mika ᓚᘏᗢ (22 days binge free)

✩*ೃ.⋆ May Accountability 🪡 ⋆.*ೃ✧

In desperate need to remind myself eating will NOT solve my issues

and everyone’s acting like im being unreasonable for being upset when ive been doing everything by myself with no help or break or rest??? Literally everytime i look up im the ONLY one there.

genuinely tweaking out if being promoted means every day is like today i am killing myself publicly in front of everyone i work with

i do think fasting over 24-36 hrs while i have work is just not going to happen like at all, too much physical labor during a 10-12 hr shift i genuinely felt like I was gonna die all day yesterday and today I’ve felt fine since I broke my fast

and what if next time i build up PTO i take a week off jus to starve

If I can make it through this whole month without going over my limit and making all my steps I am going to have a homemade pasta omad I’ve been craving it so bad, I want some Alfredo 🥲

how it feels

May 03 ────୨ৎ──── ✮ Intake: 728 ✮ Steps: 12153 ✮ Water: 2L

May 02 ────୨ৎ──── ✮ Intake: 010 ✮ Steps: 15922 ✮ Water: 2.1L

✩*ೃ.⋆ May Accountability 🪡 ⋆.*ೃ✧

im so hungry this is why I shouldn’t fast ;-;

Why did no one tell me the adverse effects of my eating disorder would impact me adversely

today has felt 80 years long

saying cigs makes me feel like I’m trying too hard to be cool but saying cigarettes feels too formal so i will be saying ciggys from now on

death by liver cirrhosis

Always the drunk texter never the drunk texted

sometimes you have to listen to This Love and have some hope for loving other people for a moment

this includes my mother who has forcibly hospitalized me from this disorder TWICE 😐

i genuinely do not understand everyone of my irls sudden compulsive need to tell me how much they weigh

at the very least I’m gonna try to get to 48hr on my liquid fast, it’s the longest fast I’ve done in a year or so!

i CANNOT eat until i have like a 5lb buffer from that goddamn number