bea 𓉸ྀི

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ bea’s updated #edtwt intro looking for more moots !! ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ 𖦹 17 (07) 𖦹 she/her 𖦹 bulimic stoner 𖦹 5’7 𖦹 pro recov ♡ / ↻ to be moots !! rts appreciated ! ᡣ𐭩˙ᵕ˙ᰔᩚ

i have already ruined my future probs like what do i genuinely have left for me. kms kms kms kms kms

my girlfriend makes me want to recover though she used to be disordered and i would sob if i made her relapse she is my world you don’t even understand like. i had never ever been in love like this before.

been omading and drinking my cals in alcohol life is sooo okay right now

at work a customer said i have a beautiful figure and estimated i have a 24 inch waist she was drunk and definitely lying but i have not stopped thinking about it

my meds are giving me acid reflux that genuinely feels so much like bulimia acid reflux it’s triggering.

i might cut myself or sum idk what do yall think i feel too grown for it but mmppfhg im so nothing

i am such an inconvenience bruh

i miss cutting myself sometimes but it makes my skin crawl to think i’ve suffered with sh for half of my life

i can’t even explain the disgust and hatred i hold in my heart towards myself. it’s 1am and i’ll fall asleep if i drink more but also what is there to do

i vowed not to cut myself as an adult because that’s just too damn much which is going well so far but ouh i kinda miss it

god i hate myself fuck why can’t i be more resilient why can’t i just get on with things when im not doing well

sorting the gym membership out soon hopefully so i can stop being miserable and fat idk

okay i’m like nawt doing good rn but i don’t feel like im doing bad enough to seek help however i am drinking at 5pm on a monday because sobriety is hard so idk what that says but yk

fasted all day we are so back

lw come back to me… lw im sorry i didn’t appreciate you more

i need to recover from all my fucking illnesses first please bare with

i refuse to spend another year fat genuinely 2026 WILL be my year i don’t care who says what.

i’m sick and it’s removed my appetite may this be the jumpstart back in to my honeymoon phase i needed.

i got fat BUT i’m 18 now so i can get a full gym membership and like go to pilates classes or sum im defo gonna look into that

i gotta stop cutting myself i turn 18 next month which means i would’ve been cutting myself for half of my life that’s fucking horrifying