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lazy intro i am a "shed ethusiast" if you couldn't tell 09, preds will be annihilated on sight sussed twice🫩 been here since 2022 call me alex she/him ifb no dni but i sb freely thats about it i think tags #sigtwt #edrtwt #shtwt #shedtwt

i HATE food noise

forgot how pleasant menthols were🤤 IGNORE THE FACT I HAD A TYPO IN MY LAST TWEET

I haven't had a methanol cig in a minute i could go for one ngl

how it feels when you’ve restricted all day and feel thin only to realize you have like 1,000 more days of restriction to actually reach your dream body

he goes out of his way to make sure id never go hungry again its nice that he still sees me as his kid spite my family not seeing me as one anymore, sucks how i can't appreciate his meals the same

dad i love whatever you cook me but its making me maintain😔

NOW I GET THE HYPE AROUND ANGELS FOOD CAKE WDYM ITS ONLY 130 CALS FOR ONE OF THESE 🥹🥹 also safe food snack haul

like ik i was paranoid and delusional, but how did i soley live off of water, cigarettes, energy drinks, 2 cookies, and 1 bowl of oatmeal..????? EVERYDAY?? with the occasional piece of chocolate

HOW DID I RESTRICT HEAVILY DURING BAD DEPRESSIVE EPISODES. THAT'S LIKE THE ONE THING I CANT FIGURE OUT. lost 10lbs in A WEEK AND A FEW DAYS LAST YEAR😭😭 how tf DID i survive on little to nothing

like dont do that until im at bmi 17 or something WHY NOW

pet peeve: constantly getting bruises on my legs spite being bmi 21

ok yeah i gotta stop posting scar pics LMAOO

i wonder why tf i was on shtwt at 12 years old like i discovered shtwt 1-2 months before i turned 13

religion always comes back to haunt me im not religious anymore but theres always that dread that comes from knowing ill never be as hopeful and faithful as i once was, i used to be a better person back then

the dilaudid, kpins, and my sleeping medication ARE FOOT STEPS AWAY from me, but im scared of it failing so like ig im staying alive

i literally have EASY access for an od but the only thing stopping me is being scared of vomiting

if i wanna quit sh i would need to swap it out with another addiction tbh

okay so one downside im now noticing from wl is how uncomfortable i feel when im trying to sit/lay ANYWHERE why tf is my bed hurting my ribs and hips i aint bony nor thin dawg

recently found out that when i touch this specific part of my wrist my fingers (except my thumb) goes NUMB. like my hand feels like it's constantly asleep 😭😭