mikael

i want to start by saying

solitaire addiction so bad i keep seeing the 4 of spades move to the 5 of diamonds when im trying to SLEEP

using free will by doing exactly nothing

brethren i was once again questioning this shit and thinking i wasnt trans but just attracted to some of these men, so then i thought about a specific type of guy and got extremely sad because that would mean i couldnt be him BUT THEN I REMEMBERED I CAN!!! so now yeah that ok bye

unintentional 23h fast so far and im scared to break it because i know ill eat too much💗💗

i will NOT have a horrible come down because my heart is filled with love and kindness

grieving the dick i had in my dream

especially the vocals near the end, around 18:00 i believe, good lorddd🤤🤤 i never expected myself to actually like accordion

came across an accordion piece and i found it beautiful because it sounded raw and distraught. my mother called it scary and creaky and said it sounds like farts??? greatest "art is meant to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable" moment so far

will link it once it comes online🙏🙏 if i dont forget

cursed with a flesh vessel

like yes i look pretty as a woman but also NOOOOOO WHO IS THAT

turns out i was coping HEAVILY with the fat ive gained

feminine clothing is genuinely the only thing that looks decent recently because of the fuckass fat ive gained. need go get back to how i looked before ASAP

i look like a trophy wife. WHY ME

wearing a dress for the first time in forever and its making me want to kill myself because yes i would absolutely do myself but URUWJAHAUAI

scrolling through my drafts made me go through every emotion in existence

ok that never held me back before. i must fulfill my duty of feeding the public by spouting absolute nonsense

but also, im not doing anything passionately anymore. im not obsessed anymore. i train, occasionally. i learn, occasionally. i starve, occasionally. everything feels so empty. there isnt really anything to post about

it feels like ive lost my ability to post carelessly ever since my admission, and now it feels awkward. im sure itll get comfortable again eventually