Elli Mac

i love her so much

@tedcruz fuck you you useless piece of shit

Heidi & I are fervently lifting up in prayer the children and families in the horrific shooting in Uvalde. We are in close contact with local officials, but the precise details are still unfolding. Thank you to heroic law enforcement & first responders for acting so swiftly.

@instagram my app is completely not working and I can't even send a bug report. none of the help articles have been helpful.

@frickingneena who the fuck is this person

Only a vile person wld hear "i help this person with a disability in the morning get ready bc their parents are chronically ill and can't" and respond to that with "that 15 minutes of that type of care doesn't fit the exact service definition being billed, i have to report this"

I've literally been furious for an entire week at the case manager that basically has been playing medicaid cop at the expense of my client getting what he actually needs.

@ravenscimaven this sounds horrifying. thank you for sharing. i have not heard much about these psychiatric symptoms post-COVID. it feels like we learn something new about the impact of this virus everyday..

@ceetee95 Yep

I think I'm finally out of the woods with post-COVID psychosis. Mine lasted for about two months. Y'all. Scariest shit in my life. Researchers think COVID causes direct damage to the brain, triggers an immune response that negatively affects the brain, or changes blood flow 1/

@frickingneena delete it!!!!!!! i'm leaving and i don't want to see either of us here again!! lol

I deleted the Twitter app but I just reinstalled bc if I don't talk about euphoria ill die

logged onto this app to be immediately reminded of why i left! good bye again

@_akuaaa also, if someone is sharing on a public platform that they experienced post-COVID psychosis, it stands to reason that they are open to sharing, at least in some detail, about the experience, which is something i would like to be aware of as a neighbor to ppl recovering from COVID

@ravenscimaven @ceetee95 hi there Elliott, the experience of psychosis itself can be very traumatic for many people. Dr. Baxter may refrain from talking about her experiences with it for that reason. regardless, she has the right to withhold any and all details about any of her medical conditions

@_akuaaa @ravenscimaven she absolutely does and i did not ask for details. she answered my question, thanks!

@ravenscimaven you said psychosis in your first tweet but the subsequent tweets in the thread were about anxiety? were there psychotic symptoms as well?

To everyone asking yes I am vaccinated AND boosted against COVID-19 with zero preexisting conditions. Mild/moderate COVID infection December 2021. 12 weeks later: Cardiac, neurological, digestive, hearing, and metabolic systems significantly impacted. I’m functioning at 50% now

i always joke that i am controversial but it seems to be coming true sorry to offend i guess ??

got kind of sad when i realized that another near stranger from college I occasionally interacted with has blocked me on social media and then I remembered my own sister has me blocked on here and idk I'm just not sure my rejection sensitive ass needs to be out here anymore

my favorite one today was "me and my girlfriend talk about this a lot. she's southern and sometimes she'll say something technically grammatically incorrect and she always says 'does it matter? as long as you know what im talking about' and she's right." 😂

one of my favorite things abt WFH is overhearing all the times thomas says something about me to his coworkers

absolutely insane that a month ago I was hopping out of bed at 6 am, getting fully dressed and accessorizing, excitedly cleaning my house, and reading a chapter of a book before 10 am and now I can barely do the getting out of bed part.

@frickingneena 😭😭😭 its so wild to crave stability and then when I have it my brain just finds a new way to go insane

@ceetee95 It will even out in time!! Your body is trying to adjust to living in non crisis mode. Your nervous system is probably exhausted.

it is hilarious how i rly thought i had depression beat it doesn't make sense!!! i put all the pieces of my life together in a new way that seemed to be working and i STILL get the blues???

@frickingneena yea I'm just not sure. I can't identify a trigger other than just settling in? like there's less novelty and excitement now. I think I just have to move like every 6 months for the rest of my life 😭

@ceetee95 I think after you get out of a bad situation there's the high of relief, and a crash after as you're finally in a still enough place to mourn everything that happened and process it. At least in my experience anyway

but its still better i think? the suicidal ideation is not an intense so far. i have new language and communication skills for my support system. i am trying. i am sober. i just want my rose colored glasses back!!!

but here we are again. i refuse to accept the bipolar diagnosis and the medication bc i still firmly believe that mental health care in the US is gobbledygook but it really does feel like a switch has flipped, like i'm coming off a high, like i lost something and can't find it!