My whole life, my worth was decided by my result in my family. My parents never really cared about it because they believed in me and saw how much I worked hard for it. For my grandparents and other people it was different. For them my result was how they are going to treat me and somehow this became my whole personality. Now when I'm struggling to clear this one government exam , everyone's behaviour towards me has changed and I hate this so fucking much. I hate how they designed my self worth and even made me believe that if I don't do great in exams , everyone will stop loving me , stop giving me attention. My mom tells me that I should only care about how she thinks not others but I can't. I am not supposed to live up to everyone's expectations, i should be only caring about living and enjoying my own life but I can never do that because there's this guilt always coming up and making me think I betrayed everyone by enjoying my own life
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