bad idea that ended up in calling the crisis hotline and now i have blurry vision and cannot process shit
rae avoding inpatients chronicles@angryomad
i m not bored bored, i am “i wanna abuse substances” bored
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rae avoding inpatients chronicles
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rae avoding inpatients chronicles
@angryomad
24 y/o. vent account ☔️ struggles with BPD, eating disorders and addictions. tw for sh, alcohol, sui
somewhere in neverland 🪼 Katılım Ocak 2024
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“do not come to heaven, do not bother coming” AH i need these lyrics inked into my skin
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i m not bored bored, i am “i wanna abuse substances” bored
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finallyy woke up before noon and managed to be active
rae avoding inpatients chronicles@angryomad
i m spending 2/3 of my day asleep (like deep drowsiness) and i don t even take sleeping pills or benzos right now, ffs.
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i m spending 2/3 of my day asleep (like deep drowsiness) and i don t even take sleeping pills or benzos right now, ffs.
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literally 4 cops and 4 more state police officers here - the fuck 😭 and i have to wait for one more hour and they don t seem to be leaving any time soon ffs
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while people can become better people, csa abusers and apologists are not meant to be forgiven and i am so so so sick of everyone in my life pretending to love me forgetting about that
rae avoding inpatients chronicles@angryomad
tw// self harm i cannot wait to arrive back in my town from my parents place (home town) and relapse into the restrictive ed and once i m not disgustingly fat, i ll sh so badly that it will scare the shit out of the er doctors
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tw// self harm
i cannot wait to arrive back in my town from my parents place (home town) and relapse into the restrictive ed and once i m not disgustingly fat, i ll sh so badly that it will scare the shit out of the er doctors
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dad agreed to buy me whatever blender i want if i lose 20kg. time to put ana to work 🤭 (half joking as i want to lose it faster than average but without overdoing it or falling back into obsessive habits)
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showered + washed hair + hair mask + shaved + morning skin care - all done, now enjoying my ciggie 😌
rae avoding inpatients chronicles@angryomad
best way to start the week 🤌
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okay but i miss it to stopping all my meds level of missing. yeah it can be interpreted as a trauma response i admit that but it feels more though as something out of this world, so not ordinary. it s pure chaos but magical chaos. i just want it back
rae avoding inpatients chronicles@angryomad
it s not only the comfort. it s the insane rush of adrenaline. the sense of belonging when i communicate with the other beings. it s the pure euphoria given by very intense unique emotions that don t even exist
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@rickysteacup hehe this really gives me the motivation to get up and prepare sth beautiful for myself 😌
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@angryomad I used to be so obsessed with pretty smoothie bowls. you absolutely should give it a try
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okay but it s my new biological need to gave my yoghurt bowls look like this
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another day, another “what s in my parents’ fridge?”
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trying to reduce my brain rot through hobbies. so far? it feels and difficult AND that s on doom scrolling and bed rotting (thank you, depression, you so did not turn me into a complete dull, monotonous young adult..)
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this girl on the train gave me the longest side-eyed for taking my pills ?? there were 7 at once m-kay, but i still have my valproat powder to take but the embarrassment 😭
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