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Around last year this month of April, I was under a lot of financial pressure. Family had a lot of debt, no money, wifi and phone lines cut off, nobody could talk to each-other, no food, I used to eat potatoes my brother made with some garlic, and no hope for any better future, last attempts at creating something valuable in the world failed despite being very close. Failure was all there was. When humans face immense pressure, I believe they turn into a robotic state, they stop processing emotions temporarily and the need to have a purpose or to think something through before doing it is gone so is your self-awareness, you just turn into this thing that needs to survive at least one last time. I went to libraries and worked there I didn’t expect much I just did whatever I had to do when libraries closed I used to park outside the library in the parking so I can still access the library’s wifi. April was a difficult month but then that’s when May came.