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📍| Primeiro fragman do 29º episódio de #TaşacakBuDeniz legendado. “Você e eu sabemos que é como se você fosse a filha dela.” • #DenizBaysal • #EsDil •

"Sen de ben de biliyoruz, senin onun kızı gibi olduğunu." 💥 Taşacak Bu Deniz 29. bölüm 1. fragmanı yayında! 📺 #TaşacakBuDeniz yeni bölümüyle cuma 20.00’de @trt1’de!

I wanted to get my feelings out about these two lines. Cause I think they are mainly why Esme and Adil don't actually understand each other, even if they think they do. Adil keeps separating young Esme and adult Esme in his head. Like somehow that will help him process the cruelty that happened to her. But the truth is that the young Esme that had her child taken from her completely informed adult Esme and the way she is. It's the Esme that never actually knew her worth. How would she?! when it's the Esme that had her own father try to k*ll her and never felt the love of a mother. She learned it all by instinct. It's the Esme that went and told Adil she'll marry and so he ended up going to prison for it and therefore couldn't tell him about her baby. She's the Esme that mourned alone for twenty years. That got betrayed by every person close to her. So of course when she got a second chance at being a mother, her first instinct was to go through hell, even losing her own life if need be so that Adil and Eleni could get reunited. To her, she's not the most important person, they are. Of course she won't take even a tiny risk of Adil going to prison once again because of something she said and risk that reunion. Of course she won't dare burden her daughter with carrying a secret as heavy as this like she did all these years. The way Esme loves is basically trying not to have her loved ones go through the hell she went through in any way. Adil never really had to hide a secret or make any sort of sacrifice like that, not cause he doesn't love her as much as she does but that's just how their story went. Esme keeps the small details from Adil to protect his feelings, she didn't wanna tell him about feeding her baby in the beginning, his pain is more important than hers.. she avoided telling him she went to prison to visit him cause she doesn't want him to lose Gezep. She simply doesn't understand that no betrayal hurts like hers does to him. She simply never knew her worth. So Adil doesn't get that it wasn't about Esme leaving her daughter 'motherless', she just chose them over herself while trying to be a mom from afar. The guilt she carried all this time and her lack of self-worth made that decision for her, not knowing that she's as important to Eleni as Adil is. Now when it comes to Esme.. that line (that I've seen a lot of people take in a very weird way).. simply means that Esme thought that her hopes and even hallucinations of finally reuniting with Adil, her love and her daughter's father, were impossible. Cause after he found out about being a father, she lost his love, the way it was. That's what she thinks. Cause she also did what Adil mistakenly did, which was to separate her Adil and Adil the father, when they are exactly the same person. Actually the reason father Adil is so angry at her, is because Adil who loves Esme so much knows best what missing her and living a life without her feels like, and he resents that she put their daughter through that. Eleni's loneliness struck Adil because even though Adil had more family who cared about him than Esme when they were young, he was lonely. Cause according to Adil, if Esme's not there he's 'as alone as a mountain top'. His family is his support, but Esme is his life. So just like Esme doesn't want Eleni to live with a burden of a secret like she did, Adil hates that Eleni lived Esme-less like he did. It's why he kept bringing up him missing her multiple times in that confrontation. Cuz he rightfully feels like she simply doesn't understand how much he longed for her all these years. How much it hurts to miss her. And having his daughter feel that pain (along with missing him too) simply felt like a betrayal to him. If you reached this point in this long post, thank you and I'm sorry 🫶😂 #TaşacakBuDeniz

#UzakŞehir I 62. Bölüm 3. Tanıtım “Çok az kaldı! Albora Köyü'nün meydanında düğün yapacağım.” 🤍 Yeni bölüm bu akşam 20.00’de #KanalD’de! @ayna_yapim @ayyapim @KanalD