🥳 BIRTHDAYbear 🥳

it's... a PAMBA BIRTHDAYYY 🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉 we'll celebrate next week because I got hella finals today... so yea :3 please take a goodie bag and a slice of cake. if you don't, i never want to see you again :3 YIPEEEEEEEE 🥳🪅🥳🪅🥳🪅

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she dom on my king till i come ...deliverance II :3 twitch.tv/ailubear 🔸 LIVE NOW 🔸

@MayChanVT ...know how much I mean to some of my viewers. I need to be there for them - with or without the badge. I'll just keep experimenting until I find a formula that works! I think you and I can afford that time to try new things and see what works!

@MayChanVT Sometimes I feel as if the content I make isn't "partner worthy". Like what I like to do as a creator is the very thing that *won't* get me partner. I think creating because I like it, and having people show up day after day is a win for me. Maybe one day, but I...

I sometimes wonder how I will react if I ever reach Twitch Partner or even Youtube Partner. I feel like I've given up on that goal after almost 7 years of streaming. Don't get me wrong, I love creating still and I do believe that should be the majority of the reason to create, for me at least. It's like a lofty dream to me now, but I don't NEED it either. But it's nice to have? Deep down I know I'd like to have it as sometimes it feels like it makes me feel seen as a content creator, but I know it's not what defines me as a content creator either. At the same time I know I don't want this as a full time career. It's too volatile for me to rely on comfortably and I don't think I can realistically ever reach that height for that comfort. I know I can make more content, there's just not a lot of time between full time job, staying healthy mentally and physically and decompressing when I know my brain needs it. As long as I can make even a handful of people happy in small doses and make fun memories for myself and others who can relate or just wanna hang out, I'll keep trying my best. Don't mind me I'm just reflecting and compromising with myself about my feelings on certain goals in a hobby I love lol. When it doubt, let it out!

i dont think ive ever flown united, but imma fucking NAP on these bitches

he back twitch.tv/ailubear

Finished all of my finals ^-^ As of now, 2 classes finalized with an A. I learn about another grade this Sunday, and then the final class' grade after the term ends. But.... It's looking like I made all A's again :3 (pamba dean's list for a SECOND time????) now I shall eep

Just finished my 2/3 final! This one I do know the grade of the final: 45.8/50 (about a 90% A) I needed over 33 points to pass :3 Final grade in the class: 96 (A) Now I get to eat yum food for dinner :3 (And get ready for the last one!)

it's... a PAMBA BIRTHDAYYY 🎂🎉🎂🎉🎂🎉 we'll celebrate next week because I got hella finals today... so yea :3 please take a goodie bag and a slice of cake. if you don't, i never want to see you again :3 YIPEEEEEEEE 🥳🪅🥳🪅🥳🪅

Currently rocking 8 atm, but ive always wanted to try 2 :3

@JunoJelli BIRTHDAY TWINS

it’s my birthday today!! 🎂 I’m happy to celebrate my first balloon day with you 🩷 officially 1 slime year older!

Today is final 1/3! This is the one I am the most worried about... But turns out I just need to score 49 points out of 87 to pass the class...with a 90% A. If I just don't show up to the final, I can pass with a 80% lol. Still want to do well though :3 wish me luck!

@pheesekai When you say niche, do you mean like “sticking with a genre of game” or “one form of content - that’s it” Cause I really like RPGs, but is that considered a niche if I just focused on that? I also like programming..but that’s boring + beat VTuber and coding dont go together

I am NOT a vtuber advice account by the way!!! Just a loser with too much time spent analyzing trends and ripping my hair out over what works and what doesn't. This is my conclusion after 4 years, and any vtuber manager worth ANYTHING will give you this advice. Niche. That's all. Me personally? I'm gonna be focusing on open world survival crafting content when I return, and making primarily videos about stuff I ACTUALLY gaf about. Variety will be occasional and only when I'm ready to branch out. No more marathons. No more subathons. No more HUGE events. Just me and doing what I love for the people who love it too. I just really like open world survival crafting games. WHICH BTW if you like them too, MAYBE consider following! :D Cuz I'll be doing a lot of that in a few months after my IRL and other account is situated. MWAH! See you in another few days when I have something else stupid to say

@pheesekai Sucks because I feel like I don’t have a niche nor interest in having one? I don’t like a game nor community enough to do that. Sucks that I kinda have to select a niche I probably dislike just to get the badge and be taken seriously. womp womp I guess :cc

You don't have to believe me either. I'm pretty mad myself. I worked for 4 years for something that ultimately was just kind of....whatever. I have much bigger and better goals on that account AND this account now. I can finally stop chasing the checkmark that gave me countless nights of stress and self-hate. Whether it's something you want to pursue is entirely up to you. You don't NEED it to be happy, but I understand that it's impossible to be taken seriously without it. Best of luck to anyone going for that purple checkmark. And remember, you can always NICHE down now and branch out later once your viewership is solid. That's the route I'm personally taking.

im sorry, but this shit looks like straight ASS it looks..uncanny? cant wait for this ai shit to burst bro 😭😭😭😭

🟠Just a heads up! 🟠 This is my finals week! Streams might be a little wonky :3 I have three finals! 🔺March 18th 🔺March 19th (my birthday...I know) 🔺March 20th My birthday celebration will be next week!

they done added another twink. what can stop valorant at this point

I am going to be so insufferable

@Tomoe_VT nothing biscuit

Your new VTuber name is the color of your right sock and the last thing you ate: