abi 🍄

february goals ♡ • lose 10kgs • save £300 • crochet at least 2 things and/or start a big blanket • call my friends and family more ♡ pinning and will update at the end of february ♡

also been binging for weeks and i am fatter than ever so if everyone could just not perceive me for 5-6 months that would be great

hey everyone i'm sorry i've been so inactive i am inconceivably ~♡☆ depressed ☆♡~ but heres a picture of my sisters dog to make up for it

i'm so fucking depressed but then i remember i haven't taken my meds in like 6 days so whos fucking surprised

i also didn't go food shopping which means i have no lunch today but that works well because i'm so disgusted with myself for binging so much anyway pepsi max for lunch and then maybe have something for dinner but we'll see how i'm feeling

binged the entire weekend - was so focused on my ed that i forgot to wash my uniforms for work

and the worst part is i have so much food left over (ended up walking to the shop for food while i waited on my delivery as it was taking too long) but i know i can't stop until it's gone. i have like a moment peace after i purge and then a minute later i'm stuffing my face

i've b/p'ed 3 times in the last few hours and my entire body is aching this disorder is so fucking shameful

so i started thinking i'm gonna have a metab day so was going to order a subway sandwich for lunch ended up buying £40 worth of food so guess it's a b/p day because i don't know how to do things in moderation

@chasingskin4eva OH that makes so much sense !! might have to invest because i be yapping too much for this limited amount of space

@addictedhunger lol Twitter is pay to win and I love to throw away my money

me being a maid of honour in may - if i'm not at least 25kgs lighter by then i'm gonna need someone to get violent towards me

@0utsideLooknIn thank you so much !! I love a few on your list so I trust your opinion on the others

@addictedhunger The Pitt, Lucifer, Pluribus, Castle, The good place, Dead to me, 2 broke girls, Zoey's extraordinary playlist, Poker face,...

does anyone have any tv show recs? something i can get sucked into for a good distraction

@catiejaney stopp the way my sister was sucked into buck/eddie fanfiction is another reason i need to get on this immediately thank you sm for the recommendations !!

@addictedhunger I’m obsessed (I need buck and Eddie to be together asap), I also highly recommend Ted Lasso, one of the best tv shows every made

@catiejaney ooh my sister is currently making her way through this and loves it so i might take this as my sign to give it a try

@addictedhunger 9-1-1, it’s cheesy but it’s so good 😂

@chasingskin4eva also how do you have so many characters per tweet i was basically at my limit in my last reply 🫠 i'll be honest twt really confuses me half the time so teach me your ways

Ugh I’m so sorry Idk I also feel like it’s so hard to figure out what to wear when ur body shape changes so much so often? Or maybe it’s just bc I’m high SW AND high CW so my figure changes so much. Like even just for the wedding I was just at, my parents left two weeks ago with my dress pants and tailored them 4” smaller in the waist which should have been perfect and I got there and they were still kinda loose already. So aside from feeling bad like it’s literally impossible to figure out sizing which also makes it really hard to pick a dress I would imagine, since sizing availability is likely a factor, and dress shape/design is SO dependent on how you’re built :( I’m so sorry Abi ugh like I can imagine the stress😭 I rly rly hope you are able to figure it out

@chasingskin4eva thank you so much !! yes it's impossible because i have no idea where my weight will be in may.. and i've never really been a dress girl anyway so the idea of wearing a dress is enough stress in itself god i want to be there as someone who adores her but can i be invisible

@chasingskin4eva and i know i'm probably stressing her out because i have been saying 'i'll look into it' for about 2 months now i am yet to look at any options 🫠

@chasingskin4eva honestly the whole topic causes me to absolutely shut down.. the bride keeps sending dress/outfit options and i love her to death but the idea of trying to look nice when i feel so bad about myself is overwhelming

my binge urges are through the fucking roof