ashani the alchemist ☿

Recently had the pleasure of channeling Mixtapes for The Signs 💿✨ for @cosmicthreadmag ‘s February Issue!! It’s The Lover’s Edition ya’ll 🥰 so get into it and see what your love life has in store this month! 🙂‍↕️❤️ Apply to sun, moon, rising, venus for the most accuracy.

@MercuryInVirgo YOU had to be HERE 🙂‍↕️ (ignore my joyful screaming, I could never be ashamed lol)

yall had to be there omfg

@shrili_ Also please share!

@ashanism I think it is worthwhile to discuss negativity in the brain popping up, but I think a lot of people need to understand that simply being told that these are irrational thoughts will not make them go away, LOL.. but it just reminded me of a banger thread I wrote on my last account

I literally cannot deal with telling people how I feel because all that really brings is the person in front of me telling me how I should feel. No need for all that. I will feel my emotions in peace

@shrili_ lol I never meant the point was to directly tell a person they’re irrational 😂 it’s about sharing POVs to gain a deeper understanding of your own feelings. But I get that you don’t think that’s useful for everyone

@shrili_ Lmao I get that!!

@ashanism So, for me, it's actuall that I can and do express a lot of things, just not while I process them, and if someone tries to interrupt in my processing of emotions, aside from a very physical element of "you should eat or sleep", I do not like it

@shrili_ Gotcha! Yes I am. I’m still grasping an understanding of sidereal so that’s why I’m inquiring. I see it differing from person to person and likely has a lot to do with other placements involved. Thanks for responding!

@ashanism you are talking abt sidereal? I think it can really depend, bc sidereal air signs can be better off talking bc they gain emotional comfort through creating connnection. But, it's just not for me, and I don't think it is useful for most sidereal water signs

What I mean by this for example is someone having dark thoughts and not expressing it. Someone having self doubt and not expressing it etc. Someone feeling shame or guilt and not expressing it. But when they do, they find relief. It can go both ways. That’s why I feel it can be a protective mechanism to “not express”. But with you idk your life so I’m not implying it is. More so an observation in other placements.

@ashanism Like, I do not think people should act in irrational ways because they have emotions, but emotions can and will always be irrational, and that is fine. They do not need to be handled with rationality

@shrili_ P.S. but I think you’re just saying you don’t care to be validated? lol because you’re obviously expressing yourself here. Maybe not the most vulnerable parts? Which I get.

Sorry not saying you should express to try to sway people’s irrational emotions. I’m saying we can all have irrational emotions and I’ve noticed other Pisces (water placements really) tend to “not express” but then it comes up in weird behaviors etc lol. Or they are actually repressing something that would be more productive for multiple parties if said. Aka self expression can be productive and healing. But I know that’s case by case.

People who want to install the spirit of guilt in you, are people who seek to own you. And this spirit of guilt is usually never randomly placed either. For the spirit of guilt to work, it already has to dwell within you. You would have already had to have it placed within you by earlier care givers or family members who gave you responsibility over their feelings and made you feel as if you had to earn their forgiveness or good graces.

this retrograde has truly been a breeze for me. it pays to master detachment!

Passivity is at all time high Direct behavior is presumed combative/agressive

lot of my life choices come from the fact that I'd rather be the most miserable, lonely, sad, and broke person than be around someone I don't want to be around, or worse, be around someone who does not want to be around me

know how to talk to his baby, think he miss rachel 🙂‍↕️

WAIT LATTO TOREEEEE

There’s new beginnings hiding in places you cannot see. Forgive yourself and be done with it. Let a new life happen to you.

Give Black Directors a chance… trust me.

Baby Keem on his Grandma still seeing him as a kid after making it in life: “It's funny, she would give me the cliff notes of everything I would do too. And then she would be like, ‘Tell Kendrick that when y'all running around on stage on family ties to make sure that he don't fall.’ You could tell she just saw the same little kid on the stage. So that's why our relationship, it's pure.”

There’s been something particularly grown and sexy about turning 30 that I cannot really verbalize like life remains difficult but more manageable and just better in general and self love+boundaries kicks in on overdrive and the body gets more tea

Elmiene & Tank singing Whitney Houston is my favorite thing today.