"الحمد لله.. أكملت أسبوعاً كاملاً بدون إباحية وبدون معصية!
كنت أغرق في الذنب، واليوم أشعر بنشاط أكبر، نوم أفضل، وقليل من السلام النفسي.
الأمر صعب في البداية، لكن الله ييسر لمن يريد التوبة.
يا من يعاني مثلي سابقاً: ابدأ اليوم، توبة الله واسعة.
اللهم ثبتني وثبت إخواني
Started my repentance journey strong this morning…
Ended it by making this hijab AI edit
Trying so hard not to goon, trying so hard to delete it.
But she looks too good covered like this…
Astaghfirullah.
I’m really trying.
#Repenting#savannahbond#nofap
No matter how many times you've fallen, my friend, just keep repenting.
"...as long as you call upon Me and put your hope in Me, I will forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind."
(Tirmidhi)
No matter how broken you feel, keep praying. Praying is something you've never lost the right to. Showing up to salah broken and ashamed is still showing up. Allah already knows what battle you are fighting, standing in front of Him is the bravest thing you can do.
The biggest lie that your brain conjures at around the 2 week mark is that quitting is pointless and makes no sense. That's why it's so important to not quit quitting.
رَبِّ اشْرَحْ لِي صَدْرِي وَيَسِّرْ لِي أَمْرِي
@repenting__1 Just read the comments, these people want you to fail, they want you to be just as miserable as they are. This addiction is not your friend, and neither are these people.
May Allah give us strength
You MUST add friction between you and the addiction. You MUST make it harder to access.
Delete the apps. Install a blocker. Make relapsing inconvenient enough to think twice.
Willpower is not enough to get through this. Willpower is the backup. Friction is the system.
You have not strayed too far to be forgiven.
The Prophet ﷺ said: whoever says SubhanAllah 100 times, his sins are wiped away even if they were as much as the foam of the sea.
There is no such thing as too much sin to be forgiven.
When you imagine your future self, you probably imagine yourself cured from this. Just a phase you went through and never returned to. And yet time keeps passing, you're still inflicted by this, and that future you is fading. Every relapse, a bit more.