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༺𓆩༒︎𓆪༻ ༝ 21+ ༝ he/they gay ༝ uk ༝ mia ༝ ugw 38kg ༝ ༝ i love kpop, rpgs and fashion. im almost always complaining about something

had to stop fast already cause my support worker made me food:/ and i assume they will keep making sure i eat with how sad ive been lately… so gonna try stay under 700 instead for a bit

i know i’ll end up binging but im gonna try fast till friday…. i feel disgusting after this weekend

gonna have to lower my cals by a huge amount to get past the damage i did this weekend:/

binged today and ate over 3k cals:( not really sure how to not feel bad about this

i still look huge but when i put my hands on my hips i can feel a difference so that’s nice

what’s something super low cal i can have while im high….

I want my wrist to look like this

hope i’m able to lose another 20lbs by the end of the year…..

wanted something sweet so mixed vanilla extract and sweetener w some ice cubes and made some kinda chemical.

can’t sleep so i guess i’ll go back to my pc … need to be up early tomorrow for my carers so we can go grocery shopping im gonna be sooo tired

think i need new scales im worried they aren’t accurate

my carer made me brownies today and then she also got me mcdonald fries….. she’s so lovely to me but i feel so guilty now

feel so pathetic dunno what to do anymore

i think what hurts me the most when i think abt my ed is the fact that i don’t even look disordered ૮꒰˶  - ˕ -꒱ა

i want to start going on early morning walks again

“walked 30k steps on zero cals”

says i still lost after the mess of last night but is it real lol im on track to reach my gw by the end of the year though but so far from everything else i wish i could snap my fingers and it all be okay

had about 1700 calories yesterday from my food and alcohol:/ know it’s not enough to make me gain but every week i’m just ruining stuff by drinking on fridays and shit idk