the most down to earth, caring, and honest person i’ve ever had the pleasure of working with

a note on compound interest and cognitive dissonance if it is true that compounding action leads to grander and grander outcomes when it is applied to personal growth or accomplishment then the same must be for the opposing side of the spectrum continuous action out of alignment with your goals or values is essentially pulling the drain plug on your reservoir of energy and will power not to mention (and speaking from experience here) this is a sure fire way to curb stomp your sense of self

i’ve spoken on this before (one for the journal but none handy) but i believe that man’s measure of power is his ability to turn desires into reality people (me specifically) get lost in the scope of this tho true personal power comes from the compounding of incremental actions of will over time cognitive dissonance is an energy vampire especially when it is applied to the pursuit of personal power or self mastery one can not possibly conquer the world (whatever that looks like for the individual) without being able to first do even the simplest things he tells himself he should do.

Turning through the entries from a year ago in my journal and i came across one that made me chuckle. - 5/30/2024 A man's burden to choose is also his freedom to act. There's a dirty and enormous sliding glass door standing before me. I don't have the key, and I'll probably never find it. Seems like I have two choices—sit on the couch and watch the birds fly into it, or abruptly ruin the landlord's afternoon by throwing myself headfirst into its murky, brittle surface. Irrespective of the lacerations.

long?