alien baby

part of me wants to just start applying to jobs, but part of me wants to wait for my NM reciprocity to come back first. i should have reciprocity by the time i start, it’s just that my start date is so far out rn im concerned they won’t want to hire me

bmi 22 = 147 lbs 21 = 140 20 = 134 19 = 127 18 = 120 actually wild that a bmi point is only about 7 lbs

can’t tell if the reta did anything bc i wasn’t restricting today so me not being hungry doesn’t mean anything

@microabs @skinnyoverload and here i was thinking you were saying they needed the calories so their brains would work 😭

aquamarine is exactly what it was like being a teenager in 2005

i love so much when people call me skinny, especially tonight after i’ve been feeling so hefty resident was like “you’re going to lift me?? you little thing??” like don't get me wrong i still think i’m too fat but 🥰

@resisttheurge22 personally i choose to hate my parents for teaching me bad eating habits

So am I supposed to hate the scale or hate the person standing on it ? Instructions unclear

there is a theory that depression is the soul’s way of rejecting the life you’re forcing yourself to live. your spirit shuts down when you’re too far from your purpose, people or path.

@elderisback women need carbs for our menstrual cycles though. and we’re more sensitive to cortisol than men are & low carb raises cortisol

Bf: “can i give you some advice?” Me: “no.” Bf: “you eat too many carbs.” not only unsolicited advice, but something he has already said no less than 20x

@microabs i took 2mg this afternoon bc it’s the start of my work week, I’m hoping it will help in my struggle against stress eating all night

i should go to the NPS store again, see if they have any good protein bars or protein shakes bc yeah I’m trying to save money but i still love that processed garbage

i would do this if i had the extra money for it lmao no cap

It IS possible, don’t give up.

@cokezeroah i really wish he would understand that for every time i write something crazy, there are at least three or four other times i almost did but stopped myself and then appreciate it

@aliengarbagecan I managed to have self control FOR ONCE lmaoooo but normally I just send such insanity. Glad you understand 😅

I’m so greasy and ugly and I have like 8 loads of laundry to do in 2 days (will do 4 loads today and 4 tomorrow) and I need to shower and get dressed and put on makeup and not pass out and not send any crazy texts to a man

really cool to lose all this fat off my frame and still feel hefty

my mother moved us to Utah when i was 10 & i still think it was the worst thing she ever did. or maybe top 5, somewhere after the abuse part

salt lake is just full of bad memories. every time i’ve lived here, it came with a breakup that left me suicidal