Xander Kaid

ꉧꋬꋊ꒯ꏂꋪ ꀘꋬ꒐꒯ ꉔꄲ꒯ꏂꋊꋬꂵꏂ: P̸͟͞r̸͟͞e̸͟͞d̸͟͞a̸͟͞t̸͟͞o̸͟͞r̸͟͞ ꒐ ꒯ꄲ ꅐꁝꋬ꓄ ꄲ꓄ꁝꏂꋪꇙ ꄲꋊ꒒ꌦ ꅐ꒐ꇙꁝ ꓄ꁝꏂꌦ ꉔꄲ꒤꒒꒯. ꏂꋊꊰꄲꋪꉔꏂꋪ/ꃳꄲ꒯ꌦꍌ꒤ꋬꋪ꒯ ꊰꋬꀘꏂꋬꊰ ꋪꉣ25+ ꁝꋬꋪ꒯ꁝꏂꋬꋪ꓄ꏂ꒯ ꉔꋬ꒯ ꋊꇙꊰꅐ ꉣꋬꋪ꓄ ꄲꊰ @SirenSistersC

@HunterS_SSC I know things are a bit of a struggle right now, but know you are not alone. I’m here, holding your hand, a shoulder to lean on, and arms to carry you when necessary. I love you more and more every day. #WCW

@HunterS_SSC Always will. We are going to have ups and downs, but through that I’ll be there.

After all that has been said and done. This man stays true. I love you. @XanderKaid_SSC #MCM

@HunterS_SSC “You won’t be. We’re a team and we’ll find a way to get all this to work. I love you to Hunter. I think I have for a very long time.” Everything else could wait, I have her in my arms now, and I needed her there as much as she needed to be there. #BackHome #FreshStarts

@HunterS_SSC can now to make tomorrow a little better. One day at a time, one step at a time.” I had interrupted but, what came next had me shocked, stunned, and I looked into her beautiful eyes and I saw truth there. And I knew then that I would die before I ever gave up on her. +

*Now that we were home things were different, very different. I thought that when I’d be reunited with @XanderKaid_SSC it would be heated. In a sense of him being upset but I never expected the silent brooding that I got on the car ride all the way home. I was on edge more >

@HunterS_SSC because giving up is not an option.

@HunterS_SSC understand why. If you had taken the methadone with you, at least you would have had something to take that edge off. But you’re not ready to go without it. It takes time and you need to slowly be weaned off. So now we start fresh.” It was all we could do, +

@HunterS_SSC starting treatment fresh.”

@HunterS_SSC When I did my research, it stated that relapse was common. We would just start again. I ran her words through my head again. They found her stash, but did she actually use? That is also a huge difference. “So you bought, did you use? I just need to know so I know if we are +

@HunterS_SSC do for yourself, and make your own decisions. Follow your own instincts.” It was the last part, something I had wondered for a while now. “Did you relapse? Is that what you are trying to tell me? Do you need the methadone?”

@HunterS_SSC “I don’t need to make you hurt worse.” Making my way over to her, I crouched down in front of her, my hands grasping hers as she spoke. “You should have, but neither of us can change the past. I get there is a strong bond with your sisters, but you can think for yourself, +

@HunterS_SSC The thought of losing Hunter had me clenching my fists and fear stab me hard and sharp. “I can’t go through that. I won’t survive it. You are far too precious, even if you don’t see it, I do. I should have been there to support you, give you strength. And protect you.”

@HunterS_SSC you and your sisters went after him. What wasn’t okay was no communication. Was hearing nothing. I fought my feelings and attraction to you the first time I rescued you and your sisters, but after almost losing you the last time he took you…” I ran my hand through my hair. +

@HunterS_SSC nothing to me! Not a word!” I jumped up and started to pace the room, trying to keep myself from really and truly exploding.

@HunterS_SSC deserved.” It seemed once I started, I couldn’t stop. My voice low, growling with the pent up emotions. “Do you have any idea how worried I have been? How scared? Were you alive or dead? Did you relapse? Hell you didn’t even take the methadone! But most of all, you said +