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night before fishing #phm #projecthailmary

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@ChromelxD me when your new art (take your time, share whenever you want 🥰)

I have some new art to post but I don't know if I should keep it a surprise for the people who preordered my merch haha

#sixgrace kiss before class, before mission

@arrtnem Thanks , I needed this ! 💛

Laptop closed. Room dark. One strip of streetlight across the wall. Phone six inches from your face, watching someone else do the thing you keep promising yourself you will start. The jealousy is almost physical. Not because they are better. Because they moved. They accepted the possibility of humiliation and bought a future with it. You are still trying to negotiate with shame. Shame is a terrible financial advisor. It always tells you to save face and spend your life. Think about how many decisions have been made to avoid one uncomfortable minute. The message never sent. The person never approached. The class never joined. The city never moved to. The clothes never worn. The truth never said. The project hidden in a folder called FINAL_v7 like a body under the floorboards. All that unlived life, protected from criticism and useless to everyone. You kept it safe. Safe from laughter. Safe from rejection. Safe from becoming real. That is what perfectionism often is. Fear wearing expensive glasses. It tells you the work is not ready. Your timing is wrong. You need more research. More healing. More preparation. It makes cowardice look intelligent. Meanwhile, the person with less talent and more tolerance for looking stupid has already learned what you are still studying. They asked. They failed. They adjusted. They returned. The world rewards contact with reality, not private potential. Potential can sit untouched for fifty years and still feel special. That is why people love it. It lets them imagine greatness without risking evidence. The moment you act, the fantasy becomes measurable. Maybe you are not as good as you thought. Maybe nobody cares. Maybe your first attempt is embarrassing. Probably. That is not the tragedy. The tragedy is protecting your imagined brilliance so carefully that it never becomes anything anyone can touch. You are going to look back eventually. Everyone does. The face in the mirror changes slowly until one morning it does not feel slow anymore. A line beside the mouth. Different light around the eyes. The old urgency becomes heavier because time is no longer abstract. You start remembering all the doors you stood in front of. Not the locked ones. The open ones. The ones you refused to walk through because somebody might have found your entrance awkward. That is a brutal thing to carry. Nobody remembers your embarrassing moment the way you do. They are too busy replaying their own. The person whose judgment kept you awake probably forgot your name. The strangers you were trying to impress have moved on to new strangers. You handed them authority over years of your life without them even asking. Some random person’s potential opinion became the prison guard. That should make you angry. Not performative anger. Useful anger. The kind that gets you out of bed. The kind that presses publish. The kind that lets your hand shake while you do it. Courage rarely feels like confidence. Most of the time it feels like nausea with direction. You do not need to stop caring what people think. That may never happen. You need a fear bigger than their opinion. Fear of waking up inside a life you selected for its low embarrassment rate. Fear of becoming excellent at things you never wanted. Fear of being admired for a version of yourself you secretly resent. Fear of carrying your best work to the grave in perfect condition. That fear can save you. Let people laugh while you are learning. Let them misunderstand the early version. Let your voice crack. Let the post fail. Let the room go quiet. Let someone call you cringe because you cared visibly in front of them. Visible care makes detached people uncomfortable. It reminds them of everything they abandoned to look composed. Their discomfort is not your instruction. You are here for a very short time, no matter how long it feels at twenty-five. The body knows this even when the calendar does not. That is why wasted afternoons sometimes hurt.

Sounds obvious until the room is looking at you. Until your voice shakes. Until the thing you want is suddenly no longer a private fantasy you can admire from a safe distance. It is in your hands now. A microphone. A camera. A message draft. An application. A cheap little prototype on your kitchen table at 01:48. Something visible. Something people can judge. That is where most lives quietly shrink. Not in disaster. In hesitation. In the five seconds where someone decides they would rather remain invisible than risk looking foolish. Embarrassment feels enormous because it happens in public. Wasted life happens slowly and mostly alone. No audience. No dramatic sound. No one gathers around to say, look, this person is abandoning themselves. You just keep postponing. Next month. When I look better. When I know more. When I feel confident. When the idea is perfect. When I have the right equipment. When nobody can laugh. Years disappear inside those sentences. One day you are twenty-two and afraid to post the video because your old classmates might see it. The next time you look up, you are thirty-one, still watching people with half your taste build the life you kept rehearsing in private. That pain has a different temperature. Embarrassment burns hot and leaves fast. Regret sits cold in the bones. A bad performance can ruin your evening. A life built around avoiding bad performances can ruin decades. People survive cringe every day. They mispronounce something in a meeting. They walk into the wrong room. They send the text to the wrong person. They trip while someone attractive is watching. They launch a business nobody buys from. They post something that gets seven likes, three from relatives. They say a joke and the room goes quiet enough to hear a glass touch the table. Nobody dies. The body acts like death is near, though. Face hot. Chest tight. Strange electricity under the skin. You can suddenly feel every limb. The mind starts screaming instructions. Leave.
Delete it.
Pretend it was ironic.
Act like you never cared. That reaction is ancient. Your nervous system still treats social rejection like exile from the tribe. It does not understand comment sections or school group chats or office politics. It just knows the room turned toward you and something inside wants to hide. The problem is that your life is on the other side of that feeling. Almost everything worth becoming requires a temporary loss of dignity. Learning anything makes you look stupid. Loving someone makes you look exposed. Making art makes you look self-important before it makes you look talented. Starting a business makes you look delusional before it makes you look successful. Changing your life makes you look inconsistent to people who were comfortable with the old version. There is no clean entrance. You crawl in awkwardly. You misunderstand things. You use the wrong words. You copy people before finding your own voice. You make work that embarrasses you six months later. You reach out and get ignored. You show up underdressed. Overdressed. Too eager. Too nervous. Too much. Good. At least you were there. The person who never embarrasses themselves is usually just someone who never leaves the approved perimeter. Clean clothes. Safe opinions. Reasonable dreams. A personality edited for minimum resistance. They move through life without many visible failures because they have built the whole structure around avoiding attempts. People might respect them. That is the trap. You can receive social approval for betraying yourself very quietly. Everyone says you are sensible. Stable. Mature. They compliment the job you hate because it sounds respectable. They admire the relationship that keeps you lonely because it looks solid in photographs. They praise your patience while you slowly disappear. Nobody calls it wasted life because nothing is visibly on fire. The fire is under the floor. You feel it at night

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#drivinglessons Casey人生中最美好的一个下午～☀️（6/8）

Casey looks younger than his actual age, due to malnutrition or something. But he is indeed old enough (15) to serve as a getaway driver for someone and get into a fistfight with them over the split. I think.#drivinglessons

I love every rocktiz but I haven't seen any nonbinary Rocky in our swap AUs so here is they🥺#projecthailmary #phm #gracerocky #savestars #rocktiz

#drivinglessons （8/8）

and years later you can even reread it when you forgot you even wrote it, and it’s like a present from past you to future you 😌

writing fic for yourself really is the key to happiness. bc i wrote fic last night, posted it, went to bed and woke up to reread and damn, i really know how to cater to my own needs.

@Odleisidle True , but at what cost (chaos) Still - very much entertainment !

@beingevil Seat 7 comes with the in-built flight entertainment (March,Ken, and that werid elf dude beside him)

10 for my sanity 7 if I want smt fun to happen

“I’m slowly forgetting your face” #projecthailmary #phm #phmtwt #strattland