BPD And Me

Walking zombie this morning but seeing him which is exciting

Butterflies are building.......

Honestly can't wait till tomorrow

Only need to get through this morning then I see Phil tomorrow ahhhhh..... Why am I nervous

2 days to go......

Ahhh why can't I wake up and it's Saturday I miss him

We are talking about meeting his family 😱scared but they are important to him so I will just makes me sad that he will prob never meet any of mine because we are no contact

Well my depot is starting well I'm at the CMHT and she is at my flat........ Fuck sake I said at the CMHT

Depot day tomorrow 2 weeks late.........

He's booked my birthday off 😍 he was like BTW I booked your birthday off so we could do something Ahhhh.... could I fall any harder for him.....

Day 2 back at work and I'm not coping I'm crying 😭😭

Honestly can't wait till Saturday

Alarm set for tomorrow...back to work I go..... Save me

What if he is just using me.......

My brain is having a field day today trying to work out if it's my BPD attachment or if its real with him

We video chatted for 3hrs today and all I wanted to do was kiss his face 🙈

If you don't like me at my bpd lows you don't deserve me at my bpd highs

Like my BPD brain is telling me this is all too soon but I really like the guy......