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stats to hopefully hold myself accountable 152.4cm/5ft cw 42.2kg/93lbs gw 38kg/83.8lbs ugw 30kg/66lbs

I MIGHT GEBUINELY PISS MY PANTS ON THE WALK HOME OH MY FUCKING GOD

30 minutes til home and I don’t think I have ever been so full of piss in my life dear god 😭😭😭

theater doesn’t have mr.pibb zero anymore ??? this is my 9/11

without thinking I asked google a maybe not okay question on my work computer… I did it on incognito at least???? It will probably be fine though right? Like they won’t actually flag that shit bc it was after work anyway

accidentally gave this smoker on the train the stink eye bc I could not hide my outrage and disgust fast enough when I was looking for who tf was smoking in the goddamn train

I am not going to the beach til I reach my gw and I refuse to go another summer without trying a chicago beach 😡 !!

I wish I had another cleaning job lined up for this weekend. Not only was that really fun but it was an AMAZING distraction from eating

why is being suicidal so embarassing 😭 especially at this age

I just remembered that time a couple years ago that I had my suicide planned and said bye to my coworkers in chat. Not to my friends bc I knew they’d try to stop me 🧍

my boss just got really pissed at me and for once I can’t bring myself to give a shit LMAO I don’t screw up that often at work but when I do I usually freak out and start literally contemplating suicide ahdjdjdj but idk this time I’m like welp. 🤷 tough shit I guess

I always complain about the lack of nonwhite thinspo but I just realized I can be the change I want to see if I could just ACTUALLY LOSE WEIGHT

fasting for as long as I can stand starting now fuck this

just barely made it to 42 but ate so much yesterday i’m back at 43 what the FUCK is my problem

I have a rule for myself that I don’t waste time or energy on futile efforts. That includes internet arguments 🤷

i am no longer a person who binges i don’t identify with binging

@willeatmyself may you be entitled to financial compensation for emotional distress 🙏 amen

I still dk if I have THIS MYSTERY CANCER LMFAOOO so plz u guys can STOP WITH THE praying for u and sending healing comments for now! INSTEAD Pray that this is ACTUALLY just insanely wild medical fraud and I win a lawsuit cuz this has been such a whirlwind of a day 🙃🤷🏼‍♀️

@willeatmyself hcc is liver cancer. I wish you the best of luck, this whole situation is terrible. the breakdown in communication is so unacceptable

There is also an HCC code right next to the diagnosis on my chart? Current health issues - Endometrial Cancer (HCC) so that’s what got me thinking this is some fraud shit - cuz honestly regardless C AN C ER is a big deal ??? Whatever is happening is fckd? Year old pathology??

30 has been my year of putting together and realizing a lot of shit about myself and it all fucking sucks ahdkdj

3pm and I’m finally hungry. Craving fries, but the homemade kind. NO potatoes or oil in the apartment though lmao

So I’m in love with my glp1