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By Grace through Faith. Here today, Forbes tomorrow. Igbo❤️ |Man United fan|| Professional Organizer in Abuja📍
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@adaezennaji_ Omooooooo. Hmmm🙂
Im really grateful that time heals if not.
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I couldn’t eat well for the first 2-3 days 😂
Tried cooking and burnt a whole pot of beans. I was trying to eat rice one afternoon and my hands were shaking. I just dropped the food and started crying 😂😂😂
Chai. Never again sha. I’m not giving any man such emotional power over me again. Na since then I turn Agojie.
I’ll love you but I won’t give you the power to break me like that again. Never again.
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Erkek arkadaşından ayrıldıktan sonra yaşadığı süreci paylaşan kadın. "Aylarca ölüyormuş gibi hissettim. Dünyanın en kötü acısı."
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I hope say no be kunu be millet mocktail??😭😭
Kal-El@Umarkaoje_
this millet mocktail wey i drink don dey make me sleep o
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I am typing this around 3:58 AM because I want to share some personal details about my prayers this morning.
I started praying by 3 AM. That is not usually the time I pray, but it turned out very spirit-filled, and I want to share how I got here.
For the past two days, I realized I have struggled with sleep before praying by 12 midnight.
That usually never happens. 2 AM is my normal sleeping time, so I was confused.
Then I realized what had changed in my routine in the past two days. My generator has been faulty, so there has been more darkness at night.
My melatonin, the sleep hormone, must have been more active.
Well, I slept off around 11 PM to wake up by 12 to pray.
I woke up at 2:45 AM, lol.
Now this is where the story begins and why I want to share this.
Getting out of bed became the first obstacle. But guess what moved me out?
One thing. I wanted God.
I mean, it was not the fact that I know it would be a sin of omission not to pray because Jesus commands that we pray always.
It was not the fact that we have a priestly duty to offer the incense of prayers daily that moved me from the bedroom to the living room.
It was God. My soul longed for Him. I knew I would feel Him and be with Him and know Him more when I pray.
I could not pass that up for anything.
I love Him. My soul called and yearned for Him.
I got up in the darkness and went to the living room to start praying.
Then came the second obstacle to scale. I started praying but did not connect.
I mean, the experience did not feel like my spirit was discerning the will of God, so prayer became a call-and-response communion.
It felt rigid and mechanical.
So I went to YouTube to find a Song of Ascent, like the Hebrews sang when they went up to Jerusalem to worship God.
I picked Pastor Chris Devlan’s “There’s No One Holy As The Lord.”
It is not even a professionally produced and mastered song.
Maybe even a phone was used to record it. But it was enough to cause my spirit to ascend into God.
Like Paul said, I was enriched by the psalm and spiritual song.
The song is around eight minutes long. By the time I was done, my spirit was bearing witness with that of God for the purpose of that prayer.
This was the point everything changed.
Like a dynamo reaching continuous oscillation, I did not even need the song anymore.
God’s Spirit in my spirit was sustaining the communion now.
This brings me to the last and most intimate part of the story.
As I prayed, I was sensing, as expected, the burdens of God in my spirit.
This was what informed my prayers and what I interceded for.
It feels like a weight on your soul, but I believe the weight comes from the Lord Himself, communicating to the one praying what he should pray.
Once I start praying in line with the burden, it lifts. Then I know I am praying His will at that moment.
This mechanism is also how I discern other things in life, whether they are from God.
I do not even think I can teach this. It is so internal that you would have to experience it yourself.
So I was discerning several emphases on the heart of the Spirit of God.
At one point, I was sensing intercession for the body of Christ at large.
In fact, several scriptures popped into my mind from nowhere. I would not have remembered them otherwise.
One was Paul saying the Corinthians should put on Christ. Another was him saying we should honor God in both word and deeds, and there were others too.
I did this on my knees. It was very intercessory, and I almost even cried.
So great was the burden.
Then suddenly, I sprang up and immediately said, “Let God arise, and let His enemies be scattered!”
From intercessory appeal to warfare declaration, I knew the Lord briefly used me as a battle-axe because I felt such in my spirit.
And I felt the warring stirring of God in my spirit and atmosphere right there.
I think I will stop here.
I gain nothing from sharing this except to stir you to stay more with God.
I share the experience of maintaining my prayer life, showing you that even I still battle with it, but I win most of the time.
I share this so that you can know that it is very possible to maintain a prayer life.
I am like you.
My time is tight.
I have worries and cares.
I have a career to build.
I have jobs to do.
I have family to cater to.
I have money to make.
I love sleep.
But we must still pray. And to show you that there is so much more joy in praying than anything this world can offer.
Oh, such joy and glory. The more you pray, the less you love this world.
And I have not even scratched the surface of the surface that covers the first surface you need to scratch to begin scratching the surface of God.
But I am pressing forward, forgetting the things in the past.
I press onward to take hold of what Christ took hold of me for.
To the glory of His name. Amen.
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