Alexis ن​ | ශැරන් †

Took me 22 year but I made it! (I had a tailor made letter set with the OG font, the red seal & platform ticket mailed to me before going there!) 🍂

*Me before writing the daycare chapter* “I’m done with dating” *Me while writing the daycare chapter* “OHHH shit.. that’s my husband”

Life in Sri Lanka is not for the weak

I made a parallel 1. my mom running into the heart of the Ceylinco bomb explosion in 1996 looking for her husband 2. Me calling her 100 times through jammed lines in 2008 after the blast looking for her

👨‍✈️: I know what to get you on your 40th birthday Me: I am not even 30 yet

Just realized I associate him with safety and protection like Seher associates me with safety and protection. Ah shit.

The worst part about 2008 is when I heard the Dehiwala station bomb go off, near my mom’s office and I couldn’t reach her for hours, I was in a different daycare..and I did not have pilot boy and our friends. I was alone. And I had a panic attack for hours until I saw her again.

2017-2019 chapters are literally: travel, travel, travel

The Mexican is not the endgame for this book. As much as I miss him, I don’t want him to be. I love the concept of Alia being in touch with her roots, her foundation, her home. I love full circles. I love what feels like destiny that was written before everything else.

He was punching people for me at age 10, not knowing he is the most deeply admired male in the book😭

Me: you really didn’t have to fight with him at the daycare, I was literally closer to you 👨‍✈️: you better be Me: let’s invite him so he can see who won

7-8 y/o me was the reason for this fight at the daycare 😩…

Idk who needs to hear this... I cannot be erased.

2 years ago one of his ex removed me from all of his social media. I had never dated him, never kissed him. We had barely texted since 2017. It’s like they all sensed it

It is not all my fault… I have texts from both 🌙 and 👨‍✈️ calling me “sis” during ‘13-‘14 knowing very well what they wanted for years without my knowledge

After scrolling all the way up to 2013.. I found a text where he said “hey sis” … and then he started flirting .. oh so we both DO see eachother as siblings.. but in the most taboo way possible

Vesak has been mentioned twice in my book in great detail. Ahaha

2 Catholic btw💀💀💀. Most Sinhalese Catholics act like this part time.

Mexican feels like the wife that died at the beginning of the movie. 🕊️

I really enjoyed my first trial marriage last year

Do I really want marriage or am I just bored looking for a sidequest??? It’s hard to know with ADHD.