aiday 🍎🐇

🧺 ❛ ABOUT ME ! ༉‧₊˚✧ • aiday, she/he, 18, ND, uk • this is my diary / vent so tw for ED and occasional sh talk (no pics) • pro recov / not fatphobic • DMs open 🫶 and always looking for new moots !!

@GHOST958723 thanks very helpful

@aidaymayday Yes, a lot . So much actually

will i gain weight on 1500 calories and 33k steps

@wksnxzq im 158cm and bmi 11.5

@aidaymayday depends on ur height

pls answer

i have been mentally ill and sick for so long that i dont know what life would be like differently and my amnesia/trauma does not help with that because i dont remember anything so this is literally all i know

my classmates from secondary school all went to prom and are now in college or uni getting degrees, going to parties, living in their own apartments and traveling yet im here trying to slowly kill myself

i need to work harder

went from bmi 11.3 to 11.6 so quickly im so fat and disgusting and lazy

second day after i said id lock in and i already fucked up i fucking hate myself im lazy and fat

i think my body gets too exhausted when i get over 30k steps but getting less than 25k means i cant eat in the 1400s im so sick of myself im so lazy and healthy

@gemstonw yep being in the bmi 11s will do that to you 😍

@aidaymayday ana eats the brain or whatever

@k7v4yrgpqr wow a someone on edtwt asks a disordered question how surprising

@aidaymayday the pigs can fly aah question 🫩

@dollesxcent thanks how helpful

@aidaymayday yeah 20 pounds per second

i feel so fucking fat

@raspbwerryy_ NOOOOOO IM SORRY I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS esp if it was a good deal 😭 what was it?

going from bmi 11.3 to 11.8 overnight is most likely water retention right… i ate 1240 cals + 21k steps yesterday and pooped before weighing myself but i had a shower so maybe my hair is still sort of damp ??

@MFelvet meee !! not in recov but sorta harm reduction and i like the calendars, was sad there wasnt any for some time :(

Ik its already the 5th, but who would like a recovery challenge calendar for april?

@luvr_of_sprnkls working out your feelings irt to whether or not its rooted in control is important, but you could also try baking with others or get someone else to choose the recipes to get rid of that aspect of control?

I can’t tell if I actually wanna get into baking/cooking or do I just need control over my food :c

@strawberryfaexx CUTIES love sphinx cats 🥹

@raspbwerryy_ HOPPY EASTER !! 🐇 are you doing anything to celebrate?