Mayzen

Psalms 91 is one of my favorite psalms 🙏

曾经的银碳已经死了 我亲手杀死的 经历了在网络上的爆火，到后来的大规模网暴 我从曾经一个开朗乐观每天对生活充满自信的【千叶】变成郁郁寡欢，对世界失望，对人心感到恶心，失去目标和方向想着结束一切，不相信任何人的封闭的自我 那段时间真的很煎熬，我只是跳个舞，做着自己想做的事情，用自己亲手画的设定，没日没夜的汗水付出录制的舞蹈视频来赚取我认为合理合法的收入，不知道为什么就会这么多人讨厌我，甚至给我安上所谓的【兽圈政治罪犯】，他背叛了兽圈，这样的不知道谁制定的兽圈法律的帽子 我曾经真的觉得这个圈子的所有都非常非常美好，大家会可能因为现实生活中自己相貌平平，性格内向而不敢社交，羞于表达，但有了毛毛之后，大家可以肆意拥抱，一起玩耍，多么温暖美好的世界，这才是我认为最棒的兽圈文化，大家通过兽设定，兽装，拉近人与人之间的距离，又因为喜欢同一个文化而交到志同道合的朋友，然后将这份美好代代传承 但渐渐的我发现，一部分人它只是披上一层皮，将自己丑恶不堪的内心掩饰起来，即便毛毛再可爱，人心依旧是脏的，做出来的事情让人反胃，话说的很难听，但这是我这几年在兽圈的真实感受 大概两年多的时间我一直被这种情绪困扰，心理状况也非常的不好，那段时间整整一周都吃不下任何东西，每天打开手机都是铺天盖地的谩骂，躺在床上看着这些消息一边哭，哭到没有力气再睡着，醒来之后继续痛苦的持续这个过程，还有人把我的身份证家庭住址公布到网上，给我打电话让我去死，甚至给我父母发消息骚扰 但现在的我，身边有一群一直支持我，喜爱我的粉丝和朋友，不论任何时候都坚定的站在我身后为我应援，我真的很感谢很感谢我有坚持下来，我开始重新相信这个世界，相信身的朋友，相信会变得越来越好，真的多亏了大家给我的爱，没有你们，银碳也许早就退圈了 现在能平静的说出这些来，也算是内心变得强大的证明，我杀死了从前的自己，蜕变的过程很煎熬，但我建立了新的目标和信念，现在的我知道如何保护自己，爱自己，我不会再为不值得的人和事费时间费心力，我会一直努力做出别人做不到的了不起的作品，站在别人走不到的顶峰 我为现在的自己骄傲，银碳你真的很厉害❤️

@TropCycArt eevee!

Eevee used Splash! #eevee #charmander #pokemon #art

@TropCycArt odd

Its very weird that suddenly I get more likes on the same posts on bluesky than here when I have around 10x more followers here. Something is very wrong

🚨Man interviews a random man, and ended up receiving the word of God🙏

@TheInodog Im really sorry this happened. im praying whatever happens nexts works out completely in your favor!!

Heart broken. Woke up this morning to our neighbor telling me at 3:00 in the morning a drunk driver crashed into my parked car and drove off. All the neighbors check their cameras. Sadly they did not catch the driver. Hoping insurance will fix my car and not total it.

ART TIME ONCE AGAIN!!😭💯

@xiaoquandoki10 @LanqiMomento @Wyvern290797 ANOTHER AVALI!!

Commission work halfway done~ ✨ (Tomorrow we'll be shooting his outfit) Welcome this handsome Avali to our big family~ Owner: @Wyvern290797 Thank you so much for your continued support and trust❤️

@TropCycArt up until about a month ago it felt like they had infants running the place. it was so bad but trust it will be uphill from here (i hope)

@WhosMayzen I doubt the branch of ubisoft in my country handles siege development lmao

Its so frustrating that my college locks graduation behind 800 hours of unpaid internship hours. Then give us basically zero companies that even want to hire game devs. Then on top of that require us to do excessive amounts of paperwork if we want to join an outside company.

@TropCycArt you can be our saving grace!!!! #SaveSiege

Companies that are partners with the college are so questionable. Like, who the heck wants to intern at friggin Ubisoft

@TropCycArt your lighting game is actually so fire!

Embers through the Raging Storm

@TropCycArt amazing

Lucario gonna be doing the Luca Luca Beam #lucarioZ #pokemon #art

i need to get off this app.

nvm i fixed it

@arlinmoore_ ez dif. amayzen teddy bear fursuit >> plain black jacket with no style furries got suits double the cost twin.

Owning a $12,000 tailored prada suit will change your life forever. Better investment than any watch.

@ibrycecrawford i will tell you this right now bryce. that feeling you had that morning was completely God given. the timing was actually so insane and a perfect reminder that God loves unconditionally but his grace will run out! there is no outrunning his coming.

We must repent and turn to Christ.❤️

the gift of discernment is a real blessing. i don't take it lightly.

@LuiCalibre @Puttherr “who is puttherr” haven’t heard that name in years

@Puttherr where are you?

@TropCycArt we are here! we care about you. i apologize my schedule has been so hectic. i’m really down to hang out more!

Do I even exist? It just feels like I could just disappear and nobody even noticing. Always with nobody to talk to at the end of the day, always ignored, people online don't actually "know" me to feel like a real connection. How long do I even wait to find people? Im so tired

You bring the light to this dark world Lord thank you for this life you have given me I would not be here without you and thank you for the wonderful people you have so graciously brought into my life.