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AND STAY AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Imagine my family rummages through my bag and they find this bc i havent found a right moment to throw it outside in a random trashcan💀

You'd think im being held at gunpoint with the way i cant reply to people on time (sometimes even months go by)💔

Too afraid to socialize but not afraid to inject drugs into my body 🧏🏻‍♀️

@toreybrawl only thing left to lose is the last shred of dignity bro.. but imo its a big waste of time unless they give you pills!

@barelyparis i got recommended a psychologist for my autism and anxiety years ago and i still havent went to this day bc I'm scared of what they'll say 😹

Nothing makes me feel more pathetic than reading the report from the psychologist regarding their observations about me (i stopped going since December)💀

In the end i found them in my gymbag which is weird because why did i put them there...... not something i need at the gym

The way i panicked today when i couldn't find the laxatives in my backpack and i fr thought my mom went through my bag and threw them away but it would be weird bc it would mean she ignored the needles and alcohol wipes in that same compartment

When only water comes out

@slashh_bs Only 0.7 difference, with my current activity level and diet it shouldn't take long for me to surpass that x

@barelyparis better than 9.6% ig

Did a body scan today and my bodyfat is only 10.3% the coach said i actually need to gain fat mass since mine is low ^3^

Once i get to a 25k daily average i have to finish it for the whole week... its a curse and i need to stop telling myself i have to do it everyday to feel content and satisfied

When i randomly remember i have free will and i can throw up

When someone takes a bite of my food so now I don't know how many calories are in it anymore

I thought my arms were weirdly shaped so i flexed them for fun and found out i have biceps, not sure how when all my arm weights at the gym are set so low cuz they're so weak and i barely eat let alone protein...

i hate being told that i have a normal body and a normal weight .. that’s the problem

16/12/2025 FASTING 0 calories + 25k steps ✅

15/12/2025 DINNER 375 (PUMPKIN, KIMCHI, BROCCOLI, CHICKEN- MINUS EGG) APPLE 2x 160 DARK CHOCOLATE 40 Total today: 575

random food logs to keep myself below my calorie limit (as low as possible but max 600) and bc im bored but make it weird :3

it’s a cal LIMIT not a goal.