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VMAN: I'd love it if you could talk a bit more about the period right before this. A lot of our readers are artists themselves—photographers, designers, creatives of all kinds—and persistence feels especially important right now. From the outside, your success can look overnight, but you've been working toward it for a long time. Can you paint that a picture for us, and talk about the moments when it was hard to keep going, and what made you stick with it?
CONNOR STORRIE: I will say it was never difficult for me to keep going, because | think l was maybe delusional in a sense—l was just so [set] on, "This is going to work out for me." But I had a shift when I was about 19 or 20. I had been auditioning since I was around 17 or 18, my senior year of high school. By that point, I'd been auditioning for about three years and had nothing. I mean, I had auditioned for so much stuff, and I don't think I had anything—maybe one short film and some random YouTube shorts or student films. And I went into this kind of sad moment where it was the first time I really looked at my life and thought, "Oh, this could not work out." I actually looked that in the eye and was like, 'Okay, why do I want to do this, and what am I going to do about it? And to be completely honest with you, up until that point, I think I wanted to be famous or something. Growing up in the modern world, I think I felt—and I think most people feel-insignificant or unimportant at some point in their lives. From a young age, that feeling for me translated into, ‘What's the opposite of that?' Being looked at. But it wasn't until that sad period that I realized that's no way to live or operate. If you're operating from a place of lack or dissatisfaction with yourself, you're never going to get anywhere. You can have everything in the world, and that's why there are people who have everything they could ever imagine and are still absolutely miserable. In that moment, knowing that this is how I feel, and knowing that it's fully possible—and not only possible, but 99.9% likely that I'll never be what I want to be, meaning a working actor where that's my full-time job and making the movies I want to make at the level want to make them-then what am I going to do? From that point on, I was like, I’m going to try.’ And if eventually I don't want to try anymore, then i’ll stop trying, take the pressure off, and figure that out. It was just about being really honest with myself-why do I want what I want, and if I know ally and accept that this might not work, what am I going to do about it? So I decided to keep going. I think I'm really blessed.
